I woke up sweating, breathless. The death of my family and Takeshi played through my head over and over. I checked my clock and sighed seeing as I hadn't even gotten an hour of sleep. This was going to be a long night.

I looked up to see Gelus standing at the foot of my bed. I didn't look to hard as I was suffering from lack of sleep. I blinked curling back into my little ball. As soon as I laid back down I had fallen asleep again.

I was sitting down in the middle of a staircase landing. I could decide whether to go up or down, but I didn't move; I wouldn't move without knowing what was there for me. I heard my mother's voice, she was singing a lullaby.

"Deep in the meadow,
under the willow a bed of grass, a soft green pillow
Lay down your head,
and close your sleepy eyes
and when they open the sun will rise
Here it's safe
Here it's warm
Here the daisy's guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet and tomorrow brings them true
Here is the place where I loved you
Deep in the meadow,
hidden far away a cloak of leaves,
a moon beam ray forget your woes,
and let your troubles lie
And when again its morning they'll all wash away.
Here it's safe
Here it's warm
Here the daisy's guard you from every harm
Here your dreams are sweet
and tomorrow brings them true.
Here is the place where I love you" She sings quietly but growing louder.

Mom?" I whisper. She was dead I shouldn't be able to hear her voice, but yet I do.

"Misa, it is me." I hear her respond.

I look up to see my family gliding silently down the stairs. Father mother and Tomiyuki were all gliding down the stairs towards me. This can't be real. They were all dead, but yet I can still see them.

"Misa, we are real. But why are you sitting there by yourself crying? You should be up here with us." Dad says smiling down at me.

I blink at them. Why are they here? They all died last year, I had killed Tsugumi for them, but why are they here? "I'm just watching a little bird's nest here. The baby bird was left by its parents so someone has to watch over it." I lie smiling weakly towards the wall so my family can't see the pain in my eyes. "I'm crying because I'm scared for the bird. When they're left they normally don't survive."

Tomiyuki looks at me smiling. "You always did think about others."

"Misa, angel why don't you come with us? We really have missed having you around. You always brighten up the day for us." Dad said as my family stopped a couple of steps above me.

"Mimi, please don't cry it makes me sad." Tomiyuki said moving closer to me. He wiped the tears from my cheek. "Mimi you're so much prettier when you smile. Why don't you smile for us?"

I smile weakly looking at Tomiyuki. He always knew how to make me smile, but why did he have to do this now when he's been gone for a year. "Tomi, why are you smiling? Don't you know what happened to you? Do you guys know what happened?" I ask trying to control my tears without much luck.

"Misa what are you talking about? Nothing has happened. You haven't been home lately and we got worried. So we started to look for you, but we haven't had much luck until now." Mom said smiling weakly. "You were the one to leave us. We never left home."

I forced myself to keep quiet, about their deaths. "I'm sorry I was at college. I'll visit more often from now on." I said smiling. My ears bolted up, I thought I heard a noise coming up the steps. "Who's there to haunt me now?"

Takeshi was slowly walking into view. "Misa when did you get up here? I thought I was all alone up here. And your family is here too?" He says smiling up at me allowing me to see all of his teeth.

Of course he had to show up here. I didn't beat myself up enough over my family. "I just got here. I'm visiting from college. They just came down to see what was taking me so long to visit." I said still smiling weakly.

Tomi looked up at me. "Mimi why does Takeshi look so sad, like he hasn't seen you in a very long time?"

Why were they all so oblivious to the fact that they all died some time ago? "I haven't talked with Takeshi much since going away to college." I say

Takeshi looked up showing that he hadn't aged since his death. "Misa why do you look so old? You're so much older than I remember, you are a 2 or 3 years younger than I so you shouldn't look older than me."

"Mimi what's wrong?" Tomi asked me sitting down beside me.

I blink away the tears in my eyes. "I'm just happy to see you guys and Takeshi." I smile weakly. "What have you guys been up to?"

Takeshi looks at my face with one of realization. "Misa why do you lie to us? Why do you look older than us? Misa, tell me the truth what is wrong?" He asks looking into my eyes with an omniscient look.

I sigh looking away from Takeshi and my family, but Takeshi took my face in his hands and made me look at him. "Takeshi, you're not alive anymore. You haven't been for three years. My family hasn't been for a year. I'm the only one here who is. I'm sorry I didn't think that this was real till now." I whimper quietly trying to avoid everyone's gaze but failing desperately.

"Misa, why are you lying to us? What really happened to you? Why do you look older than you are? You should only be sixteen. Why do you like you're 19?" Takeshi asks looking into my eyes and making me almost melt on the spot. "Come on you don't have to lie to me."

I bite my lip holding back the tears that threatened to overwhelm me. "Takeshi, I am telling the truth, you died because you saved Tomiyuki and me from a gang that I decided to face. You saved us, but in doing so you lost your own life. I'm so sorry." I say as tears flow freely down my face. I no longer had the strength to hold back the tears.

Takeshi looked me in the eyes and realized I wasn't lying I was telling him the truth. "Misa, why?" He asked just two simple words.

Tomi looked at me and put his hand on my knee. "It's okay Mimi, I forgive you. You did what you could to protect us." He said unaware to the fact he died because I wasn't strong enough to guard him from the robber.

"Takeshi, Tomiyuki, Mom, Dad, I'm sorry I couldn't help you." I whispered looking at all of them, taking in their emotions. Mom was stunned not sure if she believes me, Dad looked disappointed like I could've done more to help them, Tomiyuki just smiled at me as if I was some idol that always had everyone's best in mind, and Takeshi had a look that hurt me the most. He looked at me as if I hadn't done anything to help him, as if he had died by my hand. His hands slid off my face and his face twisted into one of anger.

"Misa, you are the one who deserves to be down there locked away from the world. You're the one that should be gone away from your world not me." He spat looking into my eyes disgust written all over his face. "You are the one who deserves punishment not me, or your family. We've done nothing wrong, unlike you."

His words hurt like daggers, but I couldn't move I was frozen still. "Takeshi, I'm sorry. I couldn't do anything. They wouldn't let me near you, I did all that I possible could. Tomi can attest to that." I say tears streaming down my face as I look into his eyes.

"Really then why did you even go in the first place? None of this would be happening if you didn't get involved with The Yakuzathey are notorious for murdering all who oppose them." Takeshi said looking up at my family who had stayed quiet.

"Mimi, is he telling the truth? Did you kill Takeshi-san?" Tomiyuki asked looking at me with his big blue eyes looking into my brown ones.

I tried to look away from them, but I couldn't my eyes were completely locked on Tomiyuki, and Takeshi. "Tomi, I went after this group, because I wanted them to leave us alone, but I couldn't handle it. Takeshi found out about it and came to help me. When he came they were about to kill me, but because he had come I had time to escape from their clutches. After I got away from their grasp they wouldn't let me come back any closer. So I had to leave Takeshi." I explained.

Takeshi took my face with his one hand and roughly brought my face to look at his causing me to whimper in pain. "Why are you lying to them? You didn't try to come back, you were finally free of two things that plagued you." Takeshi spat in my face.

I sat very still and just let the tears stream down my face. I ignored the pain that Takeshi was causing. I would be okay with whatever he was doing, he needed to vent about his unjust death.

"Get up you filthy wench." He said pulling me to my feet and a bit more. I was dangling about a foot off of the steps. "How does it feel to be hurting? To be all alone with no one to help you?"

I grasped feebly at his hand. What little air I had was deteriorating quickly. I had only seconds before I would pass out. "S…Sorry." I choked out quietly.

Takeshi smiled evilly. "Sorry isn't good enough, Misa. I deserve something more from the all exalted Princess." He spat the word into my face before he dropped me to the ground with the last breath of air in my lungs. "I deserve payment for the pain and suffering that you've caused me."

I lie on the ground gasping quietly for breath. "Takeshi." I whispered looking at him. Why was he so angry with me? Is this how he really feels about me? "I'm sorry."

"Sorry isn't worth anything Princess." He glared. "Get up you useless excuse for a life." He looked at Tomiyuki and smiled at him. "I'm sorry about this. We'll be out of the way in a moment."

I wince forcing myself to get up from the ground that at the time was so comfortable. "Takeshi, don't do this. It's not you." I say quietly with tears streaming down my face.

Takeshi looked in my eyes and grabbed either side of my face. "You forfeited that right when you went up against The Yakuza. You knew that going up against them would cause someone their life. You're just glad that it wasn't you. You deserve to rot in hell like the scum you are." Takeshi said as I felt my feet lift off the ground again.

"Takeshi, Please." I begged feebly."

"Mimi, why are you leaving us so soon? I miss you, please don't go away again." Tomiyuki whispered gently grabbing at my pants leg.

"I'm fine Tomiyuki, just go with mom and dad okay? I've got to repay a debt." I whisper looking at Takeshi with a wince. This is what I deserve.

"Is the all-powerful Princess ready to go?" He smirked.

"As I'll ever be." I say as I suddenly drop down into a burning pit. I could feel the fire ripping my flesh from bone. I could feel the tendrils of fire tearing the covering from my skin exposing me to everything present. I try to close my eyes but fail my eyes are swollen open.

A/N: Did I just make you cry for Misa? If I did I'm sorry don't murder my nonexistent offspring. I'm sorry it's touching, I promise this won't happen a lot. I used the lyrics from Rue's lullaby from the Hunger Games. It fits. the song doesn't belong to me. Please R&R I feel more likely to post if I see people are reading it. I am willing to intertwine some ideas you guys have and will acknowledge your help for it.