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So now that this is out of the way I hope you all had a happy new Year!

I know you had to wait for it nearly an eternity. But here it is! And as an extra thank you for being so patient with me I will send the next chapter to my dear Beta today or tomorrow! So the next chapter is just around the corner!

I really enjoyed writing this chapter and I hope you can later say the same thing about reading it. Now I don't want to steal your attention any longer.

So have fun!

Warning: Unbetad (for now =) )

Bellas POV

After Carlisle tended to my injuries he told me, that his first thought that my wrist was broken was wrong and instead it was just sprained. He waited with me until someone knocked on the door. After I said "yes" the door opened and the three kings came into the room. Huh …how strange…who knocks on their own door? After all it is their castle…"Bella, how are you?" Marcus asks me as soon as he enters the room. "Fine, I guess…but I still can't remember much." His eyes narrow as he looks at my bandaged hand.

"What happened?" Carlisle who stood in the corner of the room before steps forward. "She fell out of the bed and landed on her wrist, but it's not broken just sprained. I had to bandage her head again, but luckily she didn't hit her head to hard so there was no damage done." The three kings slowly go to the bed and while Marcus sits down on my right and Caius on my left side Aro stands beside the bed and looks at me worriedly. "Are you sure that you are okay?" I nod and squirm in my place between the four pairs of watchful eyes uncomfortable. "May I go back to the guest room prepared for my family?" With a slight nod of Aro Caius turns to me. "I will be back later." He nods to the kings and goes out of the room.

I look at the kings uncertain. What do they want from me? Why are they here? Why do they even bother with my existence? Why haven't they killed me already? My mind was so occupied with thinking about, what Carlisle had told me and the questions swirling around in my head, that I didn't notice the kings moving until I felt a warm head on my cheek. "Bella…" I look up into big red eyes filled with the same love, adoration and worry, that I saw the last time I saw them. "Bella.." Slowly the hand on my cheek wanders to the back of my head and I find myself in a gentle hug. Seconds later a second pair arms hugs me from behind and I am tightly pressed against a broad chest behind me. "We were so worried. So worried that something could have happened to you…We were so scared for you… Bella"

My name was said with so much love, that I didn't get the meaning of the other words at first. It takes my brain long seconds before it can process the information. Worried…huh…I blink a few times and look around the room slowly. Aware of the arms from behind, that are tightening just slightly at my lack of any response. Aro is at my side his hand on the shoulders of his brother his head against the side of mine. Marcus is in front of me hugging me lightly so that he is still able to look into my eyes. And his eyes were so soulful…not dull like before.

Huh…where did that come from? Why should they be dull…? Focusing back at the matter at hand I close my eyes and concentrate on the soft breath at my ear. I shudder at the feeling of the breath stroking past my ear, the warm bodies pressing into mine and the immense unimaginable feelings of being loved, protected and cared for. They were worried about me? Why? I am just a human? Why should they be worried about a pathetic little human like me? The feeling of being worthless rushed through me and it somehow pained me so much to know, that I will never be good enough. Never be worth it. Edward was right from the beginning. I am just a pathetic useless human, who can't do anything right. I am not good for them. As much as I was not good for Edward.

Slowly I push Marcus away and look down. "You shouldn't….I mean you certainly have…" I trail off and look down at the blanket looking at the soft red material with an intensive gaze. I blink a few times trying to blink the threatening tears away. I can't cry. There is no reason to cry. After all I don't know them. I have only meet them once before and that was after I lost my memories.

No I know them. Or at least they seem familiar. Like I have talked to them before. Touched them before…oh man…what happened during the last week? It's so annoying. I am so confused. My thoughts are jumping all over the place trying to find answers I should already know. A soft touch brings me back from my thoughts and I look up completely forgetting the tears that are still glittering in my eyes. "It's alright…cara mia. We are here." I look to Aro when the arms around me suddenly tighten and Marcus is back to hugging me. "Why are you crying Bella?" I just shake my head and try again to push Marcus away. I don't want him to see me like this I don't want any of them to see me like this. After all I am not supposed to be here in their arms. A human shouldn't be hugged by human blood drinkers. Especially, if said vampires are the rulers of the whole society, who made a strict kill-or-turn rule. They don't need me. Suddenly I hear a purring sound and look around completely confused about where the sound is coming from. As I find nobody else but the vampires in the room I turn back to them. Just then I notice the vibration I can feel from the chest behind me and the sound coming from three different directions. It's such a soothing sound. So calming. It makes me want to cuddle in the strong arms around me. So, that I can feel safer. Protected. And more than anything cared for,, wanted, loved. So that the overwhelming feelings of being useless, worthless and the immense sadness will go away. I want them to need me. To like me. Why am I not good enough? Why am I never good enough?

Hesitantly I reach out and cling to Marcus shirt. Putting my head on his shoulder while Caius and Aro embrace me tighter than before. The purring gets louder and I submit to the beautiful sound. I listen to their purring and feel their warmth as I inhale their scent. So nice…so warm…so protected. It feels as if…as if I belong here. As if this is the place, where I should have been from day one. I can feel them sniff me and touch me. It feels like they are making sure, that I am alright not hurt or sick. So nice….I want to stay like this…I want them to hold me…

A sob falls from my lips and before I can do anything I am downright crying in their arms. They just hold me, stroke my hair and make that purring sound again. Holding me close to them, as they caress my head soothingly. Mumbling sweet things in my ear. "It's alright cara mia, nothing will happen to you. We will make sure of that." Caius soft-spoken determined words bring me back to reality. I really shouldn't do this….but I want to. Just for a few minutes more. I want to pretend. Believe that illusion, that they really care about me…

Just for a few minutes…I want to feel like I am worth something…like anyone cares about me…like they care about me…yeah, just for a few minutes…just a few little meaningless minutes…

...And just for this time I can feel whole again….completely whole...