Surviving on Your Own

by CaseyCuervo

A little over a year after the Eve's War, the pilots are trying to survive during peacetime. They all struggle in their own way. Can they reconnect and save each other from themselves? Or will they destroy their own lives. (Yaoi, and het content) revised/updated chapters. Chaps 36-43 new as of 5/18/14.)

4. Apathetic Me

Surviving on Your Own

Apathetic Me

I'm finding myself more silent than ever these days. I've always been a quiet person, but now I just don't really want to talk. Ever. Catherine's worried, but she's also the only one who's noticed. I can't seem to find the will to care, or soothe her nerves. Seeing the pain of my silence causes her makes me want to recede further into myself. When did I become so apathetic?

I spend most of my time in my trailer, if I'm not working. I do what I can. I help set up, and take down the circus. I feed the lions. I do my bit for the audience. But in my free time I lay in bed, like now. With the TV on, but muted. I don't want to hear it, just see it.

Quatre's on again. He looks good. Out of all my former comrades, I miss him the most. It's kinda funny. Apathetic me, missing the most empathetic person from our group. I wonder about them sometimes. I'm sure they're fine though.

It's dusk now, time to get dressed and ready for my performance. Whoopdee-fucking-doo.