I got near slowly while listening to her sobs. I could feel her sadness. I walked without knowing what i was going to say to her. I was scared. I was scared of the situation, scared of not knowing how she would react, scared of losing her again.

i was only some steps away when she turned around. When she did, my eyes filled with tears. Her eyes were red of crying and her makeup was all over her face. Her clothes were full of dirt, probably for lying in the floor, and she was only wearing shorts and a t-shirt on that terribly cold night. I got near while she stood up and walked to me with her lips trembling./div
""what are you, you doing h, h, here" she said, tears streaming through her cheeks.

" I came to be with you. I came because i know you need me" i answered

"well, youre wrong, bevause i dont need you here"/

"you dont look like it" i said as i took my sweater and placed it in her shoulders. I thought she was going to takeit away, but instead, she held it tighter. "I brought her flowers," i said, refering to her mother./div

"why?" She asked on a whisper

"because she was surely an awesome person. Because she did what i cant: make you happy. And im never going to be able to thank her enough for making you smile and making you happy" i said, meaning it. Then i handed Alaska e flowers and she took them carefully without looking at them, but at me./div
she stayed silent for some seconds, just staring at me.

"why are you doing all this?" She asked

"because i care about you" i simply said

she stayed quiet, so i continued

"I know i dont know you. But i want to. I want to get to know you. I want to be able to understand you. I want to be someone you can trust"/div

""You really wouldnt like to know me... Im different than you think, you dont understand" she said between sobs, more tears coming from her eyes as she talked." i said "we had this converation yesterday, but we'll have it again and again until you understand i want to understand you. Whats the worst thing that could happen if you let me in? If you open up to me and show me the real Alaska?" I asked

"The worst thing?" She asked, while getting a little closer, my sweater still in her shoulders

"Yes, what would be the ultimate, worst thing that could happen if you opened up?"

"Losing you" she said quietly

"Losing me?" I asked "that cant be possible, becuase right now you dont have me. I just live around a person that you made up. Im not with alaska, im with this person you pretend to be. So you dont have me, we'll just be able to actually know each other when you open up" i said"She stayed quiet and simply nodded

"promise me you wont leave me" she said, tears i. Her eyes.

"I wont. Id do anything to be next to you" i said and hugged her.