She looked at me with surprise and i smiled. Seeing her like that, happy, relaxed, was the best thing that could have happened to me on that cold morning. I could see her, she was different, she was real. Everything was different, better, even the room had something different.
"so.." I said "are you coming?" I asked/div
"of course" she said. She looked like a different person, she was no longer trying to call my attention, or trying to be interesting, she was just her. This unsecure, sweet girl who was finally trusting me. And i couldnt have been happier./div
"okay. Ill go outside and ill wait for you while you get dressed" i said as i turned around and started walking to the door./div
She stood up and took me by the arm with a little, shy smile. I could see honesty in her eyes. "You dont have to do that" she said "ill go change in the bathroom" and then, holding my arm, she took me to the bed and made me sit down as she went near the closet./div
just in that moment i realised what was different about the room. It was tidy and wel organised. There were no longer clothes lying around and everything smelled like new. /div
"Do you like how i organized the room?" Se asked, evidently proud of herself./div
"Yeah, its great. When did you do this?" I asked/div
"Yesterday, after talking to you. I came back and realised how i wasnt taking care of my stuff, so ti decided it wasnt to late to start. Ive always been a tidy person. I like things to be organized" she explained and i just staredat her surprised. What a radical change over the night. She was being herself, and she couldnt have been more beautiful./div
I just stayed quiet looking at her, so she talked again, probably realising i was to hipnotized with her to talk. "Okay, ill go change, yqou stay here" she said and took some clothes of the closet before going into the bathroom./div
I sat on one corner of the bed silently, then, i stood up and sat on the chair on front of the desk when i saw the best thing i could have seen. I saw something that showed me she was changing, that showed me she was herself. I saw cigarrettes in the trash bin. A big group, two or three packages, of cigarrettes which were broken and had been thrown into the trash bin. I just stayed there looking at the bin with a smile in my face. She had renounced to hurting herself. She had renounced to dying. And i couldnt have been happier./div
She went out of the bathroom and stood up some steps away from me. I was just smiling like an asshole at the broken cigarrettes. /div
"Hey, are you okay?" She asked as she stepped near me/div
I wanted to tell her i was okay. I wanted to tell her the truth. I wanted to tell her i was wonderful. But i was too happy even to talk, i couldnt make the words come out of my mouth. I nodded and she smiled./div
"So... Are we leaving now? I dont think we'll play your 'truth or truth' game in here..." She didnt refered to my game as silly, or childish or anything she would have said two days before./div
"No, of course not. Come on" i said as i stepped to the door and offered her my arm, which she took with a smile in her face./div