Title:
CONSUMED BY DARKNESS & SAVED BY LIGHT
Summary:
The story you are about to read isn't like your normal joyful sappy love story. This story is sad, dark, and evil. Sakura Haruno has betrayed Konoha and has done a terrible thing to herself. What will she do when the spirits don't agree with her decision? Sakura Haruno's life is about to change. Will the light of hope and happiness overcome the evil and darkness that consumes her?
Chapter Title: Prologue: Diary Entry 2 – The Decision...
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[Sakura's POV]
Dear Diary,
There was blood everywhere. And I loved it. I loved everything about it. The smell was addicting and the sight was intoxicating. This blood-lust was something I've come accustomed to. It became my daily routine to go out and create havoc in near by villages.
Well now that you guys know why I left Konoha, it's time to explain how the darkness has consumed my life. I used to be happy and I could brighten everyone's day. Now I am always angry and I just love to ruin people's lives. I take pride in the activities I take part in. I guess one could say I've gone mad, but I beg to differ. I've made something of myself and I could never be happier.
But you could be wondering how could such a beautiful pink haired girl become so consumed by darkness? Orochimaru. Yes. I bet right now you are completely shocked. When I left the village I went looking for him. I went out to search for power. I knew it would take sometime before I would gain enough power to kill that Uchiha.
So, I decided I needed to speed things up. I needed that curse mark and I stopped at nothing to obtain it. When I finally found Orochimaru it seemed as though he knew exactly what I wanted. And guess what? He gave it to me. He saw potential in me that no one ever saw. I felt overwhelmed with joy that someday I would become stronger than ever before.
Unlike the others I let the curse mark take control over me. It was an amazing feeling. The power just rushing through my veins; I was getting stronger by the minute.
You should see me now. I have never been so gorgeous. I grew my pink hair out to wear it reaches my waist. When I go out to relief myself of my temptations to kill I braid my beautiful long pink hair. My skin is a pale color with a tint of tan and is smooth beyond belief. My body has become more toned. I guess the darkness does make you look like an angel.
This curse mark has consumed everything about me. I am no longer the Sakura everyone once knew.
I know for a fact though that she is still within me. I talk up a good game to you guys to show I am strong and have accepted my sins. But I still have that old Sakura telling me I am doing wrong and I need to stop, but I never do. The curse mark shuts off all my regrets and consumes me even more everyday. I believe I will soon be taken over completely with no way back to how life used to be.
I suppose even if I was to return to my old self nothing could ever be the same again. I may seem a little flip floppy to you guys. Making it seem like I don't care about killing people, but then saying I do have regrets about this new life. Well, it is like I've gone insane and now I have two personalities. My mind won't chose which one it will let take complete control over.
For now I am stuck with my evil side and killing innocent people everyday and then going home to ponder all of my regrets and live in total alienation. I did this all to myself and it is all my fault. I asked for this...but should I give up? I know there is one way out of all this.
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Death.
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I think about death everyday. It would do the world some good if I were gone. People wouldn't die for nothing. I would no longer be a monster roaming this earth. I do believe I am still human that is why I still have the ability to feel bad for what I have done. Day after day I just continue to fall more and more into the darkness. Though I am still drowning in all of my regrets.
How can I rid myself of this new life I have created?
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Death.
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Death. Yes, that has become my only option. But, how? Should I give myself the death I deserve: A long and painful one or do I go out of this world like a coward and make it short and painless? A monster like me should have the worst death ever. But my mind is telling me I am doing something good by ridding myself from this world. So, I believe I should reward myself the pleasure of dying painlessly.
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Death is the only way
There is only one thing left to say;
My life has come to an end,
there is nothing left to mend.
I will take my life
because I have lost all my strive.
I have betrayed everyone
And with this gun –
I will bring it to my head
And everything I once was will all be dead.
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I don't expect anyone to remember me. Though just in case I wrote this diary. It was mostly for me to try and keep my sanity.
I only saved the last two entries I ever made. I burned the other entires I have written over the years. The two entries you may be reading were a quick explanation of what happened to me. I guess I have hope for someday that Naruto will read this and he will finally know what happened.
I guess I just don't have the heart to see the look on his face. The look of disappointment because of who I became.
I just can't bring myself to say I am sorry to everyone...because really I am not. I enjoyed every bit of what I did, but I still had emotions and they ended up getting the best of me. I finally drowned in all of my regrets.
By the time any of the public finds this diary I will in fact be dead.
Yours truly,
Sakura Haruno
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This girl so filled with strife
With darkness she'll take your life
She'll stay for a while
Oh, this girl will make you smile
She shows no fear
This girl will always be near
You will never see her cry
And never know that she just wants to die
But this girl lives in the dark
So, you can never see her painful mark
She may never open her eyes to
Just how much the darkness has fed her lies...
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The two chapters were just the prologue. There is so much more to come! Next chapter is the actual story itself. Tell me what you thought. Hope you guys enjoyed it :)