ATTENTION: I had to re-post this chapter. The other one I posted was not my completed version. Sorry about the inconvenience!

This may seem really rushed. And it actually is quite rushed. I have just finished off my first year of college. I enjoy reading fanfiction, but I have lost the will and time to write fanfiction. I decided to come back and give an ending to this fic and possibly a sequel to my Oneshot. Sorry it took me forever to update. I hope you guys enjoy.

Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto

Sakura's POV

Dear Diary,

Many things have happened since I last wrote. I am not even using the same diary. I got a brand new one. The main reason is because my other entries were found by ANBU and the other is because I have new stories to tell.

I did succeed in killing myself, but a greater being than I granted me if again. This "being" gave me a chance for redemption. I was to be saved by light because of the darkness that consumed me.

I never comprehended what exactly my "light" was supposed to be. I now know that it was that damned village of Konoha and the people that reside in it.

Shikamaru found me after I was apparently "resurrected" and dragged me back to my home village. This is where I was in solitary confinement for six dreadful months. Then I was interrogated and tortured until I gave them every detail of my life after I left Konoha.

They should be thankful that I gave into them. I still have a weak spot when it comes to Naruto. His pleading eyes and happy-go- lucky demeanor just makes me wonder what life would have been like if I never left…

During my six months of solitary confinement is where I came to terms with my past and the darkness that still continued to weigh on my shoulders. I killed so many people and yet I would still do it all over again just to see, smell, touch, and taste blood once more.

Who are you? Are you in touch with all of your darkest fantasies? Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them? I have. I am fucking crazy. But I am free." (Quote from Lana Del Rey's song Ride.)

At least I was free till I was dragged back from Hell to live life again in the village that I ran away from in the first place.

The spirits wanted me to follow their every order. The first one is that I had to seek solace in a place I hated. Clearly, they wanted me to go back Konoha.

The second task was to gain the trust of my old friends. I was able to gain the village's trust by being on probation and being highly monitored. Naruto welcomed me back with open arms. Goodness he is too emotional sometimes. "hn." Look Sasuke is even rubbing off on me. It took Sasuke and I longer to come to terms with everything. Considering a good portion of my past was devoted to wanting to kill him. Though his quiet and relaxing demeanor was something I looked forward to when dealing Naruto's rambunctiousness.

The third was to learn to trust again. Since I was able to have people trust me, I needed to learn how to trust myself. And the fourth task was to find love. The third and fourth tasks were completed together.

I learned to trust people again and cope with my past. I also the love I used to have for Sasuke resurfaced. In return he confessed that he had the same feelings for me before he even left the village.

We were married that year. I do not remember when I was ever the happy. After a year of a happy marriage, we were blessed with two boys. I was ecstatic and I never felt more in love with someone my whole life.

I am not sure when my time will come again to leave this world. That is up to the spirits. In the end, I am thankful for being granted life once more. Although, I do still have dark thoughts and sins never leave me completely. I still ponder killing Sasuke and it sickens me. I hope it never actually happens and that I am able to overcome my own darkness and let Sasuke save me through his light.

Yours truly,

Sakura Haruno

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Sakura never thought she would ever end up with Sasuke Uchiha. It always seemed utterly impossible. But right now laying on the couch in his arms never felt so right.

It took a long time for everything to follow the right path again, but every moment it took to get there was well worth it. Sakura worked hard to gain everyones trust again. But Naruto and Sasuke helped her through a lot of the tough times.

Sakura was grateful for everything and everyone. She now had a beautiful home with a wonderful husband and two amazing twin boys. They were only a couple weeks old. She never knew her life could be so great. She wished the day she left never existed.

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She ran away from everything she knew;

from the pain, lies, and even loved ones too.

She believed she would never return,

but the ones that tried to find her never learned.

Every day that passed her mind went hazy

It was almost like she was going crazy.

She fought herself day by day,

She never had her own way.

It was like she had two different personalities:

She was slowly losing her mentality.

She came back to her home against her own will,

and still had the urges to kill.

The spirits forced her to face her mistakes

and the friendships shall she remake.

Darkness still clouded her mind

and made her not so kind.

The thoughts to kill would not end:

The innocent thoughts could not defend.

She lost herself to the curse,

something the light could not reverse.

This girl truly became someone in disguise,

which will soon lead to her second demise.

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Sakura though she seemed happy on the outside, she was slowly sinking on the inside. She regretted everything she did every single day. Even though Sasuke and Naruto forgave her she knows they will never forget what she did.

Years ago Sakura let the curse mark consume her and to this day she still hears the curse mark in her head telling her to do evil things. They tell her that now since she has Sasuke wrapped around her finger was the time to kill him. She has a had nights where she would stand by his bed side with a knife about to kill him.

But she has had enough strength to hold back and stop herself before things went too far. She knew she truly loved him, but the other half of her just wanted to tear his heart out.

Often though she has had much more good days than bad ones. Maybe I'm getting better. Sakura thought to herself while she was snuggling up to her husband. She wondered if the spirits were ever going to take her away now that she did her duty and fulfilled their wishes. But what if she wasn't done? What else did she need to do? Well if so, she would wait longer because she just didn't want to give up the life she had now. It was simply amazing.

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Sakura and Sasuke started to grow impatient with each other. They started fighting a lot and started to sleep in separate rooms.

Sasuke felt that something was going on with Sakura and she wasn't telling him anything. She was acting differently towards him and the twin boys. She was a whole different person and Sasuke was worried.

Tonight was another night of fighting for them. Sasuke was accusing her of being different again and Sakura being temperamental as it is would just add fire to Sasuke's anger.

It was about an hour of fighting when the two decided they needed time apart. Sasuke went to the living room and lay on the couch. And Sakura went in to kitchen to grab a drink.

When Sakura entered the kitchen she was fuming. She couldn't take this anymore. She was done. The curse has consumed her mind with the thoughts to kill again tonight. And tonight was the night it would happen. She would finally kill Sasuke Uchiha.

She walked over to the cabinet and grabbed to wine glasses. She poured some sake into the two glasses. She then walked over to her medicine cabinet and grabbed some poison hidden behind everything. She made this poison herself not too long ago when she had urges to kill Sasuke again before this. Now she was prepared and ready to take action.

She poured the poison into Sasuke's glass. She picked the glasses up remembering which one was hers and she walked into the living room where Sasuke was.

"Sasuke, darling, I'm so sorry about the fight we had. Let's just forget about it and move on. I know I seem like I've changed, but I am just under a lot of stress right now." Sasuke was sitting on the couch and looked up at her and saw how sorry she looked. He couldn't stay mad at her forever. He saw she had drinks in her hands. How nice. She just wants to have a drink and talk. Now this was the Sakura he knew.

Sasuke patted the seat next to him giving her permission to sit down. And she walked right over and sat down on the couch. She quickly handed him the glass that was filled with both the sake and the poison. She was smiling on the inside knowing that soon he will be dead...

...but once his hand touched the glass Sakura froze. Her mind went hazy and she started to over think everything. What was going on? Her right hand went up to touch her head. Her head was pounding she had such an awful headache. Sasuke looked at her with a worried expression.

Sakura started to doubt her decision again. She couldn't do it. She couldn't kill her own husband, the man she loved. Is she crazy?!

Sasuke put his hand on her leg. "Sakura, are you okay?" He asked and you could just hear the worry in his voice. "Honey, maybe I should be the only one drinking tonight. You look like you might be coming down with something." with that said Sasuke started to move his drink towards his mouth.

Sakura snapped back to reality and noticed he was about to drink the poison. Oh no! She needed to think fast. What was she supposed to do? How had she gotten so far without stopping herself? It was like the evil part of her almost took her over completely.

Sasuke never got to drink his sake because before he knew it Sakura snatched it out of his hands. She drank every last drop of his drink and hers too. "Wow, Sakura. Didn't know you needed a drink that bad. It's okay though. I'll just go get another one." Sasuke was completely oblivious to what was happening.

After Sakura drank the poison it almost hit immediately. She was losing control of her whole body and she crashed to the floor. Sasuke panicked and went down on the floor to be by her. "Sakura! Sakura!" He was panicking. What happened? She didn't look sick enough to just drop dead. He couldn't lose her now. They had two boys upstairs. He needed her. He loved her!

"...Sasuke." Sakura was sweating and she was having trouble breathing.

"It's okay Sakura I'm taking you to the hospital everything will be alright." Sasuke picked her up bridal style and headed for the door. He thought once he arrives at the hospital he'll send someone over the watch his boys. He was so lost and scared that he was about to lose Sakura he didn't know what to do.

"...Sasuke. Stop. The hospital won't help."

"Sakura what are you saying? Yes it will. Now be quiet. We will be there any moment." He was running as fast as he could. She needed to stay strong for him and for the boys.

"It's poison Sasuke. My poison. There is no cure." She said that right when they got to the hospital. She was rushed into a room to get checked. Her words rang in his head over and over. How did she get poison in her system? And why did she even make poison? He never knew she did that. Sasuke was completely dumbfounded. He was a mess and he was pacing back and forth through the waiting room waiting for his wife to be saved. Hoping there was a cure for this 'poison' she so happened to have in her system.

Tsunade came out and approached Sasuke. He was nervous and scared for what she was about to tell him.

"Sasuke. I'm sorry, but there is too much poison in her system and it acted too quickly for us to get a cure. I've never seen a poison like this ever before. She probably has an hour left tops. You should go see her before she dies Sasuke."

Sasuke's world was crashing all around him. He was losing her and he could feel his heart breaking. He ran the room Sakura was in and saw her laying there. She was so pale and lifeless. He has never seen his wife look so weak.

"Sasuke..."

"Sakura I –

"Don't. Please. I don't deserve you or any apology. There are things you don't know Sasuke and I really don't have time to explain. But I will tell you this...I planned on killing you tonight..." She starting couching and little bits of blood started to stain her beautiful white skin. "I've had these thoughts for a while. And still I have the urge to kill. I feel like I've gone crazy and when I think about killing my mind goes to being clouded and I lose myself...B-But I'm able to fight and come back so I don't end up a cold blooded killer again..." She started to cough again just more violently.

"Tonight I got so close to killing you Sasuke, but my mind came back to reality and I stopped it. I just happened to end up in the crossfire. I've been burned and I'm enduring the punishment immensely." Sakura started to cough more and more blood started to come from her mouth. It would have drove Sasuke to insanity to see her in such pain, but he couldn't believe what he was hearing. Did she truly want to kill him?

"I love you Sasuke. I really do. Don't ever doubt that I didn't. I always have loved you. I just got consumed by evil and I let the darkness in and control me. I guess you just can never escape it. Please never leave our boys behind they need you Sasuke. Promise me that."

"I promise, Sakura."

"Thank you, Sasuke. I love you..." The monitor went to a long beeping sound indicating that she was gone. Sakura Haruno has died again.

"I love you, too." He said back to her.

Sasuke could see that everything she said was true. He could see truth in her eyes. Sasuke was always able to read her like a book. He was angry though how everything played out and now she has left him and the boys alone without her. How dare she?

He would never know why she drank the poison she could have just told him and they would have gotten her help. In reality he would never know why. He guessed it would be better that way. Everything that happens in life is unexpected.

Sasuke isn't going to just move on. His friends will be there to help him through it and he has his to two sons. He'll learn to move on without Sakura, but no one will ever take her place.

He sat there. Just listening to the monitor and how his wife's heart has stopped beating. He held her lifeless hand and refused to let go. The nurses gave him his time to mourn. But Sasuke just sat there for hours and just couldn't, wouldn't let her go.

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Again sorry for how rushed the ended came. I just wanted to finish this story and possibly write others. I have grown more towards Itachi and Sakura as a couple than Sasuke and Sakura. I hope you guys liked this story.

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