A/N: All these reviews are making me so happy, my face kind's it kinda hard to contain my massive smile. I do not own Death Note. It belongs to Tsugumi Ohba and Takeshi Obata; they are both extremely talented to say the very least. I only own Amaya, her family and Yami. Oh, and by the way, the yays over powered the nays (for the ship).

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I don't remember being a young child, I only remember existing. I remember everything I did when I was younger, but I wouldn't describe my behavior of that of a child's. I suppose you could say I was depressed, that would have been the case if my brain were able to process emotion like a normal human. My doctors always said it was very rare to have as many rare conditions that I did. High IQ, A/R FID (avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder), I'm a lucid dreamer (that is how I am taking to myself in my sleep) and my inability to experience many emotions. So why was I feeling this way about Light? It could be anxiety, but the last time I got anxiety it was because my mum got the wrong type of toilet paper. I have never been anxious about a person before. So this cannot be happening to something else. And the way he smiles at me, no boy has ever done that before. Except one.

Flashback Mode

I'm sitting on a bench, it is quite cold. Possibly -4°C (24.8°F), a boy around the same age as me approaches. I remember him from science club, he's the one that always want's to be my partner. Of course, I always reject him. I don't like working with or for people, I am not good at cooperating.

"Hey, u-uh. Amaya." He says.

"Hello, Ovid." I say, not really looking him in the eyes, it makes me feel uncomfortable.

He smiles and blushes; I don't know why it is quite cold after all. "You remember my name?" His voice goes all- high pitched at the end, I wonder if his voice is breaking?

"Yes of course I did," After this comment he smiles even more, "You're the one whose name is Latin of origin and means egg shaped. Am I correct?"

He stops smiling really suddenly, "Any way, I didn't come here to discuss names. I wanted to come here to ask you to the 'Welcome to year 7' dance that's being held in a month. Would you like to come with me?" He looks really happy again, weird.

I don't feel comfortable around people, and I don't know why he would need me to go with him. "I don't understand why you need me to go with you. Are you unable to get a lift there? Because if you do need a lift, I won't be available on the night to give you one. I'm going to a university lecture on forensic psychology the very night of the dance."

His face fell again, gee, can't this guy keep the same facial expression for 1 minute. "So, you won't be able to come then."

"Oh, I thought you just wanted a lift. But, no, I won't be able to come, I am to busy."

He just looked down at his feet and turned away. It was in this moment of time I realised that I was just asked out to the year dance by the most popular boy in school who most probably only joined the science club to meet me. I feel nothing, not even a bit of sympathy for him.

End Flashback Mode

That day was the day I actually decided to start improving trying to find out hat emotions I'm feeling, or at least feel something. When I met Light, I started to feel more than I ever have. I use to see him on the pages of a manga, or on the screen of my T.V, but now it is different. I am seeing him in real life, and it is strange. I try to think of the other things I feel around him, and what I like about him. Although I do feel weird, I feel completely natural as well. Like I was meant to be with him. I also couldn't imagine what I would do in the future without having him involved in some way, not just because if he dies I do as well, but I really wouldn't know what to do. And although he is a bit insane about clearing the world of evil, at least he has a passion, which is a major accomplishment for anyone our age. I never felt this way for anyone before.

Am I just getting attached, or could this be love?

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Light POV

Uhh, I can't get to sleep, this is my entire fault. All this over a stupid name as well, and this event probably attracted L's attention even more. Damn you L.

I can't think of L now though, Amaya needs my help. I need to stay awake in case anything happens, someone could come in and take her. My brain is coming up with all different scenarios; all of them unreasonable considering it is 3am. I told Amaya I would go home right after we finished episode 6, but I waited until she fell asleep to come back in, I managed to convince the nurse I wasn't leaving until Amaya did.

I look at her now. She looks so peaceful and vulnerable in her sleep, like a china doll. I stroke her, and then I feel guilty. She doesn't know I am doing this. Do I even have a right to do this? I look at my hands, the hands that caused her to be in this hospital in the first place. I can't hate her for stuffing up my plan, I don't know why, but every time I try to, I just end up making myself feel worse. Because I know it is my fault, I have to protect her from myself. I have to get her to hate Kira, that way she won't go after him, but how will I do that without exposing anything.

"What are you thinking about, you don't look so good Light." Ryuk laughs from above me.

"Nothing, well actually it is something. I have to get her to hate Kira. It's the only way to keep her safe from everyone. But I have to do it in a ay that won't attract attention." I say.

"Well, why don't you just get her to hate you. Wouldn't that be easier?"

He just doesn't get it, "Because I'm selfish."

"Huh, what do you mean selfish?"

"If she hates me, then I won't be able to see her as often as I do. I don't know how I would deal with that."

"Huh?" Ryuk asks, looking even more confused than from my previous statement.

"Ryuk, something about having Amaya around makes me want to smile. Hell, sometimes having her around makes me want to stop punishing criminals. But of course, that is not going to stop me. Her passion to keep looking for Kira is the only thing that is going to keep me from making her hate him."

"Human's are so weird, I'm glad we Shinigami don't have to deal with this emotion."

"What is meant by that Ryuk."

"Love, we don't have deal with such a weakness." Ryuk says laughing his head off.

Love, is this what I am feeling?

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Amaya POV

It's been about a week since the accident, and I still don't know whether it is love or not. But recently, Light has been trying to get me to dislike Kira. It was weird, until I decided to read a bit of the manga. He wants to protect me from everyone. If so, why doesn't he just give up the notebook, I will never understand him.

One thing I do understand is that I have to act natural for the next few days; this is because L is installing cameras into both Light's and my own house. This was rather a bother because I had to go through all my music and rename EVERTHING; I can't have L thinking I know whom his successors are. Neither can I have him thinking that I am weird enough to write music about both him and Light. I had to rename L's theme to 'The Power of Justice' and Light's theme to 'Brocken Intentions'.

In the background Light goes on about more trivial things, like the up-coming To-Oh exam. I'm not really paying attention to him; it is Ryuk I am listening to.

"Light, stop talking about boring things. It is obvious she isn't interested."

Light doesn't reply.

"Some days I just wish you would show the girl the Death Note. Maybe then I can get a reply out of you."

"Light I have to go now, see you tonight or tomorrow?" I ask.

"Yeah, I think mum said that I am coming to your house a bit later to help look after you and your sisters. It seems both our parents are on some important investigation."

I nod as I head through the door and sigh. I have to act slightly more normal than usual this week, which means no talking to Yami in the house.

"Hey, your home. We are almost out of oranges. Do you want to go get some more?" Yami asks me, I don't say anything, "Oh, yeah camera week isn't it? We can go buy some then I can eat them at a park right? Because my withdrawal systems are worse then Ryuk's."

I grab my purse and head out the door, Yami follows me. I need to get her some oranges before the symptoms start.

L POV

"So, your daughter comes home and then goes out again." I ask.

"Well, not really. But if she is taking her purse with her she could be going grocery shopping. We are almost out of bacon." Mitsuko replies.

Interesting. This girl appears to be innocent and guilty at the same time. Is that even possible? Anyway, she seems more likely to be guiltier then innocent. She is quite a unique looking girl though. In fact, I remember something that Watari once said, 'A female version of you'. That is what he said to me. Now that I see her live, I can see why he would say that. She is quite intelligent, but from her old school reports doesn't seem very social and can even appear to be pushing people away.

Now that she has left the house I should probably keep an eye on Light.

A/N: Please don't kill me if you said no for the ship, I promise it probably won't go further than the occasional kiss in later chapters, they are both not very good when it comes to emotions. Anyway, feel free to write constructive criticism or encouraging reviews. They help me think better.