It was Sunday afternoon and Sheldon Cooper was pacing restlessly in his apartment. Now matter how hard he tried he just couldn't settle down. After his fruitless attempt to get back together with Amy, he had return to his apartment and tried to take a nap. After two sleepless nights he was extremely tired, but sleep eluded him yet again. All he could think about was Amy's last words to him. Amy loved him. He knew that much for a while now, but she had never said it to him. He suspected that was because she didn't want to scare him. Hearing her saying it though didn't make him feel scared - oddly enough it made him feel happy and a little angry.
"If she loves me how could she break up with me?" he asked himself.
"Get it together Cooper" said a sterner voice in his head "You're not a hippie"
His internal monologue was interrupted by a knock on his door.
"Amy?" he called out and and went to open the door.
Maybe she finally came to her senses and decided to take him back! Before he could reach the door, it opened and Leonard came in.
"No buddy, just me." he said looking sympathetic "Are you ok?"
"Yes" lied Sheldon.
"Have you contacted Amy yet?" he asked
"Yes, I went over to her apartment this morning but she wouldn't listen to reason."
"Uh-ha" remarked Leonard lifting his eyebrows "Did you beg?"
"No" answered Sheldon rolling his eyes "Can you drive me somewhere?"
"Sure buddy, where?"
"Amy's apartemnt." He hated asking him, but he didn't want to take the bus again.
"Will you beg?" laughed Leonard
"No, I have somethinng else in mind."
They didn't speak again until they were halfway to Glendale. Then it occured to Sheldon that he had forgotten something crucial.
"Leonard" he started carefully "do you have any condoms?"
The bespectacle physicist was so shocked that he lost control of the car and almost crashed.
"Sheldon" he yelled "You can't just spring stuff like that on me! I almost killed us."
"Well, that's your fault not mine." remarked Sheldon.
"Are you telling me you intend to have sex with Amy?"
"Yes...She always wanted a physical relationship, so coitus will make her forgive me."
"Telling her that you love her will make her forgive you. Anyway, do you want any tips?" grinned Leonard.
"No, I've been researching the technics of coitus for a while now."
It was true, ever since their kiss on Valentine's day he found himself craving a more intimate relationship with her. He added kissing on date nights to the RA and he intended to slowly take their relationship to the so-called next level. He was hoping to do that without rush, but now he was out of time. He had to act fast.
Leonard lost control of the car again.
"Get it together, or you will get us killed" remarked Sheldon.
He was standing in front of Amy's door. He had never felt this nervous before. Not even when he met Stephen Hawking. His heart was rating and his palms started to sweat. He knocked quickly before he could lose his nerve and flee.
*Knock* *Knock* *Knock* "Amy"
*Knock* *Knock* *Knock* "Amy"
*Knock* *Knock* *Knock* "Amy"
This time he didn't bother to hide his signature knock. When there was no answer he called out: "Amy if you don't open the door, I will knock all day and all night until you do. And you know I'm very persistent!"
"What?" asked Amy annoyed as she opened the door. He was terrified to see that she was wearing only her bathrobe.
Sheldon was stunned for a second then gulped and spoke to her.
"Well, hello to you too. May I come in?"
"No" she said almost instantly "I was about to take a shower, so leave!"
"Your shower is going to have to wait." said Sheldon and passed through her inside the house.
"Sheldon what the-"
Sheldon grabbed her by the waist and kissed her passionately. He kicked the door closed, and pushed Amy against it. She was stunned for a while, but her hands finally found his shoulders and rested there. They had never kissed like this before. He really liked it. This was going to be much easier than he thought!
After a few minutes he broke the kiss and looked at her. She was flushed, breathless and her pupils were dilated. The kiss defenately had affected her!
She was the first to speak.
"Sheldon" she muttered "What was that all about?"
"I'm initiating coitus so you will take me back!" he announced
Too late he realised that he had said the wrong thing. Her expression changed immediately and her green eyes filled with fury. She pushed him away.
"Unbelievable!" she shrieked "You are using sex as a ploy to get back together with me?"
"Well, yes." he answered honestly.
Maybe he shouldn't have said that either. Her face flushed red and she glared at him. Good job brain.
"Hold on" he cut her off as she opened her mouth to speak "You've always wanted to be intimate, I'm just trying to give you what you want."
"I don't want it like this Sheldon. I never wanted our first time to be part of some scheme to force forget everything that's wrong with us! And most importanlty I wanted you to to crave intimacy as much as I do befored we took our relationship to the next level."
"I do" retorted Sheldon "I really do...I wish I had more time to get used to it, but you're leaving me with no choice!"
"Sex won't win me back Sheldon...You know very well what will but clearly you're not ready for it. I know how I feel about you, and I'm not afraid to admit it. This is the last time I will ask you this Sheldon, do you love me?"
He wanted to say yes, he really did but saying it stood against everything he believed in. He was a brilliant physicist, a genius and he had spent all his life telling himself that he wouldn't be concerned with lesser things that concerned other people. If he did he was just like everyone else, not special at all. And love was one of those lesser things he vowed never to bother with.
His heart wanted to scream "yes", but his ego kept him silent. He looked at Amy who was crying by now. She propably took his silense as a refusal.
"I see" she said quietly and opened the door "Get out Sheldon, and don't you dare bother me again until you man up and you are ready to admit your feelings."
"Amy you don't understand" he tried to salvage the mess he had caused "It's not that I don't have feelings for you..."
"Bullshit!" she snapped "If you loved me you would say it."
She pushed him out and closed the door.
He stared at the closed door, and felt hot tears pouring down his cheeks.
He was despared...He needed that woman in his life, he couldn't lose her...
He had to put his ego aside.
He kneeled on the floor and prepared to knock once again.