Divine Diva
Chapter 32
Troublesome
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The moment you've all been waiting (?) for!
Song Used: Spinning Song (Kagamine Rin/Len)
Since most of you wanted flashback I will do flashback and thank you for all of the sweet reviews.
And I don't know if flashback will make things more 'dramatic' xX Shining Diamond Xx…..
And I already got two reviews about Dawn being 'Mary Sue'
I don't even know the hell what it is! Please care to explain what it is so I can fix it later?
After Dawn met her father she became brighter in some ways but darker in other ways. Well she didn't show the dark part of her a lot but people could feel the aura radiating out of her. Although she didn't know she was actually doing that.
That happened about few days before Christmas break, the girls were done packing and were ready to leave as soon as the break starts.
"I can't believe it! It has been almost a year since then! Can you believe it? It only feels like yesterday that we were practicing our asses off to win Sinnoh Idol and here we are!" May exclaimed.
"Neither can I. Dawn how's your father doing? Are my parents treating him good?" Leaf asked. Dawn's father got hired in the Green Company. But since Dawn's lawful parents being Mr. and Mrs. Green,
"Yeah, I guess so. He said he's doing well. Just sad that he can't see me more often." Dawn said with a smile.
"Well you can meet him like almost every day once the Christmas break starts." Zoey said.
Dawn shrugged, "I'm sure Adelheit probably planned something out. And you with your songs I need to film videos and stuff." Dawn said.
"Don't you want to meet him?" Marina asked.
"I do, but I got too used to not seeing him." Dawn replied sadly.
"Oh…. Well… I'm sure it will work out just fine with you and him. He wouldn't have come back if he didn't care about you or didn't love you." May said.
"Thank you all, I really want to go to sleep now. Good night." Dawn said as she covered the blanket over her body. The girls, one by one fell asleep. It was peaceful night, until a piercing scream filled the air, waking up all of the girls.
"What's going on?" Leaf shrieked, looking down the from the bunk at her friends then saw Dawn, trembling hard.
"Dawn!" She yelled and the other girls all got off of their bunk to go to Dawn's. May hugged her and smoothed down her back, "It's okay Dawn." Dawn shook her head though. "It's not okay." She sobbed and buried her head into May's chest like the brunette was her mother.
"Dawn…." Misty reached out to pat her. Dawn quietly sobbed.
"What did you dream about?" Marina asked. She knew that Dawn sometimes woke up from the nightmare but she never knew that she screamed or heard about it.
"I, I….." Dawn gulped as she looked up at the blunette with watery eyes.
(A/N reference to Chapter 8 and 9)
Dawn was standing, staring at the coffin in front of her. She blinked. She did a tip-toe to see who was in there, and a familiar woman in blue hair was lying there with her hands on her belly. She was wearing white and she looked peaceful.
Dawn walked out of the chamber, everyone was crying. She stopped in front of the mirror, she was looking at herself now, though it wasn't the teenage Dawn, it was when she was young. More than 10 years ago. She had white one piece dress with a brown teddy bear on her hand. She walked back to the coffin and looked at the dead body of the woman.
"Mom…." She managed to say. She felt a hand placed on her shoulder, she looked up and saw her father. He was way younger, was dressed in all black. He tried to look calm as possible but it wasn't working very well since he was on the brink of crying.
He knelt down in front of her and held her shoulders.
"Dawn, my dear, don't trust anyone fully. Do not trust people." He said, biting his lips to stop himself from crying.
'Dad? Dad? Father?' The young Dawn thought.
He couldn't help but now he had tears flowing down, he had determined look.
"I'm so sorry child. From now on, never trust any men. They are using you. Don't trust any man except for me."
Dawn blinked. She was now the Dawn in the age of 6, few months later.
It was her birthday but nobody was around her. She turned on the TV and saw the news, it had her father on the screen. Her eyes widened as she paid attention. Murder? Judge? Court? What are they?
She saw a police station and jail cell. She blinked.
"I'm sorry father. I don't think I can even trust you anymore….." Dawn felt tears crawling down her cheek.
Dawn blinked and her friends were silent.
"Your mother's funeral?" Misty asked and Zoey punched her slightly.
"Is that a nightmare?" Marina asked.
"It is to me." Dawn said as she blankly stared at bed.
The three girls looked at each other then gulped.
"Dawn, please tell us about your past." Leaf said. Dawn blinked and pulled May's sleeve. "Hmm?" May looked down like she was looking down at her daughter.
Dawn mumbled something then May understood what she was meaning.
"You don't mind?" May asked and Dawn nodded. May looked at Zoey and she nodded as well.
"We will explain. It will be too much for Dawn anyway…. She had hard time that's for sure."
10 years ago (This is in Zoey and May's point of view, not 1st person's though)
"Give that back!" May shrieked at the poor boy.
"No way! This is mine!" The boy yelled back at her.
"Give it back or I will kill you." May growled in low voice that made the people around her shudder.
"Maybe you should give it back Jack, I'm sure she will give it back to you." Zoey said, wanting them to stop fighting as soon as possible.
"But-" Jack looked at Zoey then furious May. He didn't want to get killed this early in his age so he just handed the toy to May. May grabbed the toy and went to the corner to play with it.
"You should start being nice to other kids." Zoey said as she crouched down next to her brunette friend.
May didn't answer but glared at the toy. She then shoved it at Zoey's chest and sobbed a little.
"I hate it when she's having mood swings." Kenny said.
"Um, she's in mood swing all the time." Zoey informed him who scratched back of his head.
"I will give that back to Jack." Kenny said and with the toy he walked off.
May stopped sobbing and looked up at Zoey.
"Do you think anyone else here is as pathetic as me?" She asked. Zoey was about to answer when the teacher opened the room of the dark playroom.
"Kids, we have a newcomer. Please greet her, her name is Dawn Berlitz. Dawn, come here." A blue haired girl with a brown teddy bear walked up. As soon as May saw her, she took back what she said a second before the door opened.
"I take it back." May said and Zoey gulped.
If there was a real zombie in the world, the girl, Dawn Berlitz was the one. She was bony, literally. Her blue eyes were blank, black eye was practically covering her whole face. There was no sign of beating or abuse but just the expression on Dawn's face gave everyone in the room a shudder. No word can perfectly describe how depressing she looked.
She mumbled something. The teacher reached out to pat her head but Dawn shrunk and refused to get touched by the woman. The teacher sighed and called Zoey, who was possibly the most normal kid in this room. Zoey walked over.
"Please take good care of Dawn like you did to May." The teacher said. Sincere worriedness was shown on the teacher's face. Zoey nodded and held out her hand to Dawn who backed up slightly.
"I'm Zoey Noy. We are all orphans, so don't feel like you are an outsider. Let's be friends." Zoey said.
"I'm not orphan." Dawn mumbled, still clenching on the teddy bear. Zoey looked up at the teacher, raised her eye brow. Her eyes looked like saying, 'Don't you know the definition of orphanage?'
"Zoey…" The teacher, Ms. Carina, sighed and left the room.
Zoey turned her attention back to Dawn. Dawn was having everyone's attention. If she wasn't so bony and depressing, Zoey thought, she would have been the prettiest girl in the room. Or perhaps the prettiest female she'd ever seen.
May walked up to them. "Hi, I'm May Maple, nice to meet you." May said. Dawn blinked and looked down. Still blinking hard.
"Hey, I was saying something!" May said.
"May!" Kenny walked up and frowned at May. May scowled back and then returned to Dawn with the warmest smile she can ever make.
"Well Dawn, you are one of us no matter if you like it or not. Let's be good friends, okay?" May said and Dawn looked down.
Ever since then Dawn hang out, I mean, got dragged around by May. May tried her best to cheer up this blunette. She like her. A lot. But never did she saw Dawn smile.
Since May was best friends with Kenny and Zoey Dawn got to dragged by them as well. Dawn always had a teddy bear with her, clenching onto it hard.
May, Dawn, Zoey and Kenny were playing on the playground's corner. There was a tree house and it was their play house. Ms. Carina made it for them, she was the kindest adult in the orphanage and the one who cared for them the most. Not like every teacher else were mean though, they were mostly kind and caring.
"You know, Dawn, why did you come here anyway?" May asked. Dawn looked up from her teddy bear and for the first time met eye to eye with May.
"I don't want to talk about it." Dawn said with a voice so soft that it was barely audible.
"May, give up already. For the past 7months we've been trying our asses off to hear her past and you know what we got." Kenny said as he threw his arms in the air in frustration.
"I'm sorry…." Dawn murmured and Kenny immediately took back what he said, telling her that there is nothing for her to be sorry about.
"I just can't tell you yet." Dawn whimpered, her words made the others feel sorry.
"May, come down!" The peeked out the window and saw Mrs. Green, the sponsor of this orphanage along with Ms. Carina. The girls and Kenny climbed down the treehouse and ran to them.
"Hello Mrs. Green." May, Kenny and Zoey said brightly and Dawn gave her a formal acknowledgement.
"Hello children. So nice to meet you, well, May, I have someone who wants to meet you." May tilted her head and followed Mrs. Green inside the building, leaving the rest in the playground. The other kids watched May enter the building.
"Do you think she will go?" A boy asked.
"What do you mean?" A girl asked.
"She's going in there to get adopted. Do you think she will go?" The boy explained.
"She's getting adopted?" Dawn asked. Dawn looked a lot better than the first time they saw her, she was not bony but the depressing eyes were still in remain.
"Well, maybe." Zoey answered the question for Dawn. Dawn bit her lips and walked to the building and entered as well. Few seconds after that the two girls came out to the playground. May didn't look like she was in a good mood at all.
"What happened?" Kenny asked after he and Zoey ran up to her. The other kids surrounded May and Dawn as well.
"I am not leaving Dawn here." May said as she crossed her arms. Dawn looked at her thankfully.
"Well…" The other kids didn't seem to understand May but they just shrugged it off.
It had been since 2 years since Dawn entered the orphanage. Dawn got a little, only a little bit brighter than back then. Dawn was humming a melody, a soft melody.
"Wow, I never thought I would see Dawn sing." Kenny said. Dawn blushed.
"Can you sing the whole?" Zoey asked. Dawn nodded and started to sing. Her soft voice started to echo inside the room.
"Life cuts across time
And while becoming calm,
Cuts eternity's records
Into two overlapping spirals and dies
I'll recite
This song
And carve a moment's memory
Into people's hearts
al a re laye
al a re layo
al a re laya
al a reya... (x2)
Life cuts across time
And while becoming calm,
Cuts eternity's records
Into two overlapping spirals and dies
I'll recite
This song
And carve a moment's memory
Into people's hearts
arare raie
arare raiyo
arare raiya
arareiya (x4)
al a re laye
al a re layo
al a re laya
al a reya... (x2)"
When Dawn finished her friends and everyone else clapped.
"Dawn, your voice is awesome!" May said. Dawn blushed and smiled a little.
"My Mom used to sing this as a lullaby." She said.
"Hey! She smiled!" Kenny said and Dawn looked up at him.
"You just smiled Dawn! I never thought I would see this day." Zoey said as she wiped off her fake tears.
"That wasn't really necessary." Dawn said.
"Oh and she got even more talkative!" May exclaimed. Everyone sweatdropped.
"Dawn, you are okay, right?" Zoey asked suddenly. Dawn bit her lips, "I need to tell you guys something." Her friends blinked and took Dawn to the bedroom she, May and Zoey shared.
"What is it?" Kenny asked.
Dawn took a deep breath and then exhaled. She did it few more times
"I am going to tell you about my past. The reason why I am here."
-end of flashback-
The girls were blinking when Dawn stopped May and Zoey who were taking turns explaining and talking about their past.
"I will tell this part from now." She said as she sat up straight and looked straight into her friends' eyes.
"I am going to repeat what I told them." She said. She took a deep breath
"When I was five, I was alone in the playground. That's all I can remember, or most likely what I want to remember and the next memory was that I was in the hospital. My body remembers what happened. At the age of 5 I was raped."
The girls blinked.
"Dawn?" Leaf opened her mouth after almost 3 minutes of silence and Dawn's patient waiting.
"Yes?" Dawn asked.
"Dawn…." Marina crawled over and hugged Dawn. Dawn hugged her friend back.
"How can you say that like it's nothing?" Misty asked with frustrated voice.
"I forgot. I don't remember it, but my body those. That's why I didn't really like it when guys touched me-"
"Dawn!" Misty and Leaf stood up in anger. They looked at her with tears in their eyes and Marina was already sobbing.
"Guys, I'm not done yet. Please get angry after that." Dawn said rather in calm tone but the others knew that there were tears in her voice.
"And after that, well that was November and at December 20th the court declared 12 years for him. My mom committed suicide in frustration and my father was sent to jail at my birthday for killing him." Dawn finished and sighed.
"I feel like I threw a huge boulder off of my shoulder." She said with very faint smile.
"Sweetheart, how could you live with that?" Leaf asked.
"I told you she looked like a zombie back then." May said.
"Yeah, I only have a faint memory of the moment. I don't quiet recall it. I can only remember a devilish smile and cigarette smell."
"Explains why you threw up when Paul, um, never mind." Marina said and Dawn sighed.
"I don't want to remember that incident. Worst thing that happened to me other than….. Well I am glad that you are not mad or-"
"MAD? Why in the whole wide world of Sinnoh would I be mad? You didn't do anything wrong Dawn. It was that man who did something wrong, not you! Him!" Leaf and Misty yelled.
Dawn looked up at her friends and smiled. "People blames the victim for being raped." The girls blinked.
"Huh?" Marina asked, not quiet understanding what she was talking about.
"'You got raped because you were wearing short skirts. That attracts males.' Or 'You got raped because you were being friendly to boys and making them think you like them.' or 'Then why didn't you say no? If you didn't like it you could've said no'." Dawn took a deep breath.
"HOW IN THE WORLD AM I GOING TO GET OUT OF THERE WHEN A MAN 10 TIMES BIGGER THAN ME IS HOLDING ME DOWN?!" She shouted and growled in frustration. She wasn't crying, she groaned and mumbled and grumbled.
"I got used to it but I just still can't believe people think that way." Dawn looked out the window and sighed. The girls just watched her, not knowing what to say.
Dawn lied down on the bed after all of her friends went back to sleep. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath, feeling much better now to tell them about her past.
She was in a dark alley. Like that day, she was scared but this time she wasn't a small 5-year-old girl who didn't know what to do. She was Dawn Berlitz of the present, she looked around, she was sure she was in alleyway but it was too dark to see things. She felt something pushing her down, 'Oh no'
She screamed in her sleep, she tried to stop this nightmare from repeating and a small light appeared. Someone's silhouette walked over and made the pushing person, or people disappear. She looked up and blinked. 'Do I know you?'
'Perhaps'
'Perhaps not' She could sense the savior smiling but she was awaken from the dream when the light was about to show the savior's face.
She blinked while sitting up, she looked up at the clock and then dragged herself out of the bed, slouching over to the bathroom to get herself cleaned up before school.
Dawn was walking down the hallway, keeping distance from her friends. She wanted to be alone and just think. Her friends were quiet disappointed at this but when she said this is about her future they agreed and all six got separated for the day. She was thinking about herself, her future, her past, and her career. She sighed when she bumped into the person she wants to see the least. No, it's not Ursula.
"Troublesome." Paul grunted and Dawn frowned.
"You seriously had to say that? You could've ignored me." Dawn said, completely irritated.
"Don't you like the nickname? You are the only one I nicknamed anyway." Paul said with a teasing smirk.
"I don't need one from you. Besides, you call Drew grasshead."
"That was Gary's idea, not mine." Paul retorted.
"But you use it, and I don't care who gave Drew that ridiculous nickname." Dawn shot back.
"What is it with you anyway? I can call you whatever I want to."
"Well I don't care if others did but it is you and I don't want to hear any nicknames from you!"
"Just because of that incident?"
"Yes."
"What are you, a five-year-old?"
"I can be if I want to."
And they spent the rest of the lunch time fighting, arguing and yelling at each other viciously. They had a pretty natural talent for making a small thing into big matter and big fight. People were watching but no one ever bothered to until Drew walked up and tried to break them apart.
"Let go of me." Paul growled at his friend in a low voice.
"You guys are both my friends, I don't want to see you two trying to rip each other apart." Drew said as he pulled the plum headed teenager away from Dawn.
"You just want to protect her that's all. As in boyfriend to girlfriend matter." Paul snarled.
"And I'm trying to stop you from making mistakes." Drew retorted, not believing his friend's words.
"What do you care?" Paul said and realized that he was talking bit like Dawn.
"I'm your friend." Drew said, he was getting seriously annoyed.
"You? Well I have a newsflash for you, I don't think of you as a friend anymore." Paul said, glaring down at Drew. Drew didn't respond to Paul, at least with words, he responded to Paul by punching his chin.
Paul stumbled backward. He tried to attack Drew back when Dawn stood between them. He glared down and she glared up back. They leered at each other for few minutes until Paul turned away and was out of the sight.
"Sometimes I don't get that he likes me." Dawn said shaking her head and Drew walked away as well. She sighed and was about to go to her friends when someone stood in front of her.
"What?" she asked.
"You ruined it." Gary said as he glared down. His eyes were red.
Dawn rolled her eyes, "I didn't ruin anything!"
"No you ruined the relationship between them. They used to be really close. Paul's only friend was Drew and Drew still sometimes treat him like he is the only friend he has when there are Jimmy, Ash and I. But now look what you've done. They are fighting over you, and if they were fighting, just fighting, I wouldn't be this angry. They are now hating each other. Despising each other so they could get you." Gary said and Dawn didn't respond. What Gary was saying was right. Paul was showing off that he hated Drew and Drew was doing good job at hiding it but still hates his used-to-be best friend.
"It's them who ruined it, not me." Dawn said stubbornly and walked away to her friends and Gary cursed under his breath. He sighed and looked up. Ceiling, trapped, escape.
Sorry for being crappy. Supposed to be two chapters but I just made to one, telling two stories, isn't it?
My next chapter is about the new album. Do you want all the 6 music videos or only few?
If you want only few, tell me the name of the character you want to see the music video.
Dawn's music video is something that I will use.
Or if you want to see them all, that's fine because I was planning to upload the rest of them on my blog and deviantArt.
So choose~!
Dawn's song
May's song
Misty's song
Leaf's song
Marina's song
Girl chorus
Character Profile #9
Ash Ketchum
Occupation: Student, Singer
Association: BLACK ROCK SHOOTER, Black Divine
Personality: innocent, carefree, positive, goofy, joker
Relatives: Mother, Father
Height: 177cm
Voice: Soraru
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I should start planning on the next story, I currently have two plots. Just read and tell me what you think, I don't need it right now but since I don't have enough time I need to have enough time to hear your opinion and plan it with every details.
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Story review goal: over 80
planned chapters: 10~15
Rated: T
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Story review goal: 300
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