"Oh my God what have I done?" cried Amy out loud.
For years she had craved a more intimate relationship with Sheldon and now that he was literally begging her she turned him down. Sheldon had swept her off her feet with that amazingly passionate kiss and for a moment she had forgotten everything. All the lonely days that summer, all the sleepless nights when she laid awake wondering how he felt about her, all the disappointment after every phone call that he didn't even say "I miss you". That kiss felt like a thousand "I miss you" and a hundred "I love you" but she still needed the words to validate his actions. And once again his words had failed her...
She was thinking of taking a bottle of wine with her and go back to bed when she heard a knock for the third time today.
*Knock* *Knock* *Knock* "Amy"
*Knock* *Knock* *Knock* "Amy"
*Knock* *Knock* *Knock* "Amy"
She had half a mind to leave him there knocking all day, but she decided to give him a last chance. She opened the door and Sheldon Cooper was on his knees with tears in his eyes.
"Oh my God, Sheldon you're not proposing to me are you?" she asked startled
"No" he sniffled "But I will if you want me to! Do you want me to?"
"No" said Amy indignantly "Come inside before somebody sees you"
Sheldon kneeled his way inside the apartment.
"You can stand up Sheldon."
"No" he said "I need to do this right."
He took a deep breath and looked up to her. He really looked like a mess. She didn't notice it earlier but there were black circles under his eyes and he was really pale. His cheeks were wet with tears and his blue eyes were slightly red.
"Amy" he started "we've known each other for four years so you could say that you know me pretty well right?"
As she opened her mouth to respond he continued "There's no need to answer it was a rhitorical question. In fact I think you know me better that anybody. So, you know I'm a very proud, egotistical man who would never beg for forgiveness. But here I am now, on my knees begging you to forgive me for the way I treated you the past four months." he started crying again.
"I'm so sorry Amy... I was so overwhelmed with everything that I lashed out on you. I-I never wanted to say all those things. Please take me back, I swear I'll make it right! I can't lose you Amy, not now that I know how it is to be without you."
Amy felt tears running down her cheeks too as she knelt down. She looked at Sheldon and wiped his tears with her hand.
"Sheldon" she said softly "I know you're proud, but you never had to beg. You never had to bring me gifts or try to seduce me, although that wasn't that bad" she laughed "All you had to do was tell me how you feel about me. And I know you have feelings for me otherwise you wouldn't beg me...So?"
Sheldon held her hand and looked in her eyes.
"I've already told you I can't leave without you...I need you."
She was starting to get irritated again. She pulled her hand away.
"Yes Sheldon, now that we broke up you realized that you can't live without me. You want what you can't have!"
"No, that's not what I meant. I didn't realize that I can't live without you over the past few days, I realized it over the summer. I left to sort out the rest of my problems and all I could think about was you. I rode trains all day and all I could think of was that time we kissed on the train on Valentine's Day."
"Sheldon..." murmured Amy
"Please let me finish! I missed you so much Amy, I know I never said it but I really did...I missed you more than comics, more than physics, more than my house. I missed you even more than my spot."
"Sheldon that's hard to believe...You really love your spot."
"I suppose I love you more."
She started crying again, but this time it was out of happiness.
"You do?" she asked
"Yes Amy, I love you! I'm sorry it took so long to say, but I thought that if I said it the world would fall apart. Seems it didn't."
This time she was the one who grabbed him and kissed him. She put her hands in his hair while he place his in her waist. She was so happy she could kiss him for hours.
Finally, Sheldon broke the kiss and gently caressed her hair.
"I'm sorry I was such an idiot." he whispered in her ear
"I'm sorry I slammed the door in your face - twice!" she replied
"Oh I desrved that. So will you be my girlfriend again?"
"Only if you kneel all the way back to Pasadena."
She saw the horror in Sheldon's face and started laughing. She got up and offered him her hand.
"I'm joking. Of course I'll be your girlfriend I love you."
"Good, my knees are killing me." he said as he took her hand "Now if you don't mind I think I'm going to head home. I haven't slept since Thursday."
"I know, you look like crap" she laughed "You know you could, um, sleep here."
He placed his hand in her waist gain and planted a soft kiss on her lips.
"Amy, I'm going to need more time for that. But we'll get there soon, I promise. I hope you understand." He looked scared suddenly, as if he were afraid that she would break up with him again.
"I understand." she replied and kissed him again.
And she did. They both needed more time, and they had all the time in the world. Now that Amy knew that he loved her she could be patient again. She didn't care about when they were going to have sex, or when they were going to live together, or if they were ever going to get married. She only cared about being with him. She felt that their relationship was heading finally in the right way!
THE END