Chapter Eleven
"Bella? Do you want something to eat?" Esme asked me.
"Not hungry," I mumbled.
Everyone had come home already. Jasper and Alice as well. Jasper was sitting next to me on the floor by Dana. His forehead rested on his knees which were pulled up to his chest and his arms wrapped around them. He hadn't looked at me once, but when he came in and saw Dana on the couch, crying in pain, I could see the anguish in his eyes, which were now a strange copper color. He hadn't consumed enough blood for them to change completely so the gold and the red were mixing oddly. Neither him nor I had moved since taking our places by the couch.
"Come on, Bella," Edward coaxed. "You haven't eaten anything all night."
Alice had called Charlie to convince him to let me stay at the house because 'I was feeling ill and didn't want him to catch it'. So here I was, for as long as I needed to stay. It was near one in the morning and I hadn't eaten since lunchtime at school. I also hadn't slept. I couldn't bring myself to be hungry or tired, though. My new friend was in pain and it was arguably my fault. I bet this wouldn't have happened if I wasn't friends with her. Not only am I a danger magnet, but I make everyone I come in contact with a magnet too.
"Bella, please," Edward continued to coax.
"I'm not hungry," I said firmly through gritted teeth. I wasn't going to move from this spot until I was sure my friend would be okay.
"Leave her alone, Edward," said Rosalie from across the room. "She's probably rethinking her decision right now."
Decision? What decision? Then it dawned on me when I saw the resigned look on Edward's face. They think I don't want to be a vampire after seeing what Dana was going through. Edward would be happy that I would want to stay human but sad that I didn't want forever with him. Rosalie would be happy too. But that wasn't my choice. I was not rethinking my decision to be a vampire.
"Bella?" he asked, looking for confirmation.
"I'm not." I said.
"Not? Not what?"
"Rethinking. I'm not rethinking anything," my voice held no emotion. It was dead and flat.
"What are you thinking, then?" he asked.
"I'm sad for her loss," I said.
"You're such a hypocrite, Bella," Rosalie huffed. Edward glared at her. "You want to be a vampire, throw away your humanity like it's nothing. But as soon as it's happening to someone else, you're suddenly against it! Make up your mind!"
I felt no change in my emotions as she ranted at me, normally I would have cowered at her anger, but right now, I felt nothing. I just looked away before responding calmly to her accusations.
"Dana didn't choose this."
That brought her up short.
"What do you mean, love?" asked Edward.
"I want this, I asked for it. She didn't." That was all I was going to say on the matter and went back to staring at nothing.
A/N: Still not sure where I'm going with this story but I noticed that I keep getting massive amounts of readers and only one review. This makes me sad. I'm worried that people don't like my story, so I'm not posting any more until I get some love. So read and review people!