Thought I'd post another chapter before I see Divergent for the sixth time! I'll still cry when her mom dies

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Chapter 2: Trust

I wake up the next morning back in my cot in the dorms. My jacket lies on the floor, underneath a pillow. I don't know how I got here last night. All I remember is my head against Matthew's shoulder, and my legs swaying back and forth. He must've carried me back here after I fell asleep on top of his chest. My cheeks feel warm and I press my palms to my face as I think of Matthew. Last night I conquered my fear of intimacy. But it wasn't at all how I wanted to. The more I think of him, the dizzier I become, and I have to lie down with my hands over my head until it passes.

I check my watch. It reads 10:45. I'm going to the fringe this afternoon with Amar and George, as David told me yesterday. My hair, which has now grew back below my shoulders, is greasy. I need to shower.

I get up and walk down the hall to the women's restroom. On my way there, I see Matthew walking in my direction. I hope he doesn't notice the redness in my cheeks. I avoid eye contact with him. Last night felt so powerful and amazing when I was in the moment, but this morning it feels like nothing. Maybe Matthew regrets last night. Maybe he doesn't like me after all. Maybe he feels as awkward about it as I do. When I'm about three steps away from him, my eyes flick up to his.

He doesn't even glance my way.

Later, when I return from the fringe, I find myself wandering the halls, going through the same ones over and over to avoid sleep. I don't dare go to Matthew's apartment to ask for some of the serum he gave me last night. Did he really mean all the stuff he said to me? Maybe he was in love with the idea of loving me. I think of Tobias and I's first kiss, deep in the chasm, with the roar of water all around us. Why do I remember everything about that night, and only a few smeared images about last night with Matthew?

I shake my head and start back to the dorms. On my way, I see Tobias leaning against a door to a room I've never seen before. His back faces me. I take a deep breath. I've been planning for days what I would say to him.

"Hey." He turns around and sees me. "Hey" he says back.

I start closer towards him. "Listen" I say, "I've been doing some thinking lately… and you didn't intentionally mean to hurt me, or anyone. You were just trusting your instincts and what you believed was right."

He stares at me.

"And I wasn't jealous of Nita. I just didn't trust her." Tobias nods. "I know" he says. "So are you here to forgive me?" I stand in front of him and look up into his dark blue irises. Much like the color in Matthew's eyes.

"I'm here to ask you if you think that we're still right for each other." I put a hand on his shoulder. "We're not perfect, I know that. And I know that we're going to have disagreements, and I know we need to have disagreements. Because that's how a relationship is supposed to function."

Tobias closes his eyes and presses his forehead to mine.

"Yes" he says. "We are still right for each other."

He opens his eyes and brushes a few strands of loose hair out of my face. "If there's any person in the world that can change me, it's you" he whispers.

I smile, and he presses his lips to mine. I kiss him back, hard, and run my fingers through his hair. He kicks the door behind us open with his heel, and we stumble in. The room is vacant, other than a couch against the back wall, and debris scattering the floor. Tobias scoops me up over his shoulder, and I squeal with delight. He throws me down on the couch, grinning. He's on top of me, kissing my raven tattoos, whispering "perfect" and "beautiful" as his lips touch every inch of my body. And in that moment I realize the half of me that has been empty for weeks is whole again. Tobias brings out the best of me, and he is the only person that I trust to fall in love with me.

I trust him.

So, have you guys heard that they're splitting Allegiant the movie into two parts!? I'm actually kind of happy about that because that just gives us another year of anticipation! And another year before we have to watch Tris, you know…

Anyway, thanks so much for all the good reviews and chapter 3 should be up tomorrow! Be brave.