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Chapter 3 – Allegiant

The weeks that followed our swim were amazing. The friendship between Haru and I grew to the point where we were almost always together. I'd gotten to know the others better as well, Nitori and I had taken to spending every morning at the café next to our dorm, I learned that he was the youngest of five siblings, he had an older brother and three older sisters, who were all athletic in some way, apparently two of his sisters were here for volleyball and his oldest sister and brother had been in the 2012 Olympics, which obviously put a lot of pressure on Nitori to succeed, but even with all that weight on his shoulders he was the kindest person on the planet, he helped me with my times, shared his food with everyone in the dorm, and always had the sweetest smile on his face. So alas although sometimes he talked too much for his own good, Ai and I became fast friends. He could even deal with my mood swings, which earned him bonus points, but still no one dealt with me better than Haru. When I was pissy Haru ignored it, or laughed, or just asked me if I wanted to go swimming, I always said yes, swimming with Haru had become somewhat therapeutic for me, but then swimming with Haru would be therapeutic for anyone.

I sighed and looked at Nitori over my coffee, he smiled cheerfully as soon as he noticed, "Ai," it was a nickname I'd given him, "are you going to that party Saturday?"

"The one Mikoshiba-senpai is throwing?"

"Yeah, he invited us, and Gou." I added the end, the reason I wanted to go was to make sure no one touched my little sister. The amount of attention she been getting from the guys on the swim team was annoying to say the least.

Nitori giggled, "I think he likes her."

"Shut up."

"No, but seriously, I can see why, she's cute," he was trying to push my buttons before adding, "she looks just like you after all."

I blushed at the complement, it had become apparent in the previous weeks that Nitori had something of a crush on me, it was cute, didn't bother me at all, in fact at times when Haru seemed like an impossible goal I'd thought about indulging the idea, but decided against it, remembering that it wasn't the fantastically straight Haru that was the problem, not that it wasn't a problem, but the fact that I was likely to lose my mother if I were ever to be myself, I shook my head forcing the blush from my cheeks, "Are you saying the reason half the guys on the swim team want to fuck my sister is because they actually want to fuck me, but they're straight so she's the next best thing?"

Nitori laughed, "That is exactly what I'm saying."

"Dully noted, I think instead of buying them Christmas presents now I'll just kiss them, take away a year worth of sexual frustration."

"Good idea." He laughed, glancing down at his phone before flashing me the screen, "You have somewhere to be." He reminded me thoughtfully.

"Shit." I whispered sharply, twenty minutes late, I prayed to god Makoto hadn't done my job for me, it'd make my day so much less interesting. I waved goodbye to Nitori who just smiled at me and went on sipping his coffee nonchalantly as I made my way out of the coffee shop and into our residential building as quickly as possible, traipsing up the stairs, nearly tripping quite a few times. I made it to the dorm five minutes later opening the door to see Nagisa's cheerful face flipping pancakes onto an awaiting plate and droopy eyed Rei nearly drooling into his coffee. I stifled a laugh, and made my way to Haru's room, bursting through the door with a wicked grin on my face.

"Gooooooooooooooood morning!" I shouted with the audacity of an American talk show host.

Haru groaned audibly and stuffed his pillow over his face, "Rin." His voice was pleading, laced with sleep, and it went straight to my groin. Damn him and my fetish for morning sex. I tried my best to ignore it, though it was hard to get past his beautifully disheveled appearance.

"Don't Rin me, I'm even late today, you've slept long enough."

"Why do you have to tease me like that? I thought I was safe from you," his next words were laced with acid, "morning people."

Poor Haru was the only person in our entire dorm who liked to sleep late. Everyone else was up and about by six and on Saturdays not later than seven-thirty, though it was possible from his usual morning demeanor there had been a time when Rei too had liked to sleep in, but clearly Nagisa saw to it that didn't happen.

"Oh you love us." I said making my way over to his bed and plopping down beside him.

He moved over just enough to make room for me, but kept his eyes closed, "No. No. I don't." he mumbled. He was so fucking cute.

"Sure ya do." I encouraged.

"I tolerate you." He said turning his back towards me. That just wasn't happening. Nope. Absolutely not. Rude little shit. I pushed his shoulder back down on the mattress and climbed over him, straddling his waist. Haru, of course, thought this was all just a heterosexual best friend trying to wake up his also heterosexual best friend, but to me it was a bit more intimate then that, I'd never tell Haru that obviously, but…yeah. I grabbed the pillow covering his face and pried it away, he immediately he recovered his face with his hands and groaned, "You're heavy…" he said completely unconvincingly.

"You're still not awake." I countered with a grin.

Another groan escaped Haru's lips, sending more blood down south, "Why don't I lock my door?" he asked himself.

"Because Makoto is scared of being trapped by a fire." I answered with a grin, it was true after all, that was one of our little Mako's worst fears.

"I need to request a room change…"

"Well I'm sure you and Nitori would hit it off," I looked at Haru's dirty clothes scattered across the floor, "you're about equal in cleanliness."

"Clean freak." He growled through a yawn.

I moved my face closer to his, "What was that, brat?"

"Clean. Freak."

Our faces were just inches apart now, I could feel his breaths on my lips, his eyes were locked with mine, beautiful and blue, I could feel his muscles tense, as I inched closer. Why wasn't he pulling away? Why hadn't he pushed me off him yet?

As if on cue he started struggling to get out from under me. I began laughing immediately drawing away, "You're an idiot." I said in between laughs as I rolled off of him.

"You almost kissed me…" Haru looked genuinely concerned.

I snorted brushing off his accusation like it was nothing, "As if, who'd ever want to kiss you?"

He rolled his eyes and pushed me off the bed, I landed on the floor where I stayed laughing for a few more minutes as Haru stumbled around his room, pulling on a pair of jeans and a stripped blue and white tee as he went along. His hair was still a mess from sleep when he nodded towards the door a minute later, "Are you gonna stay on the floor like an idiot all day or…?"

I pushed myself to my feet and followed him into the living area, Rei looked a bit less dead now, I noticed his coffee cup was empty, Nagisa was diving face first into a short stack grinning wildly, and the previously missing Makoto was sitting on the couch with Gou who must have arrived during Haru's daily wake up call. She smiled when she saw me, "Finally get him up?" she chimed happily.

"Finally." I replied, purposely throwing myself onto the couch between Mako and Gou. Out of all the boys on the team he was the one I'd have personally chosen for my sister, but that didn't mean he was allowed to look at her, talk to her, or touch her, ever. Same concept as Haru, expect more frantically because Haru, while he did have quite a few girls lined up to date him, wasn't: 1, my baby sister, or 2, my baby sister.

Makoto pretended like he didn't know exactly what I was doing and looked to Haru who'd started washing out Nagisa's pancake pan and began prepping it for his morning dose of mackerel, "I think we're almost out of mackerel Haru, you and Nitori need to go shopping."

Another thing that'd been established throughout the dorm, Haru and Nitori were the grocery shoppers. We'd all tried our hand at it, but those two were the only ones who ever got the right things.

"Noted," Haru said blandly, "but Nitori has his private evaluation with Sensei Gorou until four so I'll have to go by myself."

"I'll go along." Makoto said sweetly, "It's individual evaluation week anyway so I'm not busy."

Damn him I was gonna volunteer, my brain shouted although the rest of me was pretty calm about it. Haru nodded and went about cooking the last bit of mackerel and I turned my attention to Gou, "So how's the internship?"

She groaned, "Relentless, but luckily I have this week off other than a few errands, Ama-chan is doing her evaluations this week just like Gorou so she doesn't need much help."

My sister had been helping both swim coaches non-stop since her first day. I was happy she'd be off, but not so happy she was off the same week as Mikoshiba's party.

"Gosh Gou they've had you working non-stop." Makoto interjected, "I bet you're happy to have a week off."

"Yeah! I really am! I was thinking of going to see a movie later actually, just to relax, you guys should come too!" She was talking to all of us, "We could catch the matinée if we hurry, I mean you guys need to get dressed and stuff, but it'd be fun if you're interested."

Makoto smiled, I held my breath, He wouldn't. "Count me in."

Of course he would. I sighed, now I had to fucking go because if it was just them it'd be a date and that was a huge no. "Haru and I will tag along too."

Haru stopped cooking his fish and looked over at me, "Hmm?"

"The movies, with Gou and Makoto, this afternoon."

"No."

I rolled my eyes, "Come on Haru, live a little."

"Will there be water?"

His infatuation with water well adorable was proving to be quite the hassle, "Probably not?"

"Then no."

"There might be water in the movie."

"Rin…" he said my name like he doubted my statement.

I just smiled at him, "Haru." I mocked his tone.

"I don't think—"

Gou stepped in, "It's alright Makoto and I can jus—"

"No! No no no. No. No, it's fine Haru'll come around."

"Uh…" she sat back in her chair, giving me a strange look, "okay…but if he doesn't want to…"

"He does. He just doesn't know he does yet."

"Um alright." She said, her expression not changing, she looked towards Nagisa and Rei, "What about you guys?"

Nagisa smiled, "We'd love to Gou-san!"

Rei choked on his third cup of coffee, "We would?"

"Yep! We definitely would!"

Rei managed a smiled, "I guess we would then."

"Great! That just leaves you Haru?" Gou said looking towards my friend with a smile that was softer than my usual grin.

"…No."

"But Haru-chan! Everyone is going!" Nagisa said jumping up from his place at the breakfast bar and pulling on Haru's shoulder. The face Haru made was laughable.

"Nitori isn't—"

"Nitori is at his private evaluation." Makoto and I reminded him at the same time.

"Cooooome on Haru-chan!" Nagisa chanted again. He eyed us and made a motion for us to join him and soon the whole room was chanting, "Come on Haru-chan! Come on Haru-chan! Come on Haru-chan!" quite loudly leaving Haru obviously annoyed.

"I'll go if you stop."

Seconds later the room fell silent.

"So you're gonna come then?" I asked with a smirk.

"Fuck you." Was his only response, and my own was a vibrant grin.

Within the next ten minutes it was decided we'd be seeing Allegiant, the third movie in the Divergent series, though Gou and Makoto were the only ones in our whole group who'd actually seen the other two movies, we'd agreed on the condition that it was the only good thing out and also because the movie started at 12:45 and Gou had deemed all the other times too late for her liking which meant the apartment full of sleepy pajama clad boys had one hour to get ready. Luckily for time's sake Makoto and I had already showered and Haru had decided (and by decided I mean forcefully told) not to take a shower due to his habit of spending a literal hour in the shower, sometimes three or four, so only Rei and Nagisa had to take one, which never took too long. Though Makoto did decided to change out of his sweat pants and too big t-shirt he'd worn to bed and I ended up forcing Haru to brush his messy hair.

Miraculously by 12:30 we were all ready to go which was perfect timing seeing as it was a ten minute walk to the theater. The six of us probably looked like something out of a fashion magazine as we walked through the busy campus. I looked down the line, on my far left Gou was wearing a olive drab skater skirt and a floral crop top that read 'BLOSSOM' in thick chunky lettering, the look was accompanied by cream knee-highs and red flats, that matched her ever present red ponytail. Next to her was Makoto, he was dressed simply wearing one of his signature deep V-necked shirts, this particular one was white, he'd paired it with a tan boyfriend sweater and a pair of faded cuffed jeans, light brown Stanford's topped off the look. Nagisa was skipping along beside Makoto wearing a letterman jacket with pink sleeves and blue and yellow accents, underneath he wore a white t-shirt bearing a cute cartoon penguin, and light wash blue jeans with pink high-tops. Rei's outfit consisted of a white button down shirt paired with a loose red tie and a jean jacket. Haru who I thought looked the best out of them all hadn't bothered to change out of yesterday's jeans and the blue and white stripped top though he had managed to throw on a grey drawstring hoodie and vans. I personally wore the same outfit I had been at breakfast, a white V-neck covered with a grey vest and red skinny jeans, I'd also decided to wear a pinstriped fedora to make me look like even more of an asshole and I'd tied my hair back into a short ponytail. We were engaged in comfortable small talk as we approached the theater, everyone bought tickets, I waiting patiently behind Haru as he ordered his own, he patted his pockets, and yawned, alarm filling his eyes he turned to me and whispered, "I forgot my wallet."

I laughed, "You're joking?"

"Nope." He said with a shrug.

"Oh my god, I guess I'll buy your ticket then," I said stepping up to the box office and quickly asking for two.

"Wow," Haru said his eyes wide in false surprise, "almost kisses and movie tickets, watch out it'll start to look like you like me."

I rolled my eyes, I do like you, asshole. Is what I almost said, but alas I hadn't any balls. "You wish." I handed him the ticket, he leaned his head on my shoulder jokingly.

"You want to buy the pop-corn or should I?" he winked, "You did buy the tickets after all, I think I should start pulling some weight in this relationship."

I wish this was a fucking relationship, I thought hopefully, while I simultaneously muttered, "Oh shut up."

"That's not very nice. I think we should take a break."

I laughed, "Probably for the best."

"Probably." He said, as we caught up to the others inside the theater. Of course, Nagisa and Rei sat next to each other hand in hand, Makoto and Gou sat on the end laughing together about one of the trailers, leaving Haru and I to sit in the middle, it was fine at first, until half way through the movie when I glanced over and noticed that Nagisa was slumped up against Rei their hands comfortably intertwined Nagisa's eyes were glued to the film, but Rei's were glued to Nagisa, and although he seemed to be paying attention it was evident by the smile on his face that Nagisa was well aware of what Rei was doing, I looked down at Gou and Makoto, his arm was around her shoulders and I immediately hoped to god he hadn't done the cliché yawn-and-strategically-place-arm-around-hot-girl thing, she didn't seem to mind though her eyes kept switching fondly from the screen to his face. I laughed before realizing this meant Haru and I were the only non-couple in our group, I leaned over to say something to him, before noticing that he was asleep. A smiled tugged at my lips, he was so fucking cute when he slept, a quiet laugh escaped my throat causing Haru to shift his position until he ended up leaning his head on my shoulder instead of his hand, I scooted closer closing the space between us so that he could comfortably lean on me. I felt his weight against me, he pressed his face into my shoulder and I heard him groggily mumble, "Rin…" Through his thick fog of sleep. I couldn't suppress the smile this time, I leaned down and pressed a kiss to his hair before glancing back at the movie only to find Nagisa looking at me curiously, he raised an eyebrow, shrugged and then commenced watching the movie again.

Crap.