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Chapter Eight
She heard the bang as the wheel wrench smacked into the ground and she jumped before gulping, her whole body froze and she was really unsure what he would do now, he was staring at her, waiting to see what she would do next. She felt her body begin to shake and the tears escaped her eyes and he shook his head "Are you proud of yourself?" he asked "Look at you... you are a mess.." he turned away "Because of you.." she shouted and he turned back to her "No.. I didnt make you sleep with that bloke and I didnt make you check up on my girlfriend and I definetly didnt make you violent.." he gestured to the wheel wrench and she sighed "You used me.. and you know what.. Im not perfect.. I totally get that but.. you have broken my heart.. I spend the whole of my time having to watch you and her.. feeling cheated.. cause I know you are perfect for me and I would do any thing to make you happy but you..." she shook her head, her emotion finally taking over "You know what.. just leave me alone Smithy.." she turned away from him and he sighed, she felt his hands on her shoulders and he sighed "Im sorry" he spoke his voice barely above a whispear before he spun her round and his lips gently brushed hers, she allowed him to kiss her for a few moments before she pulled back from him "You cant do this" she pushed him away and he sighed "Do you have any idea how hard it is... how hard the last few years have been with you... you have these walls..." he waived his hands between them and he smiled "I want you.. I love you but you do everything possible to block me.. however hard I try you have them there.. your walls.. stopping me and anyone else from ever getting close to you". She shook her head "No I let you in.." he nodded "Yeah.. maybe you let me in your knickers... but you will never truely let me in your heart.." she nodded "I would.. I just wanted you to prove it... to knock my walls down and make me know you were the only man I am meant to be with". He sighed "I dont know how I am meant to make things better". She shook her head "How can you now... all the while you are with her.. you are hurting me.." he sighed "I want a future" Stevie interupted "So what has she got... that I havent?". He shook her head "You no what... she hasnt got anything... I love you.. more than I could ever imagine it possible to love another person... but I cant do this.. I am fighting a losing battle with you". Seeing the tears roll down his cheeks she glanced down "Then we have to move on..." she covered her face "You need to make things work with Kate..". He sighed "But thats not what I want" he gestured to her "Despite everything that has happened... everything we have both said and done... I want you... and only you Stevie". She felt his hands touch her face and he smiled "I love you... you are my whole world Stevie Moss" he moved into her lips and kissed her, letting his tongue massage hers, before he opened the back door to his car and they fell inside.
A little while had passed and she smiled as he stared up at her, he was half laying and half sitting accross the backseat of his car and she straddled his lap. He cupped her cheeks in his hand and leant up and kissed her lips, she glanced down and he sighed "What?" he asked and she shook her head "Stevie whats wrong?" he asked again and she smiled "How on Earth are we ever going to work?" she asked. He sighed "We can figure something out.." she cut in "No... I cant do it.." she grabbed for her jeans and he lifted her chin so their eyes met "I am sorry any of this has happened.. I am going to end things with Kate.. I know what I want..". She climbed from the backseat of his car and smiled in at him "I love you Smithy.. but you must see this is wrong.." she glanced to him as he stood from the car, zipping his flies up as he went "No... nothing feels wrong when it comes to you Stevie". She leant onto the bonet of his car and sighed "So what happens now?" she asked and he gently touched her lips "Now.. I am going to fix your car and then... I will go home and end things with Kate.. so me and you.. we can have the future we both want". He turned to the car and she smiled slightly "So what.. you just go home and end things.. just like that?" she asked and he turned back to her "Mmmm... just like that Moss... I will pick a fight.. end things.. give it a few weeks and then... me and you can tell people we have decided we are meant to be... we will get you through your probationary period... and then concentrate on making things perfect.." he pecked her lips and she sighed "But..." he cut her off "No... no buts Stevie... me and you... we have our future now". He headed over to the car and began to fix the wheel once again, she let out a sigh before moving over to him slightly "Smithy.." he glanced up as she spoke "Thank you" she continued and he smiled "You are welcome Moss".
Pulling up outside the house just behind him she sighed before watching him climb from the car, she copied his action and he smiled to her "It will all be over soon.." he whispeared "Lets just get it all finished and then we can go to bed" he winked at her before heading towards the front door. He pushed his key into the lock and let them both inside, he smiled down at her but seeing the woman appear in the living room door way, his smile faded. "Where the hell of you been?" she shouted. "I went to change Stevies tyre... you know that.." she interuted him "Well how long does that take... my Dad has had a car accident.. I need you to take me to the train station so I can get to my mum" Smithy nodded "Of corse... is your Dad ok?" he asked and she shrugged her shoulders as tears escaped her eyes "I dont know Smithy... but I need to go... I have packed some of my stuff up... I need to stop by my place and grab a couple of bits.." he nodded "Ok... lets go.." she made her way past Stevie who stood slightly dumbstruck in the door way, she understood Smithy couldnt end things right now, but she felt pushed aside once again as he picked up Kates things and followed his girlfriend from the hallway. "Smithy..." she smiled and he turned back to her "Tell Kate.. I hope her Dad is ok... and I will see you when you later". He nodded slightly before pulling the front door shut and rushing to his car, he placed her things in the boot and slipped in next to her. "When will you be able to follow me down?" Kate asked and he smiled "I dont think I will be able to... I have a lot on at work... I am in court in the morning.. and.." she cut in "Forget it Smithy... just drop me off.. and carry on like normal... I will be fine".
Smithy had driven the whole way to Kates in silence and as he pulled up outside her flat he smiled "Give us your keys.. I'll go". She nodded pulling her keys from her handbag in her lap "I need my hair straightners, phone charger and make up bag.. they are all in my bedroom". He nodded slightly and slipped from the car, she watched him disapear into her block before she pulled her phone out of her handbag. She glanced at the screen and sighed, she had no new calls, but then she was a firm believer in the saying no news was good news. Hearing some drunk men bang on the car window, she jumped and her phone slipped from her hands and down the side of the seat falling underneath, she let her hand slip through the gap she sighed before she opened the door and climbed out, she moved to the backdoor and pullled it open and let her hand slip under the seat, she groped around more and more and feeling the soft material she pulled out the small piece of underwear, staring at the red thong fresh tears filled her eyes and began to run down her cheeks, it definitely wasnt hers and knowing Smithy as well as she did, she knew his car would of been valeted no more than two weeks ago. Hearing her front door bang she pushed it into her pocket and stared up at him as he approached the car "What you doing?" he asked and she smiled "I droped my phone under the seat.." she replied and he nodded "Well pull it forwards.." he smiled moving round and leaning into the passenger side of the car and moving the seat, she gripped her phone and he smiled as he gently touched her cheek "He is going to be ok" he gently kissed her lips before gesturing into the car "Come on... lets get you to the station" he smiled before moving back round to the drivers side. She knew she should confront him, but she didnt want to give him the chance to cover his tracks, she knew who the thong belonged to and she knew the only way to put an end to this was to get rid of Stevie.
Stevie had a bath and then settled down into her bed, with everything that had happened she just wanted to sleep, she knew that she was being selfish but she felt cheated once again, he had chosen to support Kate. She knew it was wrong, Kate had been upset and needed him but then Stevie needed him too. Hearing the front door bang she sunk under the covers and closed her eyes, she listened as he made his way through the house before up the stairs. Arriving outside her bedroom, she heard him tap lightly before the door creaked open "Stevie" he whispeared into the quiet room and he sighed before pulling the door closed again. Her eyes flicked open and she rubbed her tears away, before rolling onto her back. She hated the idea of her ignoring him, it almost broke her heart but she just couldnt take the heartbreak anymore. She heard him make his way back down the stairs and the kitchen door close and she pulled the covers tight round her as she hoped that sleep would find her easily.
Hearing Smithy talking on his phone early the next morning Stevie crossed straight into the bathroom and switched the shower on, the water began to bang against the side of the bath and she stared at her reflection in the mirror, she was so pale, but then she felt ill, it was a regular thing now, when she thought of Smithy and Kate. Hearing the knock on the door she sighed "Yeah?" she asked. "Stevie... can I come in and brush my teeth... I have to get to work". She moved to the door and unlocked it, letting him inside. He smiled and she returned it slightly, she turned back to her shower and felt the heat of the water. His voice startled her "You were asleep when I got back... last night", she turned to him and smiled as he continued to brush his teeth "Sorry..." she replied "Have you heard from Kate this morning?" she asked and he nodded slightly "Yeah... she has rang.." he spat into the sink and turned to her "Her Dad is in a critical condtition.. its not looking good..." she nodded slightly before turning back to the shower "It dont change things..." he spoke and he rested his hands onto her shoulders "It is still you I want... you I love". She sighed as she turned to him "And how can you end things with her at the moment?" she asked and he sighed "A few weeks... I promise". She shook her head "Smithy.. I love you... but I am not prepared to share any more.." he sighed "Please... it will kill her if I ring and finish things... just wait until she gets back... please Stevie". She nodded slightly before turning back to the shower "Nothing is going to happen.. between us until you finish it" he nodded slightly "Dont I even get a kiss?" he smiled and she turned and pecked his cheek "See you at work Smithy" she spoke and he nodded "Yeah.. see you Stevie" he replied.
A futher three days passed, Kate was still away and although things were looking up for her Dad, it was still touch and go. Smithy had decided as soon as she got back he was going to come clean, he didnt want to be without Stevie, to hurt her for a moment longer than he had too. To say things were frosty was an understatement, Stevie barely spoke to him and he was finding things more difficult by the day, Stevie would return fom work late, have a bath and then head straight to bed. He was hating it, he could feel the only important person in his life slipping away from him. "Cheer up... it might never happen" he looked up from the table he was resting at in the canteen to the Sergeant and sighed "It already has Callum.." he cut in "Is Kates Dad ok?". Smithy nodded "No change.." Callum sunk down and Smithy continued "Stevie... she is giving me the cold shoulder". The man nodded "Can you blame her... she probably feels really guilty". Smithy sighed "I love her so much Callum". The young Sergeant smiled "Then show her". Smithy shook his head "How.. she is avoiding me here... she comes home and goes straight to bed.." Callum smiled "Well I just so happen to know.. she had swapped with Banksy and is working the night shift tonight.. she will be in CID all on her own... all night... make a gesture Smithy... prove yourself... and more than anything get your rocks off... you are getting grumpy". Smithy smirked as the Sergeant rose to his feet and replied "Cheers Callum". The man disapeared to the door and he glanced back to his coffee deciding he had to now think of a way to prove himself to Stevie tonight and show her she was the only woman he truely wanted and loved.