Chapter 6
Gay. Gay. Gay.
These are the words that echo in my mind. I hated it. This was the part of me I hated most. Not because I find it disgusting, but because I knew that my family would find it disgusting. I had, at this point, made my parents reject me. Even my sister, Frannie left me. So the idea of making them yet again have a reason to hate me, well I just wasn't so keen on the idea.
But it's true what they say. You can't help who you love. The heart wants what the heart wants.
Soon you'll know why I've mentioned this fact about me…
On Friday that week, I decided I should come out. A secret is always dangerous, especially when you have no one to hold you after the aftermath of its release. You just have to pray that it won't end in a tragedy. You hope beyond hope that the judgmental stares won't hurt you. But it's a risk you have to take.
"Every one quiet down, Quinn has an announcement to make" Mr. Schue said as glee club members were taking their seats.
I'm looking at the faces before me. And trying to remind myself that there are some good people in this room. Of all the people to tell in this school, this was the group of people to tell.
I take a deep breath, " I'm gay." Typically I would survey the room and gauge people's reactions after I say something of this caliber, but I just didn't have the courage.
"That's it?" a familiar voice calls out.
I glance up, Santana.
"Girl, I could've told you that last year. "
I can't help but laugh, " well you should have, I could've used the heads up"
We exchanged a look of mutual friendliness and I felt much more at ease.
You're probably thinking, well that wasn't much of a coming out story. That seemed pretty simple. For me, it wasn't the coming out that was the damaging part. It was what came afterward.