A/N: Hi readers! Please forgive me for the late update (again!). I'm terribly sorry that I lied about the update date and the chapter content. Chapter 9 is about Garfield's reaction to everything and everybody. The next chapter is definitely when the Doom Patrol (and maybe Titans West) will come in. I would like to take this time to thank all of the reoccurring reviewers- Kittyhawk09, Krostovikraven1, LilLilGirl, 00cLosetFreak00, DarkflamesandFire, ChemicalTeardrop, and Deathdeathdeath-, the new reviewers- Glitterp20007 (Guest), Z-King, and Sharpclaws- and the new favoriters/followers- Sharpclaws, TheyCallMeReaper, ButterflyArrows, Warhammr, MsPoisonlsley, and Awesomepsyco. Thank you guys sooo much! Please keep reading and reviewing (also please read and review new readers). If you guys can be specific with my grammar mistakes when you guys review that would be great. Like I said in my profile, I'm not the best writer. As usually I'm sorry for any mistakes but enjoy!

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"Garfield." Garfield turned around a voice called to him through the darkness that he was surrounded in.

"Wh-who's there?" Garfield asked. For a while he heard nothing. Then he heard something take deep heavy breaths.

"A friend, "the voice replied in a deep scratchy voice. The thing came into view. It was a giant monster- no, beast. It was all green like Garfield but his eyes were pure white. Garfield jumped back in fear of the beast. "I mean no you harm Garfield."

"Who-what are you?" Garfield trembled. Sadness and hurt flashed through the Beast's eyes. But it was gone just as quickly as it had came.

"I'm a side that you fear but respect because of our need and overpowering want to protect the ones closest to you," the beast explained in a wise voice. Garfield did feel a sense of respect for it but the beast's voice seemed a little too passionate about protecting the ones closest to him. Garfield contemplated what the beast said.

"So you're like a backup for or a part of Beast Boy? Then why are you talking to me? I'm not Beast Boy," Garfield said in a confused voice. The beast shook his head at Garfield.

"Garfield, if you are not willing to face the truth you will hurt the people around you. I can not let that happen," the beast said in a deep growl. The somewhat threat scared Garfield so much that he fell to the floor as the Beast came toward him. "You must decide who I am and who you are. If you choose this path that you are on Garfield I will hurt you, so become Beast Boy and fast," The beast threaten again as he approached Garfield, standing over him. The beast's eyes boring into Garfield's fearful ones. Garfield felt himself disappear as the beast continued to breathe heavily and stare at Garfield. "Remember Garfield you may not care about Beast Boy but his friends do," the beast advised right before Garfield left the dark place.

Garfield fluttered his eyes open. He looked around the white room frantically thinking that Dr. Lucas must've put some hallucinogenic drug in him. Then one of the many computers had a swirling T on it reminding Garfield that he wasn't in some lab. He was in what the occupants of this building called a med bay. After the robot man (he later found out his name is Cyborg) and the warrior (he also found out that her name is Starfire) left he focused on turning into a fly and look for miss angel (whose name is Raven but he liked miss angel better). Miss angel was the first one that he felt comfortable around in this weird group. The man who looked like a traffic light (his name is Robin) tried to comfort him but Garfield felt like he was a difficult and conflicting man. He also threw off some alpha aura. The robot man-Cyborg made Garfield feel small and weak. It just wasn't Cyborg's size that made Garfield feel inferior; there was something that kept coming into his head when he saw the man- Loser. That word kept playing in his mind when Garfield saw Cyborg. It was said in a jokingly way but it seemed to be a name for him that the ro-Cyborg gave him. The warri-Starfire made Garfield feel guilty. Her eyes would beg him to remember- no be this Beast Boy but Garfield just couldn't do that. This Beast Boy everyone wanted him to be wasn't him. Garfield didn't know a lot about his current situation but he knew that this Beast Boy wasn't him. But his friends were a different story. Garfield had a connection with them but he didn't know them. So when Cyborg and Starfire left he turned himself into a fly and followed them. He saw almost all of them cry (Robin was the only one who didn't cry) and it made him feel like a failure. They were supposed to be smiling or at least they weren't supposed to cry. He felt like that was his job- to make this team happy and remind them that they're just teenagers.

Garfield looked at one of the digital clocks near his bed. It was 3 A.M. Garfield wanted to be surprised but something told him that this was normal. His body was sore from turning when he was injured and whatever happened to him before he woke up in this strange place. The last thing Garfield remembered was that Galtry and Dr. Lucas had him chained to a wall and they were testing him for healing abilities. Then Garfield remembered something, when he said he was eleven everyone looked at him with surprise. Garfield didn't know why though. He remembered that Galtry gave him a cigarette burn on his forearm because he turned 11, which was last month. I need to see myself, Garfield finally decided. He sat up and moved his legs over the bed, onto the floor. Every miniscule move he made was agony but he was used to it. Garfield would be more surprised if he woke up one day not hurting. He limped to the bathroom, saw the mirror over the sink, and undressed (he had boxers on). The person staring back at Garfield was Garfield but it wasn't. The person in the mirror was green everywhere like Garfield- the person had the same ugly elf ears and fang as him but the person had the ugliest scars that Garfield had ever seen. Garfield noticed some as past beatings and there some unknown scars as well. Garfield realized that the person in the mirror could be him just a few years aged but Garfield hoped with all his heart that the ugly person wasn't him. But when Garfield lifted a hand towards his face the person in the mirror did too. Garfield opened his mouth to scream just as the person in the mirror did too. Garfield knew that he was ugly but this person with scars littered over his body yet a stupid childish scar-free face was really ugly he thought. This person was Garfield.

Garfield ran out of the bathroom and the med bay. He didn't know where he was going but he just had to get away from that mirror. He ran down a dark hallway and didn't stop till he reached the end of the hallway. Garfield took deep breaths and leaned toward the wall. Garfield knew he was overreacting about his looks. Everyone he met thought he was ugly, but if he was Beast Boy how did Beast Boy's friends stand to look at him. He stood up against the wall and noticed that the "wall" was sunk into the actual wall. He turned toward the "wall" and that it was actually a door with the name "Beast Boy" on it. Garfield stepped away from the door beholding it as it gave him an ominous feeling. Garfield didn't know if he wanted to go into Beast Boy's room or not. It would give Garfield answers but something told Garfield that if he went into the room he wouldn't like what he found. The only way to know is to find out. Garfield stepped towards the door and pushed it. It didn't open and Garfield looked at the door confusingly. Usual doors opened if you walked up to them or if you pushed them (there was no handle to pull). He pushed it harder but it wouldn't budge.

"Come on, you stupid, door," Garfield huffed as he pushed the door. He did this for five more minutes until he slumped down the door in pain. Then he saw the key pad next to the door and sighed. "I'm such an idiot." Garfield picked himself off the wall and put the first number code that came in his head in the key pad. The door swished open. "Maybe I am Beast Boy- no that's a lie I'm not him." Garfield took a step into the room knowing that he was making a life shattering mistake.

The first thing Garfield notice was a stench that could put tears in anyone's eyes but Garfield just reveled in the smell. It reminded him of a teenager. The room had green walls, a bunk bed, and a drawer. It was simple and not complicated. There wasn't anything personal showing. Garfield liked it but it was too dirty. Although, something told him that it was probably to hide the personal things. The clock on the drawer said it was 4 A.M. He felt horrible and tired but if he fell asleep nightmares would haunt him like they always did. Garfield had nightmares all the time unless he was in enough pain to knock him out or he tired himself out. So Garfield decided to clean the room. He cleaned the room for two hours. He used garbage bags to throw all the trash and put everything in his room in its respected place. He even found a hamper to put all the dirty jumpsuits he found, in. In those two hours Garfield also found a clean jumpsuit and gloves to change into. He noticed that the suit and gloves covered the ugly scars. Garfield breathed a sigh of relief at the new wardrobe.

At the end of two hours Garfield could see the floor and the top of the dresser. He just needed to clean the bed and the closet. He decided to do the bed first (the bed was closer and seemed easier to clean). As he was cleaning the bed he felt something hard under one of the pillows on the bottom bunk. Garfield moved the pillow, it revealed a hardcover book. The book was filled with writing that dated back to 2004. The last one proved to be April 1, 2007- Garfield's birthday. He looked at the back at the front cover. It said Beast Boy in big bold letters. This is his journal. The beast's threat came back into Garfield's mind. Maybe the journal could help him be this Beast Boy the people in the building (and his angel) were hoping he was and seem to need. He opened it and started reading the first entry.

August 4, 2004

I found this old notebook in Mr. Steve's office. So many things are going to happen. I can feel it. The Doom Patrol is training me but they seem to need someone to make them smile. Mom always said that I was good at making people smile, but I haven't done that in so long I wonder if I can make anyone smile anymore. I'm just a little freak. Maybe that will be my superhero codename- Little Freak. Nah, that doesn't sound scary enough. Plus, I want to leave the past in the past. Animal Man sounds good but I'm not a man yet. I also don't like to be called animal. My mom always did like the story Beauty and the Beast. Maybe I can be Beast Boy. Yeah, Beast Boy is perfect. And I may be a Boy but I can still make people smile because my mom (and especially my dad) would want that. I hope I can make you guys happy, too. - Garfield Mark Logan, now Beast Boy

Garfield (now Beast Boy) was so engrossed in reading the first entry over and over again that he didn't hear someone calling him or knocking at his door. So when Raven phased through the door it took him completely by surprise.

"Be-Garfield! What are you doing out of the med bay?" His angel demanded an answer. Beast Boy looked at her in confusion and fear for a minute but then realized who she was. She still glared at him demanding an answer.

"I saw something that I didn't like in the med bay, so I ran," Beast Boy replied shamefully. Raven's glare softened but her questions didn't stop.

"When did this happen and what were you running from?" Beast Boy looked up at his angel and saw that she wasn't going to judge him. She just wanted answers.

"I-I-I woke u-u-u-up at 3 and I was running away from the mirror." Beast Boy stuttered a bit. The truth felt like some foreign language coming out of his mouth- weird and it just didn't sound right. A look of shock passed Raven's face. Then the indifference was back.

"Why were you up by three?" Raven, his angel asked. He didn't know how to answer that question. He did have a nightmare but that was a habit for Garfield but it also seemed that Beast Boy always woke up around that time as well. He didn't want to deceive his angel because there was something that tugged at his heart every time he looked into her beautifully stunning violet eyes. That tug begged him to not lie to her, so he didn't.

"I usually have nightmares and it seems that Beast- I wake up this early by habit." Beast Boy's hand started to rub his neck nervously as he stared at the ground. Garfield could feel miss angel's eyes look at him quizzically. "What about you, miss angel?" Beast Boy asked her to end her questioning gaze at him. She looked up at him and her eyes narrowed a bit.

"My name is Raven not angel and I always get up this early. Do you finally remember who you are and what do you mean that you always get nightmares and wake up this early?" Raven questioned Beast Boy slowly but he still stepped back in fear. For some reason he started to feel like he was suffocating. Raven was getting too close to him. She must've noticed his reaction because she stepped back and mumbled an apology. She still looked indifferent (maybe even a little annoyed) but something told Beast Boy that she was hurt.

"Do-don't apologize. I think I was and still am not use to people finding things like this out about me. To be totally honest I can't answer those questions because I don't know or I'm not ready to answer them myself. Please forgive me miss an- I mean miss Raven," Beast Boy told Raven shamefully. Something in him wanted to tell her everything he felt but he didn't know why or how to do that. Raven looked back at Beast Boy in surprise and opened her mouth but then closed it. "Is something wrong Miss Raven?"

"Nothing's wrong, it's just that you never explained anything to me, like that before," Raven said in a monotone voice but there was a hint of surprise in it. This made Beast Boy heat up. How different was he compared to the old Beast Boy. "And don't call me miss. You're only two years younger than me," Raven said as she gained her composure. Beast Boy's eyes widen.

"You're thirteen!"

"No, idiot I'm 16 and you're 13 turning 14," Raven huffed. Beast Boy was a little hurt when she called him an idiot but he just smiled at her knowing that things were going back to normal for her. Then he realized that Raven made a mistake.

"Um, I'm already 14 Mis- Raven." Raven looked at Beast Boy with irritation.

"No you're 13 turning 14. Your birthday is August 4. You finally told us last month, when we realized that we've never celebrated your birthday before," Raven explained in an exasperated voice. This confused Beast Boy even more. Why would he lie about his birth- that day is cursed, a voice in his mind told him. Now Beast Boy remembered that the most horrible life-changing moments for him happened around his actual birthday. But why was August 4 his new birthday?

"Actually Raven, I'm sure I lied then too, but I don't know why. My actual birthday is April 1 but I've never liked that date anyway, so I guess August 4 is fine." Beast Boy smiled up at Raven but she didn't smile back. She just stared at him with an open mouth. Beast Boy could see all the angry, hurt, and guilty thoughts swim through her mind. So he decided to tell her a joke. "Hey Rae, what has pale skin and a white heart?"

"What?" Raven asked starting to get out of her shock.

"You, my pretty angel," Beast Boy said as he wriggled his eyebrows. Something in him knew the gesture would either make Raven smile or annoy her. But he didn't know why. Raven then narrowed her eyes in anger at Beast Boy. Note: the eyebrow gesture makes Raven mad.

"One- it's not Rae, it's Raven, two- I'm not an angel, and three- where is your proof that your birthday is April 1?" Raven asked in a cold monotone voice. Beast Boy took a step back but Raven just kept coming towards him.

"M-m-m-my b-b-b-birth certificate is right here," Beast Boy stammered as he went over to the drawer. He found a lot of his personal things under the piles of mess. His drawer was too big for his clothes, so he put the personal things in the drawer. He grabbed the copy of his birth certificate out of the top drawer and handed it to Raven. She took it from him and examined it. While she examined his birth certificate Beast Boy couldn't help but observe Raven's beauty. She had the perfect figure for him- wide hips with a tiny waist, long legs and an average sized chest. Any guy would drool at the sight of her. Her face was like a cherry on top of a sundae- a perfect emphasis of her beauty. Raven's face was small and heart shaped (so her current hairstyle fit her well but Beast Boy did wonder what it would look like long). Her eyes were huge and violet. Her lips just looked so kissable to him and he wondered what the old Beast Boy's relationship was with Raven. "Where we, ummm, dating? That's what you would call it right? A couple who goes out, right?" Beast Boy looked at Raven curiously. She looked up from the certificate and her huge eyes widen. Then a cute dark red blush appeared on her checks making her really look like an angel. Beast Boy would've smiled at her appearance but he really did want to know if they were dating. She started fidgeting around with the certificate trying to avoid his eyes. She opened her mouth to say something but Beast Boy remembered something. "Oh my gosh! I'm sorry for embarrassing you like that. I'm such an idiot! Of course we weren't dating! Miss Starfire told me that I was always the 'thorn of your side' and it seemed that my mission in life was to get you to smile but I was pretty bad at it. I guess I failed, huh?" Beast Boy had paced like a maniac as he said everything so now he was to the right of Raven and he had put his hand through his hair so many times that his hair practically stood up. Raven seemed to be surprised by this but then she shook her head and let out a small chuckle. Beast Boy heard her chuckle and that put the biggest smile on his face since he woke up yesterday. "Hey what's so- oww!" Beast Boy yelled in pain as he felt a jolt of pain coming up his side and he started to fall to the floor. He was in pain before Raven came to his room but when Beast Boy saw her all the pain disappeared. He took a step towards when he was going to ask her what was funny but his body seem to give out on him. But he never hit the floor because Raven flew over to him and caught him.

"This is why we don't leave the med bay early, idiot," Raven said with a sarcastic tone but her eyes were filled with concern.

"Well I can do stupid things since I have an angel looking after me." Beast Boy smiled up at Raven but she just shook her head in annoyance.

"Let's take you to the med bay and fix you up. You're going to get visitors soon," Raven replied in her monotone voice. Beast Boy just gazed at her in bliss. Garfield may not like Beast Boy but he did like what he did have and Garfield knew it was worth protecting and finishing Beast Boy's mission- to make Raven smile at him.

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