A/N- I can't believe i have 60 follows! Love you all! I appreciate you for reading/following/reviewing. I do have a bit of a warning for this chapter, the whole story deals with a difficult subject i feel the need for this warning. Callies POV comes with a Trigger Warning (I will add where it starts too) it doesn't say anything specific that happens but does spiral in Callie's thoughts through her nightmare. It was difficult for me to write as I understand too well so i imagine it can be difficult for some to read. Please stay safe. If you get the chance please review! Enjoy!

As always- I don't own The Fosters, all i own is this cold pizza.

Stef POV

I could see Callie's eyes begging to close while her mind willed them to stay open. I'm glad she listened to me and finally closed her eyes and fell asleep. Clearly she's exhausted and I assume she hasn't slept for nights. She has been grumpy the last few days and I've been around her enough to know she gets grumpy and over emotional when she's tired. I'm emotionally exhausted too and I only had to hear her story and deal with the external emotions she presents. She always has so much going on in her mind and it seems to be in so much turmoil that she can't even find the words.

What kills me more than anything is she won't believe she's safe and won't let us in because she feels she's not permanent. With that thought I look over to Lena. She's smiling at me with adoration in her eyes. I smile back, it is so promising that Callie is letting me hold her as she sleeps. I glance down and the girl looks so innocent and calm, as if the last day hasn't even happened. I wish it hadn't happened, actually no I'm glad she told us and is letting us help her. I wish what happened to her never happened. I just want to protect her, I want to save her, I want to take away all her hurt just like I would with any other of my children. Because that's exactly what she is, my child.

I look back to Lena and see she is thinking the same thing. "Lena..." I start, keeping my voice low as to not wake Callie. "I know." She says in return before I can even vocalize the rest of my thought. "I just feel like they make our family complete." I say. "Me too" she smiles. "I wish we had gotten them before all this." I look down at the girl in my arms as I say this, and tuck a piece of hair behind her ears. "I do too, the system failed them so many times. But luckily they found their way into our home, into our hearts." Lena said, coming over and sitting on the coffee table in front of us. "I can't imagine our family without them now. Thank you for saying yes that day." I let her know. "Of course my love. Thank you for not getting too mad. You know she's so much like you, I think that she is biologically yours with some of her actions." I smirk as she says that. "I feel like that too sometimes. I think Jude is yours, he's your great little helper, he attached to you so quickly."

She smiled at me clearly thinking of some memory. "He is great, they both are amazing kids. But, we already have three kids, do we really have the room?" She says with some hesitation. "We can make the room" I say. She smiles at me and I smile back. These are the most genuine love filled smiles that we have shared all day, and although I never thought possible I am more in love with this woman than ever. "I love you." "I love you too." She stands and gives me a quick kiss as she heads into the kitchen to clean off our plates. None of us had eaten much.

It settles my heart to know that we agreed, that we can do this. We have to ask the other kids but they all seem to be getting along so I don't think they will say no. Then it's just calling Bill and going through that process of paper work, court dates, all of it. Its been so long since the twins I can barely remember how long it takes to go through everything. In the end when they are officially ours everything will be worth it. I am brought from my thoughts as Lena is standing in the doorway, the beautiful woman is standing with a smile on her face, she looks so much more relaxed now that we decided to keep these siblings. Callie starts stirring next to me.

Callie POV (TW starts here)

All Stef had to do is whisper in my ear, I felt so safe in her arms. I didn't even try to fight the urge to trust her. With her arm around me I could take on the world. I had fallen asleep right as my eyes closed. I was so exhausted I felt like I could sleep forever. I wanted to sleep forever safe in the Foster house. I know I would never be that lucky. Their family is not like mine, they're the lucky ones. I really wish we could stay with them forever, maybe then I could be lucky too. Jude deserves to be lucky, he deserves this family. He deserves better than me.

I don't know how long I was asleep for until the nightmares started. That's the funny thing about dreaming, time stops mattering when time matters most. I know logically I'm in the safety of Stef's arms, the strong arms that make me feel wanted if only for a second. But I'm not there in my mind, I'm back in the Olmstead household, the parents took Jude out to a movie. Liam encouraged them too. Of course he did.

Time is going in slow motion, I think that makes it worse. I know what is going to happen but there's nothing I can do about it. It just deepens the dread in the pit of my stomach. I wonder if I can get physically ill in my sleep, I guess we'll find out soon enough. He's too close too quickly. This feels too real. I'm telling him no, he's not listening. I feel him against me, his hands and mouth against my skin. It makes me feel so dirty and used.

I keep begging him not to do this, screaming. He just tells me to shut up there's no one around to hear me anyway. That I don't want to see him mad. I just keep crying and screaming against the hand that's over my mouth. It's hard to breathe. His hands everywhere. His body draped over mine. My senses are filled with his smell, it makes me want to vomit. Him taking from me things I'm not willing to give. I'm trying to fight back. It just hurts so much. Everything hurts so much. Please just let this stop. I can't do this. Please. I'm trying to fight but he's just too strong. Get off. Save me. No. I don't want this. Stop. I'm begging mommy. Please. Save me. I'll give you a kiss goodbye. Please mommy. I'll keep you home that night. Mommy. I'll be a good girl. It hurts. Save me.