Dear diary ,last night i had nightmares again . I used to have nightmares every night but since I am here I have less of them . However , last night's bad dream was horrible . Medusa came back and she told me iI dissapointed her again . She said that she'll be proud of me if I kill Maka and Marie , that she'll take me back . But I don't want to ga back to her ! I don't know why I did it , but in my dream I obeyed . I think seeing my mother made me go insane again , I can't believe I killed them , even if it's just a dream . I'm really scared now , what if Meduse isn't really dead ? But I've been told Maka killed her ! Medusa came back from the dead before...no I musn't think like this . It was just a stupid nightmare , that's all it was
This evening Maka woke up and she was really glad to see me . She hugged me again , I missed her hugs . Everybody congratulated her for killing the kinshin . I have also been congratulated for protecting her. My friends said it was really brave of me .Dr. Stein is suck a good doctor , maybe he did the right thing letting me live . I am going to get lots of hatred in my life , but if I'll be with my friends I might be able to deal with it .Right now, death doesn't sound that good as it used to . I told Soul and Maka about having to move in with them once they are healed . That made her really happy and she said she can't wait . Soul said he's okay with this too but it might get crowded since their apartament isn't too big . Then he started laughing saying that I won't know how to deal with Blair . Who's Blair ? Maka remembered that they don't have any spare room , so I'll have to share a room with one of them . Which one ? That made them both go quiet .
After a minute or so , Maka explained that , usually , people of the same gender share rooms . Gender -like boy or girl? I know Maka , Tsubaki , Liz, Patty and Miss Marie are girls . I know Soul , Kid , Black Star and Dr. Stein are boys . Then , what am I ? Do I have a gender ? How do people know their gender ? I told them I don't know my gender and asked how to find out . I think Maka wanted to say something ,but she stopped and just blushed . Then Soul started saying something but Maka made him shut up . What's so embaressing ? We all went to askk Dr Stein , he must know , Maka said . He told me that physically , I am both . I can decide on a gender if I want to , it won't be wrong either , it's just about what I feel like inside . I don't know what I feel like . Maka said it doesn't matter anyway , she's by best friend no matter what gender I am . That made me happy so I stopped worrying about this . We are going to decide later who am I going to share a room with .
I 'll have to try to get some rest now , hopefully without bad dreams tonight . Miss Marie told me that if I want good dreams , I need to think about happy things before going to sleep . Happy things ? let's see : hugs , flowers , sun , friends , butterflies ... Good night , diary.