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Chapter 15

God, she loved tying him up. Especially when his muscles bulged and his whole body trembled.

She had tied him with shackles and cuffs spread-eagled to the wall. The kilt the only clothing she allowed, and her mouth was curving into a lopsided smile as he cursed loudly when she trailed her fingers over his rigid length. She had promised him bad torture. And bad torture he got.

She reached for the kilt, flapping it open to reveal his straining cock and she let her fingers ghost over it, a thrill rushing through her as he groaned, a vein at the side of his cock throbbing as she let one finger trail over his slit.

"Emma, please." He gritted out through clenched teeth and she looked up at him, taking him loosely into her hand.

"I told you I'll get you back." She purred, pumping him hard twice before stepping back again.

His back arched away from the wall, the muscles in his arms and thighs going rigid as he leaned forward as far as he could get, his eyes blazing with fire. A hunger and need she felt throbbing between her legs too.

"God, woman! I know you are soaking wet for me and aching for my cock to slam into you. Just open these damn cuffs and I'll help you with that."

"I'm not finished with you yet."

His curses echoed through the room as she kneeled down, loosening the belt that held his kilt in place so that it gaped open, his arousal jutting out and she leaned forward, letting her tongue flick against the head.

"God, have mercy!" He yelped above her and she grinned, opening her mouth and taking him in, sucking hard and his hips rocked forward, his voice turning almost unintelligible as she bopped her head back and forth before suddenly letting him drop out of her mouth.

"Fuck you, Swan!" He hissed, his hands tightening into fists. "You can't leave me hanging like this. Wrap your mouth back around my cock again and let me come."

"You want to spill your cum into my mouth?"

"God, yes. Please, Emma. I need to come." His whole body was covered with a fine sheen of sweat, his bottom lip was showing two sharp indentations were he had buried his teeth and his eyes were pleading with her. "Emma, please."

"Fine."

She dropped back on her knees and took him back into her mouth, licking and sucking him hard, her hand alternating between pumping his cock and massaging his balls until his body arched away from the wall, his release spurting down her throat in hot bursts and she kept sucking him, prolonging his climax as long as she could before releasing his cock with a loud pop.

"Satisfied?" She asked, looking up at him.

He didn't even look down at her, tremors running over his body as he gasped for air, his eyes screwed shut and she hid a smirk as she stood up and reached for the low bench and pushed it under his feet before removing the cuffs around his ankles. She feared he would collapse into her arms as she stepped on the bench and removed the restraints around his wrists, his body swaying towards her.

"Hey, you alright?"

He leaned heavily against her, his hot breath brushing over her cheek as he mumbled. "One day you are gonna be the death of me, Swan."

She chuckled, she couldn't help it; the chuckle turning into laughter as he tilted his head and opened one eye slowly, shooting her a reproachful glance.

"Not funny, love. I can't move a muscle."

"Come on." She slipped under his arm and helped him down from the bench, both staggering towards the bed and collapsing onto it.

It needed some shifting and shoving until he was lying completely on the mattress and she leaned over him, brushing the sweaty hair from his forehead.

"Get some sleep, Killian. I've apparently worn you out."

"I'll just need some hours rest and then I'll have my revenge." He murmured and seconds later his breath evened out as he slipped into sleep.

"I love you." Emma whispered, scooting closer to his body and laying her head on his chest, she closed her eyes. "I love you."

-/-

It was kind of ridiculous that their first real fight was about the kilt, or more accurate about his job as a stripper. As much as she loved the kilt and the strip shows he was doing only for her, she couldn't keep the jealousy in check any longer. The thought that everyone could see her boyfriend almost completely naked was driving her insane and she told him there had to be other ways to earn money to repay his student loans.

A lot of screaming and some broken dishes later he stormed out of the apartment, leaving her behind, fuming with fury. A few hours later she pushed him against the wall in the alley behind the club, jumping up on his waist and letting him fuck her hard.

They talked about it later when they were much calmer and after a few rounds of hot and sweaty sex. He agreed that he had to give up the job and since his loans were almost paid and he earned much more money now than a year ago, he had promised her he would quit.

-/-

Everything seemed to be just splendid. The sex was fantastic. The dates were amazing. She felt comfortable with him.

But ...

Somehow she still waited for everything to crash. Somehow this felt all too good to be true. She could literally feel the dark clouds looming over them. They were happy. Everything seemed to be okay. But something just didn't feel right.

He was having nightmares now and then, screaming his brother's name and the name of a woman she didn't know anything about. She had tried to soothe him first but he had shut her completely out, throwing the covers away and walking to the window, his body rigid with tension.

He didn't tell her what his nightmares were about, acting the next morning as if nothing had happened at all, but it was nagging at her. But she still had secrets and he had his. They weren't ready to share them yet. Apparently.

But she should tell him about Neal and the bad choices she had made back then and she needed him to tell her about his brother and what happened all those years ago when he had lost him.

Maybe they just needed to get everything out in the open and hope for the best.

Maybe then she would be able to let him really in.

Maybe then she would be able to tell him how much he meant to her.