Immmmm back lol smh I need to finish my other stories they r collecting dust lol!Ok so we left off with Bonnie leaving mystic falls and now I know how I want this to go and everyone bare with me. Imma pick up in the new season so we are going to be up in the now so for my lovely ppl from cross seas who havent seen any of the newest episodes plz know there will be spoilers :( sry!And again ty all for showing ya'll girl some love ok here it is chapter 6 plz note this whole chapter will be in Bonnie's pov and wont be much chit chat but hope you all enjoy it anyway and some stuff will be switched around a little next chapter will be in Damon's :) enjoy

Bonnie's Pov

I couldnt even runaway right. At a gas station just a town over about 30 mintutes away from home I sat in my car and parked at a pump thinking about my next move. I watched all the cars drive by and thought about what the hell I was doing when I let Damon into my heart and into my pants at that. I shook my head so I guess Im bo bo the clown. I let him have my virginity. I let him go where no man well in his case supernatural being go before. As if the universe really didnt like me teenage dream came on the radio and I finally started to break down. I held on the steering wheel and bowed my head and cried. I punched the steering wheel imagining Damon's face. I couldnt even hate him because oh dear Lord I loved him,even after what he did. I was going to tell him I loved him,he didnt even love me not even like me enough to tell Katherine he was with me.

After getting gas and whipping my face to rid reminders of what the evil pair did to me I drove back to mystic falls and it was still raining it must just be raining only in my town. I laughed at that so there really is a constant cloud to rain on my parade. It was a little after 9 as I ran from my car to my house I got inside and shook out of my jacket and went upstairs to either go to sleep or lay and think which will make me cry. So I guess sleep it is. I switched on my light nearly jumping out of my skin. There he was, Damon sitting at my computer desk in my chair in my room. I was getting angry he is always doing something to disturb me or my things

"Why the hell are you even here?" I spat threw clenched teeth

"Bonnie,please just hear me out!" He turned in the chair to face me and I can see he was crying it stung at my heart but that was'nt my problem

"Damon," I sighed "Im going to only ask you this once and hope you dont fight me on it. I want you to leave and never come back and I mean it."

My words hurt him deeply because he looked at me with a torn expression and I could feel my heart break after I spent the last couple hours trying to put it back together. It was hard I knew it would be I didnt think I would be seeing his face this soon,but I was a fool in love all by myself but his next words had me questioning myself

"Bonnie I did it because I lo" he was trying to get it out "I love you and its because I love you I did what I did. You have to believe me I never meant for you to find out because I didnt ever want to lose you." He said and that last sentence helped me move on a little

"And that love you have for me should also help you let me go you werent ready for this Dam," I walked over to him as he stood by my window and touched his face "I love you. But I need time to get over this to," I hated to say this it hurt my heart "Get over you." I chocked that last part out

He sucked in a breath and I let my hand fall to my side. He locked gazes with me and his expression was unreadable but he sighed and turned to go but turned back around so quickly I held my breath. He touched my face softly and held me by the waist reclining me slightly and I still held my breath and he looked in my eyes and lowered his head I closed my eyes thinking the worst but knew he wouldnt hurt me well I was hoping he wouldnt and he kissed my neck slowly and softly. I exhaled and my eyes fluttered open and I looked in his eyes trying to find some expression some type of emotion anything and he straightned our bodies and was out of my room in a flash. I shut my window and cried myself to sleep that night.

Days turned to weeks and I still urned for his touch his admiring gaze but knew it was for the best. The Lockwoods were holding a masquerade ball for some charity to help the homeless. I thought it was a great thing to do. I felt bad having to look into Tyler's face day to day knowing that the man I loved was responsble for his uncle's death and how I helped. They meaning Damon and Stefan were out to get Katherine because she had compelled aunt Jenna into stabbing herself and Elena did the unthinkable (but very smart thing) she called it off with Stefan she was hurt. I talked to her everynight to console her she would always ask how I felt about Damon and I said I was fine the lie was getting so old that it was believable after I said it a million times. I couldnt help staring at myself in the mirror,as I stared at my reflection I thought about how pale I was looking and how slim I was getting. I needed to get back to my old self and stop letting this whole Damon thing out weigh me even in the literal sense.I got a call from Stefan the day of the ball asking me to bring my grimore and not to tell Elena. I arrive at the Salvatore house regretting it once I walk in I see Rick showing everyone including DAMON how to use a weapon I was confused asking what was going on Jeremy who to my surprise was there and he said they were going to kill Katherine. I was confused,scared,anxious and pleased but stefan said he could explain but he had the same answer as Jeremy before him. Me and Damon stared at each other here and there but it meant nothing.

At the ball that night I caught a stolen gaze at Damon he was mouth watering just the sight of him was overwhelming. His intense blue eyes blazed under the mask and his face was just as gorgeous. He caught my gaze and he smiled and winked. I looked away and Jeremy walked upstairs and found a room to trap Katherine and we made idle chit chat to pass the time it seemed to me like he was flirting but I thought nothing of it. Once everything was in place we went downstairs I felt a vibe and found the source. A carmel skinned woman. I asked if I knew her she said no and that the party was nice. I could swear she was somewhat familiar to me but shrug it off. Me and Jeremy were trying to convince Elena (who surprisingly was not suppose to be there at all) that everything was fine until she screamed and blood appeared on her shirt. I was stumped but knew this was the work of Katherine they were linked. I told Jeremy to go tell the brothers to stop they were hurting Elena,I helped her with the pain taking it away took a toll on me but I didnt care I wanted to help her. Once Jeremy got back and said there was another witch. I told him I had to find the witch that was causing this.

As I finally caught up with her we went back and fourth I knew she was more powerful then me but didnt back down it was when she touched me after the heated debated that I knew I could trust her when she said I could. Katherine was subdued and I caught up with the strange witch turned out she was my cousin and that's why I could trust her. I had so many questions for her but she said she'd be back and then that's when Jeremy offered me a ride home and I gladly excepted he wasnt Damon but he was sure a great distraction.

It seemed like more shit was hitting the fan. Elena was kidnapped and it seemed like I was spending more and more time with Jeremy and I honestly enjoyed it. So I did a locator spell and we found where she was I kinda freaked out when my nose started to bleed but hid it and kept it to myself. Damon's voice boomed in the room and Stefan asked was he going to help.

"Its Elena." Damon said and I could feel his stare bore into my back but I ignored it

Once me and Jeremy (yeah I know) were back at his house just waiting he was sad he couldnt do anything to help I tired to reassure him it would be ok. I thought that I could just try to send her a message Jeremy grabbed me a candle and Elena's brush and I started to do the spell, Jeremy was shouting my name and then the paper disappeared and I passed out. When I came to I asked him not to tell anyone and when he asked did I mean Damon it stung a little but I managed to say not to tell anyone that could hurt me. It was a while before we heard anything and Elena showed up we were excited and revealed. When she said she got my message all I could do was hug her.

When I got home I was exhausted needing rest. Once I got to my room I didnt even flinch. I was use to seeing Damon in my room lingering in the darkness when I least expected it. He was leaned against my the wall by my window. I so didnt have time for this

"Damon what do you want now? Its been almost a month since we talked. So what do you have to say that you couldnt tell me in our many passings?" I asked as I sat on my bed and took off my flats and jacket. I seen he had something clinched in his hand

"Well I wanted to just ask what was up with you and Jeremy. You two have been a little close, what's that about?" he asked as he took my place sitting on my bed as I got up

"Its none of your business. I bet you feel super saving your precious Elena huh?" I had a smug smile on my face I was getting pissed

"Its not like that and you know it." His words were icy

"Whatever look tell me the reason your really here before I politely ask you to leave my damn house um oh yeah rescind your invite into my home." My tone was just as icy

"You couldve been done it and yet you havent. Look I just wanted to see if you were happy and if so I wont stop you from being happy but please know that I will remain hopeful that you'll forgive me and come back to me." He said

He stepped up to me he sniffed the air and looked at me worried "You have been bleeding are you ok?"

I smiled inside he still knew me even if it was just my blood "Just a small nosebleed. But Im ok and yes Im happy Damon and I can only hope you are too." It hurt for me to speak such lies but he wanted it for me so I returned it

He ran his fingers threw my hair and touched my face softly I closed my eyes

"Your burning up BB,you sure your ok?" He asked touching my forehead

"Its ok. Im fine Dam...Damon really!" I kept my eyes closed

"I love you so much BB. You be safe my love." He said and kissed my forehead and once I opened my eyes he was gone

"I love you too and miss you more then you know." I whispered to myself.

The next day at school I met a cute boy named Luka and I think Jeremy was jealous I thought it was cute. Me and Jeremy made a date to meet at the Grill. Once I got there I notice I made it there before Jeremy. Luka the new boy caught my attention but his dad gave me bad vibes I ignored it but kept a red flag up. Turned out Luka was a witch well a warlock is what he said with a charming smile and we chatted. That night my dad had to go back to work to fill in for a employee who fell ill. So I hopped in the shower and into some pjs and ordered a pizza.

There was a knock on the door I thought that was fast. I grabbed the money and a tip. It was my cousin Lucy to my surprise

"Hey Bonnie. Can I come in?"She asked with a smile

"Sure but how did you know where I live?" I asked kind of hesitantly but know she's family so she can be trusted

"Locater spell little cuz." she said and I stepped to the side to let her in

"Do you want a drink or anything? You can have a seat!" I say heading to the kitchen

"No thats ok. Im not staying but had to tell you something before I leave town. I dont know where to begin!" she looked at me sadly

"Its ok just start off slowly if need be."I said while getting a bottle water out of the fridge

"Well Bonnie. I knew your mom a very long time ago." Her voice was guared

I dont know what my face looked like but tears started to welded in my eyes

"You knew my mom? How was she? Super powerful? I have so many questions! I vaguely remember her."I say in a rush and started to sweat

"Well she's not dead Bonnie she very much alive!" Again she looked guared

I felt a ache in my chest not like the one Damon caused oh goodness here I am being told my mom is alive and Im thinking of him. I must be getting real sick and the tears fell over

"Where is she?" I asked between sobs and my legs felt weak so I use the kitchen island to hold myself up she looked worried and walked over to me she flinched and jumped back like I burned her

"Bonnie, oh my,,,,,your skin is on fire. You need to see a doctor now!" She said while holding me up looking really scared

"Screw the fucking doctor,where is she Lucy?" I really did'nt feel good at all but needed answers

She sighed "Bonnie. Im your mom."

There was a small knock at the door. I thought pizza and then everything went black

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