AN: Hey people! Thanks for the reviews! I love y'all! You guys are seriously so awesome for shipping AddiChar, honestly. Hehe. So thanks for taking time to read my story 'cause I'm really enjoying writing this. So here's Chapter 3.

Chapter 3

Addison's POV:

Well, that was interesting. I came to work this morning with the intention of having a nice, civilized conversation with Charlotte and we end up arguing because she is so stubborn. I expected that much though. To add on to that, we had a nice, steamy make out session in the elevator but I actually really enjoyed that. And the fact that I did enjoy that scares the daylights out of me. It scares me more than anything in the entire world.

But I made a very risky move this morning; I told Charlotte that I like her...romantically. The surprising thing about it was that it wasn't a lie, it was the truth...not that I would lie about having feelings for someone anyway. I usually wasn't this straightforward and maybe that's why it was so surprising to me. All last night, all I could think about was Charlotte; about what we talked about but I thought more about the kiss. I tried to think about other things but she always came to my mind first. There wasn't one second where she would leave my mind. And frankly, I don't think she's ever going to leave it now. If this happened a few years earlier, I think I would die if Charlotte King was on my mind. It still scares the hell out of me that I may in fact have feelings for her.

I'm not going to say that I regret telling her that I like her but maybe I should have waited a little bit longer to tell her. I know this is as new for me as it is for her and I probably didn't help anything by telling her that. Besides, I'm still confused on what I feel for her. You know, I probably didn't help anything by trapping her in the elevator and forcing myself on her either, but I had to do what I had to do to help her see that maybe we do have feelings for each other. I know in the end that if Charlotte feels the same way towards me, she'll tell me eventually. It could take her ages but I know that she'll tell me.

As I suspect, Charlotte runs straight off to her office after she gets off of the elevator and Amelia chases after her. I watch them hurry away before walking toward my office. I am about to go into it as I see Violet's door wide open. Maybe she has some advice for me. I think to myself. I knew she didn't have a patient because her door was open. Her door was always closed when she had a patient. I wait a moment before I knock on the doorframe. Violet was sitting at her desk writing something. When she heard me knock, she looks up at me curiously.

"Oh, hey Addison!" Violet says happily. "You got here a little late this morning...is everything okay?"

"Yeah, yeah!" I lie. Well, everything was okay. But that's just the thing; everything was okay. Okay is...blah. Okay isn't good enough for me. I want everything to be great...I want everything to be perfect! But nothing can ever be perfect. I just...I just want something close to that.

Violet continues to look at me with a slight smile. "If everything was okay, you wouldn't be standing in my doorway...so, what is it?"

She had a point. I wouldn't be lingering outside her office if everything was fine. I grumble and sigh. "It's stupid. It'll be just a waste of your time."

"Hey, that's not true." Violet stands up from her chair, walks around her desk and over to the sofa. "Helping someone is never a waste of my time." She sits down at the farthest end and smiles at me. "I'd be glad to help, you know that."

"Alright. Fine." I walk into the office as I close the door behind me. I needed someone to talk to about this. Sure, I could've just dealt with it on my own and figured out what to do with it eventually but I couldn't wait that long. I can be patient at times but I'm not very patient with love or anything romantic, at that matter. Frankly, I didn't know who else to talk about this with and the best choice was Violet. Violet is a pretty understanding woman with a steady head on her shoulders. And if I needed the best advice, I would be sure to get it from her. She's always so honest and that is one of the reasons why she is one of my closest friends. I sit at the other end of the couch as I cross my right leg over my left one. I set my hands in my lap and look down. I look to the side slightly and Violet is still smiling at me encouragingly. I wish I was as patient as she was. "I did something..."

"You did?" Violet pushes one of her brown curls behind her ear. "What did you do?"

"You're going to judge me and think that I'm some kind of insane person if I tell you." I tilt my head slightly in her direction.

"You know I wouldn't do that. I don't judge anyone, Addison. It's just not right. It's impossible to judge someone when you don't even know what is going on in their head. I always think of that old saying, don't judge a book by its cover." Violet replies and sighs softly. "If it makes you feel better, I'll pretend like I don't know you at all. I'll treat you like a patient that I'm seeing for the first time in my life. Then, it should be a little easier."

"But you do know me, Violet. You know me better than most people." I tell her as I rub my hands together.

"Did anyone ever tell you how stubborn you are?" Violet asks me with a smirk. "Because you really are."

I laugh. "Yes, but not as stubborn as Charlotte is." When I mention her name, I swallow hard.

Violet notices that action immediately. "Why are you nervous?"

I didn't think it was that noticeable. "Hmm...what?"

"I saw what you did." She motions to her neck. "Something just made you nervous...and look, you're fidgeting...was it something that I said?"

"I am-" I look down and realize that I've been playing with my fingers. "Not."

Violet grins. "You can trust me, Addison. This will be private, just between you and me. I'll make sure whatever you tell me doesn't make it out of this room. I'll take it to my grave...with many other people's secrets as well."

I laugh softly at that but stop after a moment. "Okay...well, I..." I think of how to say it. "I kind of...well...I did..." I look up to see Violet nodding her head at me reassuringly. "I kissed Charlotte."

"Charlotte...you kissed Charlotte?" Violet asks in a surprised tone. "Charlotte King?" I nod slowly. She leans back on the couch. "The one that works here...that Charlotte King?"

I nod and cross my arms. "You're judging me...I knew it. This is why I don't tell people anything!"

"No, I'm not! I'm just trying to understand why. I thought you didn't like women." Violet tilts her head to the side. "Or do you? I try not to pry and ask about your relationships...no, that's a lie, I do...but that's not the point."

"No, no. I don't...I don't like women." I answer her, in an unsure tone. It was obvious that I was confused.

"Hmm..." Violet's eyes narrow at me. "Oh!" Her eyes widen a bit now. "I see...it was an accident, wasn't it?"

"How did you know that...?" I ask her curiously. It was like she could read my mind. Well, she was a therapist after all.

Violet simply just smiles. "I know people. It's my job to get into people's heads, although people tend to think shrinks are annoying...and I agree! We can be. But we know how to get the job done."

I smile back at her lightly. "Yeah...it was an accident. She drove me home when I was at the bar and I invited her in for a drink. That one simple drink turned into about 3 and I was already drunk the way it was...you know, it could've been maybe more than 3...I can't even remember." I look away from Violet and groan. "Then I kissed her...like, really kissed her. It just happened. I...I don't know..."

"What is it, Addison?" Violet questions me.

"I didn't mean to kiss her, Violet. It was because of the alcohol, right?" I ask her. "It has to be! I wouldn't do that normally. Addison Forbes Montgomery doesn't go around kissing women...I'm not like my mother!"

"Well, anyone can develop feelings for the same sex at all points in life. So just because you-" Violet was in the middle of her explanation when I rudely interrupt her.

"I don't have feelings for women!" I realize how loudly I said that and I bite my lip. I lower my voice so that it's so soft, so soft that barely Violet could hear me. "I don't like women like that."

She leans forward and shrugs. "Maybe so...but you wouldn't be here if you didn't at least think you're getting those feelings." Violet tells me. "If it was just a drunken kiss, you wouldn't be talking to me about it. We all know how often we can kiss people when intoxicated." I don't say anything. I just stare straight ahead. "I know...it's scary. When you're with men all your life and then you get that feeling, it gets confusing. It's nerve wracking!" I didn't want to admit it but she was right. I was a little unsure about what I was feeling. "I even thought I liked women at one point but it turns out that I don't. So, it's okay if you think you do. We all explore that possibility one way or another. And hey, you can like both men and women, there's nothing wrong with that!"

"It really is scary." I tell her truthfully, sighing apprehensively "Maybe it's just because this is the first time I have ever kissed a woman. I can't actually like her, could I? I mean, it's Charlotte!"

"You can't help who you fall in love with, Addison." Violet begins to say. "The heart wants what the heart desires."

"I'm not in love with her..." I say with my eyes closed. "She just...she never leaves my mind...ever since last night, it's just her up there." I point to my head before I lean my face into my hands and groan. "I can't even think straight. All I can think about is Charlotte. Every little thing about her. Do you know how annoying that is? To think about a person 24/7?" Violet opens her mouth to respond but I keep rambling on. "It's very annoying. It's okay when you want to think about the person, then it wouldn't be as bad. But when you don't want to think about that person..." I shake my head. "It's the most annoying thing in the entire world."

"Yes, it is very annoying." Violet agrees with me. "But it's something we can't avoid, no matter how much we want to or how hard we'll try to. If we try to avoid it, it'll end up getting worse. You just have to face these certain things, even though that is probably something we would rather not do."

"Love never goes right for me. I get cheated on. Nothing ever works out! And now, there's this. God, someone should just rip my heart out already." I throw my arms over my head, making fists with my hands and groan loudly. "Love sucks! I freaking hate it!"

Violet agrees with me, nodding her head. "Yes, but when you find the right person, it could be amazing." Violet sighs. "Look, I think you're trying too hard. Love will come around on its own. We can't force it to get here when we want it to. You can't hurry love!"

I huff and sigh, frowning slightly. "I just want to run away...to a place where no one knows my name...to a place where no one knows who I am. Then, it'd be easy...I'd be happy. But a world class double board certified neonatal surgeon would never be able to get away. It's pretty impossible."

"Running won't help matters, trust me. I speak from experience...your problems will follow you no matter where you go." Violet smiles at me slightly. "Here, let's make it simple-"

"Violet, this is anything but simple, this is-" I interrupt her.

Violet does the same back to me. "Addison, can you just sit there, close your mouth and just listen for a minute?" I bite my bottom lip nervously and nod.

"Here's what you can do...well, there are two things I can suggest...well, I could suggest a bucket list of things but these are the most important." I don't think I could ever do what she does; help other people with their problems. I could barely sort out my own. I play with a strand of my hair unconsciously as I patiently wait for her to continue. "One...you can talk to Charlotte about this. Just go approach her like you normally would and just ask her if you two could discuss this." Violet waits a moment, probably to let it sink into my head, before talking again. "Or you could wait until she wants to talk about it...wait until she approaches you. We know how stubborn Charlotte is and I know that in her own time, she'll want to speak about it."

I think back to our little spat outside and what happened in the elevator. Should I tell her or not? I think to myself. Oh, why not? "We kind of already talked about it..."

"You what?" Violet questions me. "Well, why didn't you tell me that before? What did you say to each other?"

"A lot of things..." I reply back, being shy about it.

"Could you tell me?" Violet asks me curiously. "I would prefer if you did. It's better to get things out in the open. It takes a lot of pressure off."

Violet was right. The longer you keep something bottled inside, the more chance it has to destroy you and eat you alive. "It'll take forever..."

"Oh, it will not. Come on, Addison." Violet turns her head to the side and looks at the wall. She points to the clock. "I have two hours until my first patient comes in. Feel free to use up all of that time. It really doesn't matter to me. It would give me something to do and you're my friend, so you know I'll always be hear to help or just simply listen. I'm great at both."

"Well...I approached her outside of the Practice. We argued. I told her that we were going to talk about what happened last night. She said that she was done talking about it and walked away. You know Charlotte, always running away from her problems...I guess that makes me her problem now, huh?" Violet doesn't answer me. She just continues to look at me, waiting for me to continue with my story. "I couldn't let her get away so I chased after her...and cornered her in the elevator." Her eyes widen slightly at that. "Yeah, I know. I'm not one to corner someone in an elevator but I did. I needed to talk to her somehow...that seemed like the only way to actually discuss this...without her running away. She said that she didn't want to talk about it, that there wasn't really much to say and that it was just a kiss...although I admitted I thought it was more than a drunken kiss." I didn't know if I should tell Violet about how we made out in that elevator. So, I just decided to wait.

"And after that?" Violet asks curiously. "What happened? What did you say?"

"I said that we're going to talk about this and you're not leaving this elevator until we talk about it...but...we didn't really talk about it...in a way." I say with a hint of nervousness in my tone.

"Oh...? Why is that?" Violet leans forward, moving closer to me now, more interested than before.

"Because I kissed her...I really kissed her...and it got heated..." I tell her, letting out a sigh.

"How heated?" Violet was starting to ask too many questions but I couldn't get mad. It's what she does and she was willing to help me. Who else would even do that? Or in better words, who would listen to me without judging me? I know Violet never would.

"Violet..." I groan frustratedly. "We made out, okay?"

"Oh...well, okay..." Violet nods casually, looking down at the floor before looking at me. "And how did that feel...kissing Charlotte like that?"

"It felt..." I begin to say and close my eyes, reliving the experience. I could feel Violet looking at me intently, even with my eyes closed. "It felt good...amazing...intoxicating." That was a nice choice of words that I picked, since the first time we kissed we were slightly intoxicated but we were still aware of what we were doing. "It was one of those kisses where you feel like you're on a cloud somewhere...and the wind sweeps you off your feet and takes you away to a paradise." I open my eyes and realize I have been smiling like a fool the entire time while I was explaining it. I swallow hard when I see Violet smiling as well because she noticed that too. "That's a figurative description of it but..."

"No, it's okay. Really! Figurative is all good! I understand what you're saying." Violet gives me a thumbs up and I laugh softly. "You said this was your first time kissing a woman so this is all new for you. Maybe you like Charlotte, maybe you don't. Time will tell."

"I am so damn confused, Violet." I start to tap my foot nervously. "If you had to say...if I had feelings for her or not, which one would you pick?"

Violet shakes her head then shrugs. "I wouldn't know...you're the only one that knows your true feelings. I wouldn't be so accurate, because I am not you." I groan while looking up at the ceiling. "Addison, if this is stressing you out so much, not knowing how you're feeling, then don't wait. Go talk to Charlotte again, but be careful. Don't be forceful with her or you will scare her and she will really want to run away from it."

I sigh. "Do you really think its a good idea...to talk to her?"

Violet nods. "Of course. Communication is everything. Maybe she's sitting over there in her office hoping you'll come over there to talk to her too, you never know."

"Psh!." I roll my eyes. "Yeah, I doubt that."

"Stop...just, stop being negative for once, okay? Don't be so dark and melodramatic." Violet tells me and my jaw drops slightly. "I'm being honest with you! You're the one putting yourself down and self-doubting yourself. Don't do that, Addison." I stay silent, continuing to look at her. "If you don't get your butt over there and talk to her, I'm gonna lead you over there myself. Or better yet, I'll talk to Charlotte on my own."

"Oh God, don't do that." I reply back immediately. "Charlotte doesn't like shrinks. She'd be so angry. She doesn't really like you."

"Yes, which is why I'm going to let you handle this. I can't solve your issues for you. That would be nice of me to do it for you but I can't do it. And even if I could, I still wouldn't." Violet leans over and sets her hand gently on top of mine. "Look, I know this is freaky but sometimes you have to grab things like a bull and just hold on. It's the only way to get through things. It's the only way to understand anything. If we were always so scared to do something, how would we learn? How would we even grow?"

Violet was right. I had to talk to Charlotte. It is the only way to get an understanding of what is going on with me. We had to have a civilized conversation, one where neither one of us would run away from. It seemed impossible but it had to happen. "Okay...I'll talk to her..." I say nervously as I stand up from the sofa. "Thank you, Violet."

Violet stands up as well. "You're welcome. It's no problem. It's my job, literally." She chuckles. "I am your friend. You know I'm always here if you need to talk about anything, even if it seems silly to you. My office is always open...and if it isn't, I have a patient." She jokes around with me.

I nod, smiling now. "Yeah, I know." I hug Violet quickly and pull back. "You're a great friend."

"And a great shrink!" Violet smirks at me. "I know, but no need to compliment me now. You can do that later. Get over there and talk to Charlotte."

I nod quickly. "Okay." I turn on my heel before opening the door and starting to head over to Charlotte's office. I keep thinking about what I am going to say to her...well, more like over thinking, which didn't help anything. I look to my side to see Violet standing outside of her office, giving me two thumbs up. I shake my head before I knock on Charlotte's door lightly. "Charlotte, it's me...open up, please." I didn't hear an answer. "Look, I know you hate talking about your feeling's, blah, blah, blah but we need to talk about this. And I mean really talk about it." I wait a moment and still don't hear an answer. "You can't hide from me forever." I still didn't hear any kind of movement from the other side. I start to grip the handle and begin to push the door open." Okay, really? Are you really going to make me barge into your office? That's ridiculous." By now I have opened the door all of the way and have my mouth open to say something else when I see Charlotte fast asleep on the couch. I lower my voice, feeling a little bad. "Oh.." I continue to look at her, wanting to leave the room and pretend like I never even came inside but I can't. She has the cutest smile on her face. Like a sleeping tiger. I think back to way back when Charlotte didn't even work at the practice, when we teased her because she couldn't sleep, when she was practically the enemy. I cross my arms and keep looking at her. She looked so delicate and peaceful just laying there. The big, tough front she put up all the time was so far away right now. I start to smile at her and I don't realize it. Suddenly, Charlotte begins to move around on the couch, but she was still asleep. Shit. I'm caught. I think to myself as I begin to back up. I must have miscalculated because instead of going out the door, I slam right into a coat rack next to her door. I didn't have enough time to catch it so I just close my eyes tightly and clench my jaw.

The rack slammed down loudly, causing Charlotte to bolt upright, looking at me with a frightened expression. "Addison...what the hell are you doin' in here?"

I swallow hard as I bend over to set the coat rack back up again. Charlotte's glare still made me nervous until this day. "I, uh...wanted to talk to you and you didn't answer me so...I came in."

Charlotte groaned. "My Lord, with the talking, I really do not want-"

I walk closer to her now, swallowing down my nervousness. "I know you don't want to talk to about it. You made that blatantly obvious, Charlotte."

"Then I don't see why we're havin' this conversation." Charlotte continues to look at me angrily. "You're just wastin' your damn time. Why don't you just leave me the hell alone, alright?"

"Don't tell me what's a waste of my time and what isn't, you don't know me, Charlotte." I start to say a little louder now. "Something is going on between is and I don't know what it is but..." Charlotte begins to open her mouth. "No, don't you dare say anything, I'm not finished!" I kind of yell at her, which causes her to lean back on the couch with wide eyes. I was getting pretty annoyed and worked up. "...I don't know what this is but we're going to find it out, so that we can either face this or move on or do whatever!"

Charlotte chuckles lightly, standing up from the couch now. She starts to walk over to me slowly. "And what on Earth makes you think that I'm gonna do that?"

"Because I'm never going to leave you alone if we don't talk about it. I may not know you that well Charlotte but I know you hate to be bugged." I grin slightly. "I know you hate it when people don't leave you alone. Besides, if we don't talk about this, I'll make you go talk to Violet. And we know how much you dislike Violet."

"There's no way in hell that I'm gonna talk to that woman. In your dreams!" Charlotte laughs obnoxiously at that. "I don't know why all of y'all get mad that I don't like talkin' about everything. It's stupid!"

I sigh loudly. "Charlotte, please! I'm begging you here, and when do I beg?" Charlotte looks at me with a straight face. "Just one night...one night where we can just talk about this, once and for all. Then, we can move on." She finally looks at me now and it ooked like she was actually contemplating it. "This means a lot to me, and maybe it doesn't mean as much to you but still...we need to discuss this."

Charlotte's serious demeanor dissolved at that moment. "Jesus...fine...you get your wish...we'll talk about it...not that there's really much to say." She says this as she walks behind her desk and sits down on the spinning chair.

"R-really?" I was shocked that she actually said yes.

Charlotte tilts her head at me, narrowing her eyes. "Do you want me to change my mind or somethin'? 'Cause I will! Don't even give me the chance to change my mind!"

I shake my head repeatedly. "No, no. Don't change your mind." I begin to walk away but stop. "Wait...when will we be talking?"

"The sooner, the better." Charlotte replies quickly. "I want to get it over with and I'm sick of you buggin' me already." I open my mouth to ask her where we should meet but she answers it for me. "My place...7 o'clock. Be there. We'll discuss this and then it'll be over. So then we'll move on with our very busy and interesting lives!"

Charlotte was becoming more and more stubborn with each passing second but so was I. I nod, smiling happily. "7 o'clock...I'll be there."

Charlotte does a small nod toward me before looking down at her desk. When I don't leave, she peers up at me slowly. "Did you need somethin' else, Addison?"

I open my mouth. I was going to say something but I forgot. "Uh...no, I'm good. It slipped my mind."

Charlotte raises her eyebrows at me. "Ohh...interesting...don't you have babies to deliver or vaginas to check out or somethin'?"

I give her a weird look before nodding. "Uh, yes! I do!" I begin to back up, making sure I wasn't going to slam into anything again. "So yeah, 7 o'clock!"

"Yep!" Charlotte calls out, not watching me walk out of her office.

I hurry out of her office. Once I'm out in the hall, I let out a loud breath. We were finally going to talk about this. I was nervous but I knew it had to happen. I start to head to my office now, for the first time that morning, and I just prayed to God that it would all turn out okay and that this whole meeting wouldn't be a total disaster. It turns out I wouldn't figure that out until later so now all I had left to do now was to wait.

AN: Sorry again for taking so long! I'm a senior and I'm busy with senior things. Haha. Let me know what you thought, my AddiChar lovers!