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Christian's POV

Elena is no where to be found when I arrive home. I quickly shower and was Ana's scent off me. After my shower I go and find my son. His nanny brought him home from school today. I head to his room and see him playing with his toy train set. He looks up and beams at me. It's one of my favorite sights in the world, his smile.

" Hi Dad! Guess what! Mrs. Clayton says that we're gonna go on a field trip to the space needle!", he squeals. I laugh and ruffle his hair.

" That's awesome Carson. Do I need to sign any papers?", I ask. He nods his head and runs to his backpack. He brings me his folder and I take out the papers. I sign them and then quickly look over his homework to make sure he did it right. I kiss his forehead and hand it back to him.

" Dad, how come Mommy isn't home? She said we were gonna go to a movie today.", he asks me disappointed. I feel anger flare up. I hate seeing Carson like this but I hate it when Elena causes it even more.

" I don't know kiddo. How about we go out to eat? I'll take you to eat and then we can go see a movie, how does that sound?", I lift his chin up. He smiles widely and nods his head.

Carson and I stop at a pizza place and eat before heading off to see a movie. By the time we get home it's nine pm and Carson is out like a light. I gently change him into his pajamas and tuck him into bed. I kiss his forehead and head to my room. Elena is sleeping on her slide of the bed. I sigh and change into sweatpants before climbing under the covers and falling asleep to dreams of Ana. Is she still with her date? Has she invited him in for a drink? Are they having sex as I dream of her? I'm falling for her. I can't stop it because the distance just heightens my feelings.

When I wake up in the morning, Elena is already gone. I sigh and rub the sleep out of my eyes. I head to Carson's room to wake him up for school. He fights me at first but eventually gets up. I dress myself for work and then start making breakfast. Carson comes downstairs and grabs his plate of food. Luckily, he's never been a messy eater. We finish breakfast and head to the car. I drop Carson off at school and then head into work. As soon as I enter my office, visions of the day before enter my mind.

I do the necessary things like attendance check and announcements. I anxiously wait for lunch. I need to see Ana. I need to talk to her about what happened yesterday. The lunch bell rings and as I hurry out my office door, I collide with a smaller body. I catch them before they fall and my eyes meet their's. Ana stands and enters my office. I follow behind her and shut the door.

" How was your date last night?", I ask. She shrugs.

" Fine, he's not my type though.", she says. I step closer to her.

" What is your type?", I ask huskily. She takes a deep breath as I step even closer.

" I don't have a type, per se. He's just not the man I want.", she whispers. I put my hand on her cheek and move so our chests are touching.

" God, I want you so much.", I lean down so our lips are almost touching.

" We can't. It's wrong.", she says weakly. I nod my head in agreement but I can't stop myself. I press my lips to hers. She breaks the kiss and takes a step back. She shakes her head and wipes her eyes.

" Ana, please.", I beg.

" No. I can't do this. Not again. Especially not here.", a few tears escape. I want to hold her in my arms and tell her that everything is going to be okay but I can't. She won't let me. She turns on her heel and rushes out of my office.

I'm in a bitter mood for the rest of the school day. The only thing that cheers me up is seeing Carson. Elena doesn't come home that night. I start to worry. She is pregnant. Anything could happen to her. It would be my fault. I fought with her. I realize then that I'm not only hurting myself with my feelings for Ana. I'm hurting Elena too and because Elena is pregnant, I'm hurting the child. I need to stop seeng Ana. It's the only way.

The next day, Elena comes home around lunch time. She ignores me and goes straight to the study. I still haven't told Carson about the baby. I know I should but maybe for now it's just best to wait. I wonder what Carson will think about being a big brother. I hope he's open to it. I'd hate for him to be totally against it because the baby is already on the way. I can't stop it though some selfish, asshole part of me wishes I could.

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