Here's the third part. It was supposed to be part of chapter 2 but it didn't work out so here it is.

Caroline POV

What a difference a day makes. It's an old saying that I've never really paid much notice to before, I mean how someone's life can change that dramatically in one day never made sense, it does now. It is 7 o'clock in the evening now and my life is much different now than it was 12 hours ago. I was happy this morning. I had a doctor's appointment at 8 o'clock this morning and that started what has been the worst day I have ever had.

11 hours earlier

'Caroline Elliot, could you please follow me' the doctor said as she turned back towards her office, as I followed her I knew something was wrong 'Did anyone come with you today?' she asked and I shook my head to say no and she gave me a sympathetic look proving my gut feeling of dread was correct.

'Please sit down, I have had a look at your scan results from last week and I am very sorry to tell you that my theories were correct and you have got a small tumour in your brain' as she continued to tell me what would happen next and how they would treat it I was barely listening, yes I heard what she was saying but it didn't really register. I had a tumour.

'If you have any questions please don't hesitate to ask me and I will see you next Tuesday' she said as I left her office after what felt like hours.

I only live 10 minutes away from doctor's surgery so the journey was quick but what I met when I got home was the last thing I wanted. 'John?' I sighed knowing he was clearly drunk.

'You, you ruin everything. Lawrence told me he didn't want to see me next weekend anymore. I know it's your fault, you're the one who screwed up my relationship with Will and now with Lawrence' he yelled at me aggressively. I could feel my breath catching and my heart racing as he continued to call me useless and pathetic, as he said Kate would leave me, I'd screw Lexie up, they'd all be better off without me, I embarrass my mother and my boys. He continued to put me down for another 40 minutes and when he left I could feel the tears start to well up in my eyes.

He was right, they would be better off; the doctor said I would need a lot of care to get better; I didn't need to put my family through that. Kate could easily do better than me, she is gorgeous and clever and then there's the kids, they don't need me; I would screw them up just as much as I am. I walked into the house and anger clouded over my sadness. I was so angry, I was finally happy and now I was sick, life was no longer going to be happy. I couldn't stop myself, I smashed plates and glasses, I tore up papers and books, I needed to release my anger and ruining my house was not working, I raced up to my bedroom trying to think of a way to feel better.

As I entered the bathroom I found what I was looking for, a release. I don't know how long I had been ruining my house or searching for a release but here I was at 2 o'clock slicing into my wrist with a razor blade, I knew when I cut my wrist I had cut too deep and if I didn't get help I would probably die but I no longer cared. I couldn't breathe, I wasn't me anymore, I was scared and fragile, I was broken and I couldn't see how I could become unbroken. I had been crying for so long my eyes were bloodshot and tears were no longer falling but they were pouring, my heart was racing trying to keep my body functioning and my head was finally clearing when Gillian entered, after that the time flew by in a blur.

Present Day

So here I am now, they all know now, the boys are crying on one side of me whilst Kate is trying desperately to calm them down all the while crying herself trying to comprehend what I have just revealed. On my other side Raff is trying to comfort Gillian who has seemingly just caught up with herself and the last few hours, I think I heard Raff say Robbie was with Ellie and the baby at the farm still but I can't be certain as he is hard to hear over the sounds of people crying and asking so many questions. The sight of my mum is breaking my heart she is pale and crying into Alan's arms whilst he is trying not to cry at the sight of his wife. I don't know what happens next but it can't be worse than today, I hope.

The Next Day

Gillian POV

We all went back to Caroline's at around 9 pm last night and to say it was quiet would be an understatement. When we got back to the house I went straight upstairs to the bathroom to clean up the blood because I know the last thing Caroline would want the boys or Kate to see right now would be her blood covering the floor, I cleaned it up and I tried to sneak down the stairs with the blood soaked towels so that no one would see them but they had clearly decided tidying the house would keep their minds off of Caroline so they all saw me. 'That's mum's blood? There is so much blood, she, she really could have died couldn't she?' Lawrence sobbed as William walked over to comfort him. All I could do was nod because there were no words that would help right now, Lawrence couldn't stop crying, Kate was seemingly still in shock because other than a few words of comfort to the kids and a pained I love you to Caroline she hadn't spoken in hours and as for Celia, her pale tear stained face was nothing like the face I have come to know over these last few years.

This morning we all sat eating our breakfast together in silence. We all agreed that Kate would go and pick Caroline up later when she was released, the doctor's said that she had to stay in last night for 24 hour observations but then as long as she attended a set session of counselling sessions she could come home because it was clear to them that she had not been intending to commit suicide. Slowly the truths she gave us last night began to set in and there was a silent vow, she would never feel alone again and we would help her get better, and she would. We are a family now and there is no way that I or any of the others are willing to lose her yet. The most painful part of this morning was listening to Lawrence yell at his father on the phone. I don't know how John reacted but he is not stupid so he must know his relationship with his sons will never be the same again now.