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Christian's POV

Eight weeks. Two months. That's how long it's been since I've talked to Ana. All I want is to talk to her. To tell her I'm sorry. To tell her how I feel but it's not possible. I can't hurt her more than I already have.

Elena never mentioned our fight. She ignored it. We told Carson about the baby and he...Wasn't very excited. He didn't really say much about it. After about five minutes of silence he asked if he could go play. I let him go and Elena left yet again.

Elena is showing. She looks like she did when she was around five months with Carson. I worry that it's twins. She shouldn't be that big yet. She says she can feel the baby move around too. She shouldn't be able to feel that yet. Maybe I'm just being paranoid. I probably am.

It's Tuesday and Carson is sick as a dog. Elena isn't home so she can't watch him and his nanny is away on vacation. I have no choice but to bring Carson with me to work. I pack a few of his toys, medicine and his pillow and blanket. I arrive at work with Carson in my arms and Gail gives me a knowing smile. I lay my sleeping son on the couch and cover him with his blanket. I go through my routine of attendance and announcements.

Towards the end of the day, there's a knock on my door. Carson is playing with his action figures. I open the office door and see Ana. She sees Carson and smiles slightly. I'm about to say something to her when Gail interrupts saying that there's been a fight and I'm needed. I silently ask Ana to stay and wait for me. She nods her head and goes over to Carson. His face lights up as she plays with him.

When I get back from dealing with the two girls, yes girls, Ana is still playing with my son. They're coloring now though. I close the door to let them know that I've arrived back. Ana smiles slightly at me and Carson grins happily.

" Dad, Miss Ana is my new friend. Can we keep her? Maybe instead of the baby we can just have her.", he suggests. This is the first time he's said anything about the baby. I'm shocked. Ana flinches a little.

" Carson, Miss Ana and I need to talk. Can you go show Mrs. Jones the pictures you drew?", I ask him nicely. He nods his head and grabs the papers before leaving the room. Ana stands up and smooths her skirt down. I stick my hands in my pockets and look at the floor.

" There's no easy way to say this so...Christian, I'm pregnant. Ten weeks. Before you say anything, I know we weren't together ten weeks ago. The doctors count from your last period. My last period was ten weeks ago. So in reality, I'm eight weeks.", She rambles. My heart thuds and I feel my mouth drop open. Ana's pregnant?...With, with my baby? I feel a thrill of excitement, a stab of guilt and anger. Excitement because I made a baby with this amazing woman. Guilt because I'm happy about this baby and not the other. Anger because I'm already a shitty father.

I walk over to Ana and put my hand on her stomach. Our baby is growing in there. I fell in love with it the moment she told me. Just like when Elena told me she was pregnant with Carson. Why didn't I feel that with Elena and I's second baby? The guilt triples.

" We...We made a baby?", I say breathlessly. Ana nods her head.

" I'm not going to let my child be treated like a bastard. So either, you treat this baby the same way you treat Carson and will treat your other child or I don't want you in it's life. My kid isn't going to be some second place. This baby did nothing wrong and deserves all the love it can get.", Tears well up in her eyes. I hold her face in my hands.

" Ana, I love this baby already. We made this little miracle. I want it more than you could even imagine.", I tell her. I wipe her eyes and let my hand fall down two her stomach.

" What are we going to do Christian? You're married with another baby on the way with your wife, I'm pregnant with a baby that was created through infidelity. You have a son. If you want to be in this baby's life, you have to tell your wife about us. Do you know the fucking shit storm that's going to cause? I could lose my job. Then how am I supposed to care for his baby. There's no way I'll get hired at another school.", she cries. I rub her back gently.

" We'll figure it out Ana. Together. I promise, I'll make sure you don't lose your job. I'll say I propositioned you and got you drunk. I'll make it my fault.", I tell her. She shakes her head and then the door flies open. Elena stands there with a murderous look on her face.

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Soooo...How much did Elena hear? Review your thoughts?!