Blaine was sitting in Warbler practice, but hardly paying attention. It had been a couple days since he and Kurt had fought and they hadn't even seen each other since then. Blaine was back to avoiding Kurt again, but not for the same reasons, he wanted to make things right between them, he just didn't know how to fix this. All Blaine could do was replay in his mind all of the awful things he had said to Kurt.
He hated that they had fought, but he didn't know what to do about it either because he didn't understand what had made Kurt so upset to begin with. He knew Kurt didn't like Sebastian, but what did it matter what they were doing? It was almost like Kurt was jealous.
Blaine's heart thudded. Kurt had no reason to be jealous of Sebastian, did he?
"Blaine." Hunter called braking Blaine out of his thoughts. "Are you going to join us for this meeting?"
Blaine turned to look at this fellow council member. "Yes, sorry. What were we discussing?"
Sebastian gave him a funny look while Hunter just glared at him. They didn't get alone. "We're discussing ideas to give us an edge at Regionals. We only have three weeks before we go up against New Directions." Hunter said. "We have to beat last year's National winners to make it any further in the competition."
Blaine cleared his throat. "I think we continue with what we have planed. New Directions' pull is their heart and their big numbers. We need to show the judges that the Warblers have heart too and really stick to what we are good at, tight harmonies."
Hunter shook his head and sighed like he knew that was what Blaine was going to say. "I wish that was enough, but the judges want to be dazzled. We need some extra umph."
Blaine looked out at the other Warblers all of whom looked worried. "Okay Hunter what do you have in mind?"
He smiled and Blaine had a bad feeling about what was about to happen."My cousin is a college athlete and there are times he needs... a little push, you know? Just a little extra energy to get through the day."
Blaine furrowed his eyebrows and looked at Sebastian to see if he knew what Hunter was getting at. Sebastian wouldn't make eye-contact with him and just nodded along.
"He has this... remedy that you can take and I believe it will make us stronger as individuals and a group. We could really step up the dance numbers, maybe add some flips. We need something flashy."
Blaine shook his head. "Remedy? What does that even mean?"
"It's all natural." Hunter said. "Well almost."
Blaine stood up from his chair to get a better view of Hunter around Sebastian. "Are you talking about taking drugs to enhance our performance?" Blaine honestly couldn't believe what he was hearing.
"Drug is a strong word." Hunter said and then turned to the Warblers. "This is the year of the Warbler, aren't we tired of being beaten by a cheesy group that pretends to be underdogs when really they win almost every year? This stuff is safe and it will let us practice longer and harder and be better."
"No!" Blaine interrupted. "Are you insane? Sebastian, back me up here."
Sebastian looked conflicted for a moment "We aren't going to win just by tightening up our harmonies." He said. "Maybe we should vote on it."
Blaine laughed incredulously. "We don't vote on whether or not we are going to cheat. We don't cheat!"
"It's isn't cheating. We still sing and dance and do our best, this will just make our best, better." Hunter said. "All in favor of actually winning this year raise your hand."
Blaine watched in horror as Warbler after Warbler slowly raised their hand. He glanced at Trent who was looking down in his lap, he didn't saying anything against the idea, but at least he didn't raise his hand.
"Well look at that." Hunter said and Blaine realized that Sebastian had his hand up too even though he still wouldn't look Blaine in the eye. "That's well over 75% in favor. I say we go for it."
"We can't do this." Blaine said desperately. 'We are better than this!"
"Blaine get on board of get out of the way." Hunter said.
"I will not get on board with using drugs and cheating. Who else is with me?"
No one answered, not even those who hadn't raise their hands. Blaine's heart sunk. He had felt it for months, but now he knew it was true. The old Warblers that he knew and loved were gone. This wasn't his group, this wasn't right.
"If you insist on doing this, I can't be a part of it." Blaine said.
Hunter smiled. "Well there's the door."
"Blaine…" Sebastian said. "You wouldn't have to take them yourself, I mean just those who wanted too…"
"Are you kidding?" Blaine said and looked back at the group. "Isn't anyone going to say something?"
Again silence. Blaine just nodded sadly and clenched his jaw. Fine, it was over then. He walked around from behind the council table and left the room without another word to anyone.
Blaine shrugged off his jacket and started losing his tie on the way to his car feeling trapped and upset. His blood was pumping hard and his head hurt. He still couldn't believe what had just happened. He had quit the Warblers. He had actually just quit. He got out to his car but was stopped by someone calling his name. He turned to see Sebastian rushing towards him.
"Did you come to your senses?" Blaine asked angrily.
"Blaine." He said and put a hand on his elbow. "I don't think it is as bad as you think."
"Oh my god!" Blaine said throwing his hands in the air. "It's cheating Sebastian and worse than that, this could hurt someone!"
"God Blaine, it isn't like we are going to do heroine or something, calm down."
"I will not calm down, this is crazy!"
"Blaine…"
"No." He shook his head. "This is it Seb, this is it for me and the Warblers and this is it for me and you. I'm always defending you, you know? Saying you're a good guy. But this…" He sighed and rubbed his hands down his face. "We're done Sebastian."
Blaine wrenched open the door to his car and started getting in.
"But babe." Sebastian said.
"Don't call me babe." Blaine slammed the door and was on the road moments later, clenching the wheel and breathing hard.
By time he got home though most of his anger had faded and he just felt miserable It hurt to see the guys who he considered friends (well except Hunter) make choices that could really be harmful. He didn't know what to do, he had to stop this but if he reported it his friends could get expelled.
He was so upset he didn't even notice Kurt on his way in, he just rushed up the stairs to his room and mindlessly started changing his clothes.
Kurt heard the front door open and went out to the foyer to meet Blaine. They hadn't talked in the two days since their fight and Kurt couldn't take it anymore. It seemed that suddenly Blaine had Cooper's talent of disappearing. He was leaving the house before Kurt got up and staying out late. But he was home from school early now and Kurt was going to take this opportunity to finally talk to him. They had to talk.
Kurt regretted their fight so much. He had only been up when Blaine got home that night because he was so excited about New York and couldn't wait to tell Blaine. He'd been warming some milk for the both of them when Blaine walked in looking like someone had devoured him. And Kurt just… snapped.
He knew he'd been out of line, yes he hated the idea of Blaine with Sebastian, but he had no right to judge him or tell him what to do. Blaine wasn't his; in fact Kurt was married to someone else. Things had just gotten out of control.
He knew Blaine had told him to stay out of his life, the words sill felt like a knife to Kurt's heart, but he couldn't do it. Before anything else he and Blaine were friends, and he wasn't going to lose his best friend over this. If that meant he had to stomach Blaine and Sebastian together– he would.
What he didn't expect was a wild looking Blaine to storm into the house and immediately rush to his room. Something was wrong. This wasn't just about Blaine avoiding Kurt. Kurt walked tentatively upstairs and rapped lightly on Blaine's door. There wasn't an answer but Kurt could hear movement from the other side. He knocked again and Blaine abruptly opened the door.
He face was red and his eyes watery like he was crying or trying not to cry, but his expression softened when he saw Kurt. He let out a breath and then backed up making way for Kurt to come in. Kurt walked into the room and saw Blaine's Dalton uniform thrown on the ground, he was now wearing sweatpants and a t-shirt, his boxing gloves were laying on the bed. Kurt took it all in and bit his lip, yeah something was definitely wrong.
He turned around and faced Blaine. "Is everything okay?" He asked, and the question sounded empty to him because obviously things weren't okay. Blaine sighed and rubbed the back of his neck before going to sit down on his bed. Kurt stood awkwardly, not knowing if Blaine would want him to join him.
"No." Blaine's voice sounded hoarse. "I quit the Warblers."
"You… what?" Kurt asked knowing he must have misheard.
"I quit the Warblers. Oh and you'll be happy to know I broke up with Sebastian too." He said bitterly.
"I…" Kurt shook his head. "No, none of this makes me happy. What's going on?" He hated how miserable Blaine looked. "Did Sebastian…" He swallowed down the worry that gripped his heart. "What did Sebastian do?"
Blaine ran a hand through his hair, working out the gel and making his hair curlier. "He agreed with Hunter and the rest of the Warblers to cheat at Regonals."
Kurt just stood there blinking at Blaine. That couldn't be right.
Blaine looked up and finally met Kurt's eyes. "Don't worry. I'll report them. I won't let New Directions lose because the Warblers have lost their minds. I just… I just had to get out of there for now."
Kurt walked over and sat next to him on the bed, not able to stay away when Blaine looked so unhappy. "What happened?"
"It's Hunter, I don't know why they all follow him, but… They wouldn't listen to me. I thought they were my friends."
Blaine sounded heartbroken and it hurt to hear. Kurt leaned his forehead against the side of Blaine's head and wrapped an arm around his shoulder, cupping the side of his neck with his hand. "I'm sorry Blaine." He didn't know what else to say, he didn't really understand how this could happen.
Blaine wiped his eyes a little and laughed ruefully. "You know the funny part? I'm sad about the Warblers, but I really don't care that Sebastian and I broke up."
Kurt worried his lip and pulled back a little to look at Blaine. "Are you sure? Because… I've been thinking and I was wrong the other night, if you and Sebastian are… I mean if you are happy with him…"
Blaine smiled and little a shock his head. "I honestly feel a little relieved about our break-up. I think he was just… a distraction."
Kurt furrowed his brow. "A distraction from what?"
Blaine looked at him, golden eyes seemingly boring into him like he was searching for something from Kurt. But then he just shrugged. "Doesn't matter."
Kurt knew there was something else there, but he wasn't going to press. "I wanted to apologize for how I acted when you got home from your date the other night." Kurt said.
"Kurt you don't have to-"
"No I do. Sebastian had said before you two left… well, it doesn't matter what he said, but it made me worried and then you came home looking like… that and I just lost it. But I shouldn't have been angry. What you two did was between the two of you and-"
"I didn't sleep with Sebastian." Blaine said.
Kurt froze mouth still open mid-sentence.
"We never did. I should have just said that. Nothing happened. I mean, nothing more than some making out."
"You didn't… oh." Kurt said. He felt light and giddy. His closed his eyes and couldn't help the smile that crossed his face. When he opened them again Blaine was looking at him oddly like he was trying to figure out a puzzle.
"Um… what you heard, between me and Cooper." Kurt started.
Blaine's face flushed and he shook his head. "Please Kurt, you don't have too."
"it was once Blaine. That one time and not again. It isn't like that between us and I decided to stop pretending it is. Sorry, if that was more than you wanted to know I just thought… it seemed to bother you and…" Kurt ran out of words, why was this all so difficult?
"It did bother me." Blaine said. "It's been driving me a little crazy actually."
Kurt heart sped up. "Why?" He asked softly.
Blaine looked at him and his face was so close and so earnest that it took Kurt's breath away.
"Why did my being with Sebastian bother you?" Blaine breathed out like the answer to this question was the most important thing in the world.
Kurt's heart was in his throat and his skin felt warm and tingly. He glanced down at Blaine's red parted lips and he couldn't hold himself back, he didn't want too. He moved a hand to Blaine's face, his thumb running over his cheek bone as his other hand curved around the back of his neck bringing him forward as Kurt leaned in.
Their lips met and Kurt couldn't breathe so afraid that Blaine was going to pull away, but instead Blaine let out a choked sigh and pressed their lips together. Kurt's eyes fluttered closed as Blaine's hands found the back of Kurt's neck and buried his fingers in Kurt's hair as he parted his lips a little more and tugged Kurt's bottom lip into his mouth, leaning forward to erase any space between them.
It still wasn't enough for Kurt, months of longing and wanting and wishing pouring out of him, he got up on his knees on the bed, never breaking away from Blaine, he lifted himself up over Blaine and used the angle to kiss him harder. He let out a whimper at the feel of Blaine's lips on his own and Blaine's strong hands traveling down to his back to hold him. It was more than Kurt could have ever hoped for. He didn't know it could be like this. He didn't know he could feel so safe and complete.
Blaine grasped the back of Kurt's shirt bunching it in his hands as he pulled Kurt in, he moved his legs on the bed so Kurt was kneeling between them. Kurt moved down so he was sitting on his own feet, He angled his head, loving the smooth slide of Blaine's lips on his own.
Kurt's heart was racing and his mind was fuzzy he pressed forward just a little and Blaine fell backwards on the bed pulling Kurt down with him. Blaine let out a needy whimper and Kurt wanted to cry at the hunger inside him wanting more and more of Blaine. Blaine's tongue moved across his lips and Kurt parted them letting him in as his breath mixed with Blaine's.
Kurt was gasping and panting into the kiss his body warm and his legs unable to remain still as his chest pressed against Blaine's and his hands worked their way through Blaine's curls. Kurt thought that he would just keep kissing Blaine forever but his brain was getting dizzy and he had to pull back a little to breathe. Blaine laid under him cheeks flushed a deep red and eyes all but black they were so dilated as his gazed up at him.
"Kurt." He said and it came out of his mouth a breathy sigh making Kurt shiver. Kurt had no words to say he just knew he wanted this moment to never end. He leaned down again and let their lips meet and Blaine's hands started traveling under his shirt and up his back. This was s much better than any kiss he had ever had. Better than even the most passionate of kisses he'd shared with Cooper.
Oh god, Cooper.
The spell was broken and Kurt immediately jumped up, almost toppling off the bed in his haste. He looked at Blaine with wide eyes; he was still laying on the bed and breathing heavily starring back at Kurt with a desperate look in his eyes.
"I... I..." Kurt turned to the door. "I have to go." He rushed from the room and down the hall to the master bedroom where he locked himself in the adjoining bathroom and turned on the faucet splashing cold water on his face.
He had never felt so happy or free. He laughed a little and looked up at his reflection. His cheeks were rosy and his eyes blown and his hair a mess. He had kissed Blaine and Blaine had kissed him back. He wasn't alone in the way he felt. There was something between them. Kurt closed his eyes and sucked in a deep breath, what in the world where they going to do?
