Looking Through The Looking Glass

I was frozen. Seeing him standing there. Looking the same as always. Yet so different. Maybe it wasn't him that was different. Maybe it was the way I was seeing him that was different. I could feeling the sharp prickling feeling at the back of my nose but forced myself not to cry. I wouldn't give him the satisfaction of seeing it affect me so much. I had cried enough tears over him and I'm sure I'll shed a few more after this is all said and done. But not here. Not with both of them watching. I'd make sure Edward never saw me cry for him. For what he has done.

"Tanya? What are you doing here?" Edward looked confused. Maybe it was for my benefit. Or because he was actually confused as to why she'd be here.

"We were just catching up" I answered smiling sweetly at Edward. He took a seat across from me. Looking lost.

"I didn't realise you had met before" he said softly.

"Oh, we haven't, we have a lot in common though. Like for instance, we've both apparently fucked you" I spat. Edwards eyes flashed and he glanced over at Tanya.

"I can explain" I actually laughed at that.

"You're suppose to be good with words. Couldn't think of something more original?" I mocked.

"I never meant for-" I stood up quickly and cut him off.

"Never meant for what? For me to find out? Or was it that you never meant to get her knocked up?" I threw the wine glass I was holding at the back wall. Then ran my hand across my face to calm myself down. I liked to think I was a rational person. But give me more than one drink and piss me off. I have a temper that could rival my fathers. I would almost never become violent, but things tend to end up broken a lot.

"I was going to tell you. I swear I was. I just didn't know how" Edward stood up and tried to reach for me but I stepped back quickly.

"So you did know. When did she tell you?" I asked glancing at Tanya. She had her head in her hands. He glanced at her too and went to her side crouching down next to her And laying a hand on her shoulder, I forced myself not to comment on it. Or let him know how much just touching her was getting to me. He said something quietly and she roughly shrugged his hand off and left a minute later. Leaving us alone.

"At Alice's show" he admitted after a minute "I didn't know what to do, Bella. It was a mistake"

"So it only happened once?" I asked sarcastically. The look on his face was enough proof that it happened a lot more than once "that is what a mistake insinuates, Edward. That you do something once and realise it was a crappy thing to do and you don't do it again"

"Bella, please. I'm sorry. I can fix this" he reached for me again and I pushed him back this time.

"Fix this how? What we're all going to live together and play happy family with your mistress and child?" I asked laughing mockingly.

"She'll take care of it, Bella. She can get rid of it and we can just forget this-" my hand connecting with his cheek cut him off and I covered my mouth. Trying to stop the tears from falling.

"What you did was an asshole move. You hurt me in the worse way possible way and I'll never forgive you for that. But for to, to even suggest-" I stopped to run my hand roughly through my hair "that baby is innocent. It's the father thats the bastard" I pushed passed him. Pocking up my cell phone off the table and sending an SOS message to Rosalie, knowing she'd be there in ten minutes, tops.

"And Edward" I said turning towards him just before opening the door "a bit of advice. Don't say what you just said to me, to her. She is pregnant with your child and that makes her you're responsibility, no matter the circumstances and think before you talk to her. My heart wasn't the only one you've broken" I opened the door and turned my back on him before I continued.

"The papers are on the table. I don't want anything of yours. The prenup covers most of that anyway. Not that I imagined you as a gold digger" I laughed softly shaking my head

"Don't do this, Bella" he whispered "I'm sorry. You were just never around. You threw yourself into the company and just seemed to forget me. I'm not justifying what I did. I shouldn't have, I know and I understand that you may never forgive me. But I can't live without you" he pleaded.

"I would have given you the word Edward. If only you'd have asked for it. I don't really understand what I did wrong. I get it. I wasn't around. I would have taken the time off. Hell, I'd have quit if that would have made you happy. So was all this really worth it? Was she worth it? Nine years Edward. And you couldn't just talk to me? Tell me how you felt? I can't do this. Just sign the papers Edward. Please. For me"

I let the tears fall as I closed the door behind me. That didn't go as I planned. Though I guess I didn't really have a plan going into that. I don't know how long I stood there crying before Rose pulled up and honked for me to get into the car. I was numb all over. My thoughts jumbled.

"I swear to God, I'll kill him" I laughed at Rosalie's words. I hadn't even told her what happened and she was ready to plan his funeral. My laughed died down after a minute though.

"He got her pregnant, Rose. Edward has been sleeping with some woman and she's pregnant" I rubbed my forehead. Feeling a headache coming on and sighed.

"I take it back. I won't just kill him. I'll castrate that asshole first" she mumbled gripping the steering wheel.

"I just want to go somewhere. Where I don't have to worry about all this" I said pulling my legs up to my chest.

"I've got it!" Rosalie exclaimed after a few silent minutes and I almost had a heart attack.

"Got what?" I asked cautiously.

"300 days. 12 countries. 30 cities. It's perfect" I looked over at her still confused "It's the new business venture uncle Charlie is thinking of investing in. We can test it out"

"I don't know, Rosalie. I've got work and responsibilities" I sighed looking out the window.

"You're to inherent the company. No one is going to say shit about you up and leaving for a year. You're 23 Bella! Just act like it for once in you life" she said shaking my shoulder. I laughed scolding her to keep her eyes on the road. I glanced down at my left hand where my rings still sat (as they had for the last five years) innocently on my finger. I had been treated like an adult my entire life. Maybe Rose was right. Maybe I needed to act my age just this once.

"Lets do it"