I woke up tired. I had went to bed early but i still felt drained. I shrugged off my blanket and went to get dressed. They always say that first impressions are everything. I chose a simple dressy shirt and dark jeans. It had taken almost all of my summer money to buy new clothes. I hoped that it was worth it.

I went downstairs to eat my breakfast. My parents were both no where to be seen. That was fine with me. It was usually this way anyway. I poured myself a bowl of cereal and tried to prepare myself for today. I just needed to be cool. Act suave. Everything would work itself out. I hoped that people would actually notice me this year. Last year it was if i had never existed.

I put my bowl in the sink and slung my backpack over my arm. The bus would be coming any minute now. I walked out the front door and into the misty morning. The bus usually came right down by the corner. I could see a group of kids already waiting. I walked slowly over to meet them.

Most of them were kids i didnt even know. A girl from my grade avoided my eyes. Her name was Jessica and she had never even spoke a single word to me. I stood away from the group and waited for the bus. It didnt take long before it came up over the hill. I was last to board, the seats were pretty limited. Forks High had so little students that we didnt have too many buses. I chose the only seat open that was at the front.

I heard everyone speaking behind me. The soft voices of the freshman, the loud giggles of the senior girls, the deep tones of the older boys. I was the only one who was sitting alone. It had been the same last year. I tried not to let this get me down. Things were bound to change this year, i could feel it. The bus ride went by slowly.

When at last we pulled up to the school i was the first one off. I headed for the commons where everyone waited til the doors opened. There was a tree that i liked to sit at. Nobody bothered me over there. It had taken me a few years to learn that. I headed straight for my favorite spot. I sat down in the grass and watched all the students around me.

All of them were in groups. I could see the cheerleaders over to the right, the jocks behind the cheerleaders, the geeks near the science lab. They were all with friends. I appeared to be the only one alone. I felt deja vu coming on from last year. I had been sitting here every day since i found it. But i still had the whole day to make an impression on someone.

I looked at my watch, it was only 7:20. The doors didnt open til 7:45. I had some time to kill. I looked at all the faces around me and pretended i knew what they were saying. A pretty blonde cheerleader was yapping to her red headed friend. She'd say, Oh my god do you see Chad? Isnt his biceps bigger than last year? Her friend would say, Oh yes arent they just delish? And it would go on and on and on. How could that be entertainment? Why would you share stories like that? Why not share things that matter, not how big Chad's arms were.

I turned my eyes from the cheerleaders and focused on the geeks in the corner. A guy with thick glasses was eagerly speaking to his friend who was short. He'd say, The level on my character has a cap of 34. His friend would say, My warlock could still take you down at any moment! To which they'd fight until the bell rang.

I didnt fit in anywhere here. I didnt understand how all these people could congregate but yet not have anything worthwhile to say. I had imagined the conversations between the people but i bet thats what they would say. I wished i could just imitate what they do but i couldnt. I was who i was and i would never change.

I sat in the grass and just looked around. I noticed nobody that i hadnt seen last year. Was there no new kids at all? It seemed like everyone was evolving but me. I was stuck to sitting in the dirt while others were busy chit chatting about anything and everything. It has been a few years and i still havent figured out how they do it so effortlessly. It amazed me just to watch them.

A pretty thin girl just flipped her hair with her hand. I noticed some boys watching her. What did she have that i didnt? Okay so her parents made alot of money, her hair was perfect, and her body looked like a gymnasts. Is that all boys ever looked at? Did the inside matter little? Surely a beautiful soul was better than a beautiful smile.

It was almost time for the bell. I sat up and brushed the dirt off my pants. I needed to check the message board to see what my homeroom was. But i didnt want to go and push through all the kids already surrounding it. I would wait til the bell rang and then look. I paced on each foot waiting for it to ring. Thats when i heard the roar of an engine.

A red Mustang was pulling itself into the parking lot. Its engine catching the attention of mostly everyone. Who had enough money for a car like that? Many boys i could see from here were getting all googly eyed over it. It was a pretty car but what did it matter. A popular jock would get out of it and then they'd all return to there normal conversations.

I watched as a tall lean figure got out of the drivers side. His auburn hair gleaming in the sun. I could see his taut muscles from here. That man definitely worked out! He slammed the door shut and walked towards the school. I could see some girls going all wide eyed and i soon figured out why. This man was beautiful. He had to be at least 18.

He was coming closer and closer. His eyes not even once looking at anyone else. He seemed calm, collected, certain. He seemed like the person who always knew what to do. I was nervous to discover that his face was one i didnt recognize. Forks High School was small, so it was almost a guarantee that i knew every face. I knew that i hadnt ever seen this guy before. He was definitely new.

I remembered my plan of befriending a new kid. I felt my hopes plummet in my chest. How could this guy ever be my friend? He looked like he just walked off the front page of a magazine. He would definitely be a part of the cool crowd. I had no hopes of being friends with the new kid.

The bell rang, the new kid checked the board and went in. I tried to walk calmly toward the message board. I ran my finger down the list until i hit my name. I was in building 3. I followed the pathway towards building 3. The new kids face still rattled my brain. Yes i had been around good looking people before, but never one like that. They just didnt make them like that around here. He looked different then the rest of us. So perfect and pristine. Like he was a person not of this planet.

I had absolutely no chance being his friend or even being anything more. But hey, a girl could dream. In another world far far away, Bella Swan goes on a date with hot new guy. They fall in love and have millions of babies. Yeah right, i thought. Things like that didnt happen for plain old me. But i still fancied the idea. That guy was too hot for me to handle. I wouldnt even know what to say to him.

When i finally made it to building 3 i took a deep breath and opened the door. I could hear talking in the room. I hung my jacket up and went to find an empty seat. A good empty one was near the back. I sat down and tried to appear cool. Somehow i think i failed.

People were chatting and looking around. Trying to see who was in their homeroom. A few eyes went to mine but turned away just as quickly. I tried not to be saddened by this. Most of these people knew me from grade school. They would know how big a loser i was. I was hoping that maybe they would have forgotten me so that now i could be who i wanted to be. I was sad to see that this was not the case.

I twiddled a pencil with my fingers and waited for the teacher. When he appeared he quieted the class. He called out roll call. Everything went normal until he got to one name.

"Edward Cullen."

No answer.

"No Edward Cullen i suppose." said the teacher marking something on the sheet of paper. He had enough time to call two more names before the door to the building opened. The handsome hot guy was standing there. He didnt even look out of breath. The teacher raised an eyebrow, "Edward?"

"Yes" he says and i almost die. His voice is a voice i could listen too forever. Where did they make this man? Heaven?

The teacher motions for Edward to sit. He sits near the front and i see girls just fawning over him. Polly, a girl who is nothing but so sweet your teeth hurt, leaned over to him and began talking to him. I tried to suppress my jealousy.

Edward? Who named their kid Edward at this day and age? Edward seemed like a name best suited for my grand pappy, not that sexy goddess over there. Maybe his parents were just old fashioned. I could tell by his clothes that he came from wealth. Wealth and good looks, boy was he lucky. Why couldnt i ever catch a break?

I heard Edward laugh at something Polly said and that was it for me. The dude was perfect. His face, his voice, his laughter. He seemed like a god sent from the heavens. All my hopes went flying out the window. Edward would never be a friend to me. He was too perfect for the likes of me. I would have to hope there was some other new kid around here somewhere. Thought that didnt seem likely.

The teacher came around with our schedules. I took mine and thanked him.

I had English, Bio, Calculus, Art, Music, Social Studies, and Study Hall. Well it could be worse. I made it through homeroom without anything exciting happening. Mostly everyone was too busy engaging there buddies to notice me. I sat in the back and tried to appear normal. Even though i was the only one not talking. Nobody had even said hello. Maybe i had the plague and didnt know it.

The bell rang and i stood up and made my way to the door. I slipped my jacket off and turned to the door. Edward was in my way. His green eyes looked into mine for only a second and then he turned away. I could tell everything from that one look. He had brushed me aside like i wasnt even there. I could tell from his eyes that he wasnt even interested in me to know my name. His eyes said to stay away, your not good enough. I watched him walk out into the daylight.

Well, that was all i needed to know. Edward didnt want anything to do with me period. I had seen that myself. I would have to hope that somewhere else there was a new kid to be my friend or else this year would be the same as the last. Great, just great. The only new kid we got just had to be the hottest thing to ever walk the planet. And not only is he hot in every way, he also thinks im not even worth saying hello too. This day could not get any worse.

Authors note: Let me know if you guys would like to read more. Im not sure how i feel about this just yet. Thanks so much for reading.