Chapter 3

A/N Disclaimer: I own nothing! except the plot. hope you like it :]

The next day at school everyone had a hangover, good thing it was Friday, but that meant more parties.

Me and Serena were in our last class, Biology when my phone vibrated

Chuck: I'M SORRY ABOUT LAST NIGHT

Me: IT WASN'T YOUR FAULT

Chuck: YOU WERE RIGHT TO STOP

Me: DOESN'T MEAN I WANT TO

Chuck: WE CAN'T HAVE THIS CONVERSATION BLAIR

Me: I KNOW. BUT IT'S STILL THE TRUTH.

Chuck: YOU LOVE HIM. ALL WE HAVE IS SEXUAL TENSION.

Me: SURE CHUCK

Chuck: BUT YOU KNOW HOW THAT CAN BE FIXED RIGHT? ;D

Me: EWW YOU KNOW THE ANSWER TO THAT ALREADY.

Chuck: SO YOU DO KNOW! PERHAPS ON THE NEXT PARTY…

Me: STOP IT!

Chuck: I'LL SEE YOU LATER B

As the bell rang my and Serena walked out together, "So what are we doing tonight?" she asked, "I really don't know, I kind of just wanted to hang out and not go out to parties." I said while getting my things out of my locker. "Yeah that sounds good" said Serena as she was applying lip gloss. "Maybe we can watch a movie at my house, and you can sleep over" I said. We were now through the doors ready to leave school; by the stairs were Chuck and Nate waiting as usual. As we reached them Serena said "So tonight let's just watch movies at Blair's"

I couldn't help but see Chucks smile as he said "I always love movie nights, but I'm taking a friend" a friend? "What friend?" I asked. "Ohh Chuck has this new lady who he's actually interested in" said Nate, obviously happy that Chuck was inviting a girl to meet his friends. "And, why didn't I know about this!" I yelled, why was he flirting with me last night if he's interested in someone else, and who could this little slut be? "Chill Blair, you don't always have to know everything, and it's nothing serious" said Chuck, as he seemed to be enjoying my loss of control.

"Yeah whatever bring whoever you want" I said as I grabbed Nate's hand "Let's go Nate, so my place at 7" Serena gave me a kiss on the cheek and said "Tell Dorota to make those cupcakes I like" I pulled Nate before Chuck had a chance to say anything else.

On our way to my house I couldn't help but think of Chuck and his new friend. I thought he never cared about anyone except for the night, or moment even, anyways except me. We've never gone too far as to have sex, we have had some intense moments but that's it. I guess that's another reason why we're stopping with our moments of weakness because we both know that next time we won't be able to stop. "Blair" but I don't even care about Chuck that way so this shouldn't really concern me "Blair, hello earth to Blair" what? Oh that's right Nate! "Oh sorry Nate I'm just a bit distracted today" I quickly apologized. "Yeah I can see that" Nate said looking annoyed, hmm Nate we haven't really spend any alone time lately. "So there's no one home right now, why don't you just stay with me the whole time?" I asked Nate as I ran my hand down his arm; I knew he couldn't resist this option. "Umm yeah okay let's go" he said.

As soon as we reached the house we went to my room. I loved my room it's the only place where I can be alone without being bothered, I have so many memories here; some good some bad. As I opened the door I pulled Nate by the hand, he than reached for my face and kissed me. I really did love Nate he was an amazing guy and I knew we were perfect for each other. He kissed me all the while guiding me to the bed, him on top of me. Then I felt his hands unbuttoning my shirt as he kissed down my neck. Chuck loved my neck, but he knew he could never leave a hickey because well we didn't ever want Nate to find out. That's when I knew I had to stop, this wasn't fair to Nate I couldn't possibly make out with him while thinking about Chuck. Damn that Mother Chucker!

Just as Nate was about to pull the down the zipper for my skirt I sat up and said "I can't Nate I'm not ready"

"It's okay I'm sorry I went this far" he said looking guiltily and buttoning his shirt.

"It's not your fault, I let you. But, when we do it I want it to be perfect not in my room after school." I said, I can already imagine it; I would have candles everywhere with the perfect music and I would be wearing my perfect La Perla lingerie. Nate smiled and said "Your right, that's what you deserve" I couldn't help but feel like a horrible person. Nate has never been my first at anything, Chuck has always taken everything; my first kiss, French kiss, make-our session, I don't even want to think about the rest.

"Come on lets go eat something before Chuck and Serena get here" I said to Nate while going to my closet and wearing something more suitable for the occasion.

It was now almost seven and I knew they would all be here soon, they were not one's to be late, well except maybe Serena she was late to almost everything. Me and Nate were already sitting by the couches, eating popcorn I knew I had to work off later. Good thing I gave up that disgusting habit of throwing up, with the help of a therapist and Chuck, I don't think I could've done it without Chuck. Just then the doors to the elevator opened and out came Serena dressed in comfortable looking beige pants, with a nice turquoise shirt. "Hey B!" she said coming over and giving me a kiss on the cheek, she than went over to Nate and gave him a kiss as well as she said "Natie you're already here"

"Good evening" said a deep voice and it belonged to none other than Chuck Bass. I have to admit he looked good; of course he was wearing a suit with a bow tie What I couldn't stop looking at was the girl at his side. She was tiny but with some huge boobs, she did look pretty, but I could see she was trash. "This is my friend Jenny Humphrey" he introduced. The girl almost seemed scared to talk, "Hi you guys" she said with a quiet voice.

"What do you get paid to babysit now, Bass?" I asked. She barely looked fourteen that is of course if you didn't look at her boobs. "Come on Blair" said Nate as he gave my hand a squeeze. "Fine whatever sit down" I said and I knew my voice sounded annoyed. Chuck sat next to me and the girl sat by his side. "Nathaniel why don't you pick the movie this time, I don't think I can stand to watch Breakfast at Tiffany's again" said Chuck. As Nate went to pick a movie Chuck moved closer to me and whispered in my ear "Jealous Waldorf?" me? What is he talking about, God he's so full of himself. "Me? Please don't flatter yourself" was all I said and turn my head, but I didn't miss his smirk.

"So what movie did you pick Natie?" asked Serena

"I picked that one, with the guy who goes to the army and stuff" he said while putting the movie in the DVD player.

"Dear John? I love that movie!" Serena said excitedly.

"Yeah I know" was all he said as he sat by my side again. We were all sitting comfortably now and faced the television as the opening credits opened. But, as the movie started I couldn't concentrate on it, which is weird because I love movies, well good ones with style. I couldn't stop thinking about the fact that Chuck was sitting next to me with some stupid bimbo. As I sat there trying to concentrate on the movie I couldn't help but remember the second time me and Chuck kissed.

"Dorota I'm bored let's go feed the ducks!" I yelled. With this weather there was nothing to do, there was so much snow outside already and it had just started. Serena had gone to visit her grandmother and Nate was gone to visit his grandfather. Why didn't I have grandparents to visit? "But Miss Blair too much snow outside" Dorota said coming into my room. "I don't care, I said I'm bored!" as I said this I heard someone downstairs say "hello? Anyone home" I'd recognize that voice anywhere and so of course I knew it belonged to Chuck Bass. I quickly left my room to see what Chuck wanted. As I was coming down the stairs I said "Chuck what are you doing here?" "What does it look like I'm doing I came to visit my dear friend, Blair" he sarcastically responded.

At that moment I knew that he too did not have anyone to spend his time with. It has always been this way me and Chuck, the only ones to stay home alone on the holidays and since tomorrow was going to be Thanksgiving I knew that I would be spending it with Chuck. i felt a little weird because we had kissed, but I also knew that the kiss did not change our friendship we were still and would always be Chuck and Blair. "Do you want to go feed the ducks with me?" I asked. He did not answer, but he did offer me his arm and I knew that was a yes. Dorota though disapprovingly gave us a bag of bread and we made our way to central park.

It was always easy to be with Chuck when no one else was around; he was so mean when it was just us. He was still sarcastic and said innuendos but that was just the way he was. That's how we spent our afternoon; at the park feeding the ducks while it was snowing. And it was perfect because I knew that Chuck was the only one that truly understood me. He knew what it was like to fight for something, to try and try to gain your parents approval. The difference is that I was still trying and he had long ago given up or so he said. I knew that deep down he still wanted Bart's approval.

We were now sitting on a bench letting the snow hit our faces, when I felt his hand slide into mine. And, it wasn't weird, I thought I wouldn't be able to face Chuck after our kiss, but I forgot that with him none of that matter. It didn't matter that I was now his best friend's girlfriend because our friendship would always be there. This is what it was, too friends relying on each other.

"Blair" he said barely audible, "Yeah?" I answered "I…" before he could finish what he was going to say it started raining and we were getting soaked by the second. So I grabbed his hand and pulled him up, "Come on lets go" I yelled. I began to run and holding hands we ran back to my penthouse.

By the time we were in, we were both soaked in water but we were laughing. As soon as we reached my floor Dorota rushed to us yelling "Miss Blair! Mister Chuck! You okay?"

"Yes Dorota we're fine, why don't you find some of my dad's pj's so Chuck can take a shower and change into dry clothes" I said while taking off my coat and heading to my room so I can take a shower myself. "Yes Miss Blair" was all Dorota said as she went to assist Chuck.

As I got out of the shower I put some on some warm silk pajamas and walked out into my room. Chuck was lying down on my bed flipping through the channels, I just stood there for a while looking at him. He was wearing some flannel pants with a white t-shirt and he looked good. He probably hated the clothes because he only liked to wear silk to sleep. "Are you going to stand there all night or are you actually going to come over here" he asked. I glared at him but still went to the bed and sat next to him.

"What movie should we watch" he asked, still flipping through the channels. "How about the Titanic" I said. "No you know I hate that movie" he said. "Fine pick whatever movie you want" I said while getting off the bed. "I'll be back I'm going to tell Dorota to bring us some food" I said as I left the room. I went downstairs and told Dorota to make us food. As I came back to the room I saw that the credits of a movie were beginning to play. "Really we're going to watch The Scarlet Pimpernel?" I asked "You know I love Percy's style" he said. "okay fine whatever" I said as I got on the bed next to him.

That's how we spent the rest of our day together. We watched movies and cuddled. Eventually we both fell asleep. When I woke up I was by Chuck's side and he was still asleep. I went to the bathroom and when I came out he was dressed and ready to leave. I looked at him and I didn't know what to say. But, before I could say anything he walked up to kissed me and said "Thanks Blair" and just like that he left.

A/N: so my original thought of this chapter was meant to be longer. I planned Blair's memory to be more detailed but i really wanted to update today so I condensed the end a little. But the next chapter will go on onto what happens when the movie ends. so remember most of this chapter is still happening while the group is watching the movie. anyways hope you like it! i'll try to update on Friday, if not i will be sometime during the weekend.