Ch 3 Bori
I walk into her house and we end up watching tv. We watch Jeopardy, not the most interesting of shows to watch but I don't care I just wanted to sit by her.
I love this house, the vastly large space. The huge kitchen which never seems to end and the high ceilings. I could never feel claustrophobic here. My parents house, ironically built by the same man, has low ceilings that I whack my six foot head against often.
I look through the sliding doors parallel to the couch I am sitting on and see my reflection by Tori. We look good together... What the hell is wrong with me?
I look through the glass and see the pool. The very pool where I asked Jade out and everyone saying "Congrats man!"
The same pool Tor-Tor pushed me into. The same pool we had my tenth and thirteenth birthday parties at. Tori notices my eyes are away from the tv.
"What's wrong Beck?" She asked.
"I look around this house and see the memories we have together. I just feel at home here. I have forgotten how we spent our youth here. How we had parties in the back."
"Those we're important memories for me too, Beck."
"Thanks." I look down and notice that somehow I have grabbed her hand. Our fingers lace and our hands lock in place. I don't move in to kiss her, I don't allow myself more than this little bit of contact.
"Beck, are you sure you're okay?" She asks again. This time I am not sure of anything. I try to maintain a composed look, a gentlemanly look. I feel immature and rotten. Does holding her hand count as cheating on Jade? My thoughts have certainly betrayed her. I no longer wanted to kiss her or be with her.
I am tired of the yelling, the bullying, the threatening.
"Tori, I grow weary of Jade." I say out of the blue.
"Why do you say that?" She asks letting go of my hand.
"She is so mean to me. She abuses me and pushes me around. Makes me do her homework and makes me pay for everything. I can't handle her gothic tendencies anymore. I am not in love with her, I don't think I ever was really. I thought I would grow to love her deeply. But I can't lie to myself anymore. I need to break up with Jade."
It felt good to get my feelings out in the open.
"What brought this on?"
"I guess missing you. Wait did I just say that out loud?" I blush and feel my face turn redder than a lobster.
"Yes you did Beck. Ummmm listen I shouldn't have let you come in. Maybe we shouldn't have that sleepover. You seem really confused right now. And Beck I..."
I don't know how it happened. One second I was listening to my best friend talk and the next I realised a beautiful goddess stood before me. So I put my hand under her chin like I once did when we were ten, and I kissed wasn't a peck like before it was full blow kissing.
Her soft lips were kissing me back and throwing me into orbit. I played with her hair and held her back with my palm. She smelled wonderful of flower scented roses. She pulled away and looked at me, she smiled and closed her eyes again. She pushed me against the wall as we started making out. I was touching her back up and down. It was like two best friends realised without speaking that this whole time, we belonged together. My phone rang, and I ignored it. She put her sweet tongue in my mouth and we were French kissing.
We somehow made it to the couch. Never in my life had I kissed a woman like this, never had I known what true beauty was until this moment. Then my poem popped in my head...
" I never knew I could love,
I never knew I could sing,
But above all,
You're my everything"
Was this poem about Tori?