"Ours"Maura whispered to the empty space.
Outside the room, Jane could not hold it anymore. She could be strong at her job. She could be a hero, saving other people's lives. She could shoot herself to catch a bad guy but this was real Jane Rizzoli who could not handle the sharp words coming out of the love of her life, her wife, her best friend and the mother of her child.
Jane stayed against the wall in the hall way. She hates me. The thought made Jane's legs to give out. She was sliding down against the wall to the floor, bringing her knees to her chest and hugging herself with her hands.
"Jane" the blonde whispered.
"Hm."
"Jane" she tried again.
"Yeah Maura" Jane sounded raspier.
Maura was lying in their bed and Jane's head was on Maura's chest. The brunette wrapped her arm around the slender waist of the blonde. Jane was listening to the heart beats of her lovely wife. Both of them were naked, after the love making session for few hours.
"Jane, I am thinking…" she trailed off.
"Well, Dr. Isles is thinking. That must be the eighth wonder in this world. Isn't it Dr. Isles?" Jane was joking.
"Jane, can you be serious for a while? I've been thinking about something lately and I couldn't resist it" Maura remained silent.
Jane looked up into the hazel eyes "Alright. Tell me. I am listening."
"Do you really love me, Jane? I mean, do you really want to be with me for the rest of our life?" Maura asked with some kind of emotion in her voice.
"Well, I thought you were going to tell me something. This is not telling Maur" she whined.
"Jane, please tell me you love me" she cupped Jane's face with her hands "tell me that you won't leave me" she blinked away the unshed tears.
"Hey. Look at me, Maur. Look at me, beautiful. You are the only woman in my life, Maura. You are my true love. I promise you. I won't leave you. I promise that I always come home to you. I promise that I always love you with every beat of my heart Maura Dorthea Rizzoli Isles. Don't you dare cry on me" Jane claimed Maura's lips by her own.
The kiss was slow and tender.
Jane broke the kiss first and looked at the honey blonde with such passion in her dark brown eyes.
"Tell me. What were you thinking about?" she gently stroked Maura's right hand with her thumb.
"Jane, I was alone in my life before I met you. I was adopted as an only child. I didn't spend time with my parents. I didn't have a real family until you came into my life. I've always wanted to be a mother, Jane. I want to have children with you."
Jane was quiet.
"Jane?"
"Maur, can we talk about this later?" Jane said and rolled over to face the other side of the room.
"What's wrong? Don't you want to have kids with me?" her voice broke.
"Maur! Don't." Jane warned.
"Why?" Maura asked.
Jane sat up quickly. "It's my job. I can't be a good mother, Maur. I can be dangerous if we have children. Whoever wants to get me, they can hurt our kids too. What if one day I died at work?"
"But you promised me that you'll come home to me. Did you say that because you want me to feel better?" Maura sat up too clearly was pissed at Jane's last statement.
"Maura, no. Please. You know what I meant" Jane reached for Maura.
Before Jane could touch her, she bolted out from the bed. "No. I know what you meant. I know one day you will leave me. I know your job is dangerous so is mine." She faced Jane who was still sitting on the bed. "Everyone lives once. I've seen many of them on my autopsy table. I know you'll be there one day, but do you understand that I'll be there too, Jane?"
"I love you. All I want in my life is to have a family with you, Jane. Can you please do that for me?" she pleaded.
Jane got off of the bed and reached Maura. She held Maura's both hands in her one hand and slowly brought the other to Maura's chin. She wanted to make contact with hazel. "I'll do anything for you, sweetie. If this is what you want, we can have a baby. I'll never hurt you, Maur. I just want you to be happy."
"Really?" the blonde asked.
"Really." Jane kissed her again on the lips.
"I want to have your child, Jane." Maura broke the kiss and told Jane.
"What?" Jane was shocked.
"I… I want to carry your child." Maura was scared because what if Jane doesn't want it again.
Jane face brightened. Maura noticed the change in Jane's facial expression.
"Will you?" she asked hopefully.
"Of course, anything for you dear. Let's do it." Jane brought Maura to the bed. Both of them settled under the cover and Jane snaked her arms around her wife.
"I love you, Jane."
"I love you too, Maur. Go to sleep." She planted a kiss on Maura's forehead.
Jane was thinking about the night they both agreed on having child. It was filled with pure love and passion. She did not have the time to wipe the tears away that was falling all the while from her eyes.
From far away, Angela was looking at the brunette who was on the floor. It broke her heart. Her daughter was hurt by unknown reason. She thought so. Beside her, Korsak was standing "Go and talk to her, Angela" he was worried about Jane.
Angela walked towards Jane and put her hand on Jane's shoulder.
Jane lifted her head and saw her mother standing there.
"Ma!"
"Sh… It's okay, baby. I am so sorry for yelling at you. I didn't mean to say those things, Janie" she hugged her crying daughter. "I know something is going on between the two of you but you need to fix this, Jane. She loves you. You love her too. You're made for each other so please, don't do this to your family."
Jane tried hard to swallow every word she was going to say "I… I cheated on her, ma."
Angela pulled away suddenly.
"What!" she did not know what else to say.
"I swear to God, I didn't do it purposely, ma. Please don't hate me." Jane begged.
"Does she… Does Maura know this?" Angela asked. Her voice was neutral.
Jane could read the expression on her mother's face. It was disappointment.
"Yes. She found out this morning."
"Korsak, I want to go home now. Do you want me to give you a ride?" Angela looked over to Korsak and was ready to leave her daughter there.
Korsak nodded.
"Ma?" Jane did not want to be hated by everyone.
"No. Listen! Fix it. I don't want to lose my daughter in law and my grand baby for what you did." Angela left with Korsak.
Yeah, what I did. I destroyed my family. Jane thought and looked at the time, it was 12.30 a.m.