"You don't have to ask me."

Jane was lying on the bed in guest room. She could not fall asleep because, what she did was unacceptable. It was not fair to Maura. She should not have touched other woman other than the ME. That was her wife and the mother of her child. Her marriage was going to end soon. The thought of Maura leaving her made Jane to be angry at herself. If Abby was there, Jane could have killed her for what she had done to Jane and Maura. Jane was angry at Abby. More than that she hated herself for being such a wreck and some weak asshole. She could not justify her actions by being drunk. She knew what she was doing and still she did it.

It was 12 a.m and Jane was wide awake. She curled herself into a ball and cried for hours. She did not know what else to do. Maura was going to leave her somehow. The day she cheated on Maura, she realized how much the honey blonde loved her. Maura tried to make everyone happy especially she did whatever she could to make Jane happy but Jane screwed up. That was unforgivable.

It was 2 a.m when Jane decided to leave the guest room. She was not sure what she was going to do but she was not ready to lose Maura at all. Slowly, Jane opened the door of their bedroom. She watched out for every step she was taking carefully not to wake the blonde from her sleep.

But Maura was not sleeping at all. She heard the door was opened and she knew that it would be only Jane entering her bedroom. She was facing away so that Jane could not look at Maura's face. She did not want to make a scene in the middle of the night so she just closed her eyes and lay there without making any moves.

On the other hand Jane wanted to hold Maura and feel the baby moving inside her. She wanted to kiss her wife but Maura would not let her to do that. So she moved to the bed slowly and got on the bed without making any noise. The detective made sure that Maura was sleeping then she leaned forward to the honey blonde and kissed the exposed skin on her neck lightly. Then she brought her hand to Maura's baby bump and caressed her unborn baby for a moment. Suddenly, she felt a kick what she was longing for the last two days. Tears welled up in her brown orbs; she got off of the bed and ran out of the room before she could break down and wake Maura up.

Tears were flowing from the blonde's eyes. She looked at the wedding picture of them on the night stand. They looked so happy. Jane was wearing a suit. Maura was wearing a pure white dress. Jane had her arm around the blonde's waist. Both of them were smiling at the camera. It was so perfect. They were a perfect couple. Maura stifled the cry that threatened to escape from her mouth. She covered her mouth with one hand and cried silently.

Outside their bedroom, Jane was crying too. She did not expect any of these to happen. Her life was so perfect with Maura. Both of them valued each other. They helped each other. They loved, cared for and respected each other. Even though they were from two different worlds, they fit into each other perfectly. She ruined it. She could not think about her life without Maura in it.

She wanted to get her wife back. She did not want any woman but her Maura.

Jane fell asleep on the couch after crying until early morning.

It was Maura who woke up first. She had gone through her morning routine and exited her room to make breakfast for herself. She did not want the baby to starve because of the fight between its two mothers. She looked at the brunette on the couch, saw the flushed face and dark circles under her eyes. They had not spoken a word after last night's incident. Jane was still sleeping.

"Maura!" Maura's head shot up. She was looking at the sleeping brunette. Did she just call me? "Maura!" She heard it again but Jane did not open her eyes. Is she having a dream? "Maura, please don't leave me." Jane was whimpering now. "No, No Maura, please." Jane was struggling in her sleep.

The blonde was unsure of what to do. Part of her wanted to hold her wife and assure that she would not leave the brunette but it was impossible, because she had made the decision yesterday to leave Jane. So Suddenly, Jane jerked awake. She looked around for a while to make sure she was still at her home. There was the honey blonde standing in the kitchen island staring at the brunette with shocked expression and wide eyes. Did I miss something? Jane thought.

Maura turned away from Jane quickly.

"Maur." This time Jane called her consciously. "Maur! Please look at me." It was a plea.

Jane sighed and stood up from the couch and walked over to her wife. Maura still had her back to Jane. The tall, Italian, fearless brunette hesitated a moment to touch her own wife. She placed a hand on Maura's shoulder and urged her to turn around.

Maura looked into the dark brown eyes. Both of them were on the verge of getting tears. "Please, don't cry, Maur. It should be me who has to be punished. It's me who cheated on you. If it makes all the things better, I am willing to let you go. I promise, I'll never be in your life again. I won't hurt you; you can marry another person, if that can make you happy. But remember this, I love you, Maura. I can't live without you. I am not going to seek another woman in my life. It's always you. What I did, was wrong, completely wrong but it does not mean I love her. I did not know why I did it but I beg you, Maur. Please, give me another chance." Jane was on her knees literally begging her wife to take her back.

Maura inhaled deeply. She looked down at the brunette. It was not that easy for her.

"Was it just for sex?" She asked quietly.

Jane remained still.

"Tell me, Jane. Was it just for sex? If that was what you wanted you could have told me, Jane. I would love to sleep with you even in this condition. But… but you never told me, even touched me like that. I thought… I thought you are willing to wait for all these to be done. It's my entire fault. I wasn't being a good wife at all. I have ignored your needs. Why did you not tell me?" Maura sobbed uncontrollably.

Then it hit Jane hardly how deeply she had hurt Maura. Maura was thinking lack of herself even though Jane made this stupid mistake.

Jane was standing up and throwing her arms around her pregnant wife. "Shh… You are a good wife, Maur. You are the best. It's my fault not yours. Please, don't cry. It breaks my heart to see you like this. Forgive me, please." Jane buried her face in the crook of Maura's neck and fought her own tears.

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