Always.
There were a 'screech' and a 'bang'. That was all Jane heard before she was closing eyes.
At their house, Maura was still in the kitchen contemplating what had happened few minutes ago. She shouldn't have talked to her wife like that. The well mannered Maura lost all her manners while arguing with the person she loved mostly in this world. She did not even try to stop Jane from leaving. That was unlike 'Maura' whom everyone knew for the past few years.
That was unfortunate. There were best friends for many years. They were supporting each other through good and bad. Now they were falling apart.
Maura bit her lower lip to ban herself from breaking down again. She had to be strong because all of these were not her fault. Suddenly the ringing of the phone startled her. She wiped her tears away and inhaled deeply before answering the call.
"Hello, Dr. Rizzoli Isles. How can I help you?" she asked formally.
"Hello, I am calling from Mass General of Boston. Is detective Rizzoli Isles your wife?" the voice in the other end asked.
When Maura heard Jane's name, it seemed like the world beneath her slipped away for a moment.
She cleared her throat and spoke, "Yes. She is. What… what happened to her?" When she was asking that question her heart dropped into her stomach. She knew something was not right. That was what Jane always called the 'gut feeling'.
"There's been a car accident involving Jane Rizzoli Isles at around 10.30 in this morning. She has been brought to the hospital ten minutes later. I'd appreciate if you can make it to the hospital as soon as possible."
Maura stood still. She was unable to process what she was hearing. She felt silence around her. The clock was ticking.
"Ma'am, are you still there?" the voice asked her.
"Ye…s. I'll be there in few minutes." Maura hung up the call and looked at the time.
It's 10.45. So they brought her to the hospital 5 minutes ago. What have you done, Jane? Why do you hurt me so much? She thought. What is going to happen now?
She grabbed her car key from the drawer and hopped into the car. This time she did not control herself from crying. She let the tears to stream down on her cheeks.
Why does it happen to my family? What did I do wrong? Along the way to the hospital this was what running in her mind like a scratched record.
The blonde burst through the hospital main entrance. She did not care about what she was wearing or how she was looking like. Her mind was on Jane, solely on Jane.
She stood in front of the reception. She was impatient. Without any formal greetings she went straight to the point, "I'm here for my wife, Detective Jane Rizzoli Isles, who was brought in here fifteen minutes ago. Where's she in now?" She demanded.
Taken aback by Maura's attitude the receptionist tried to hide her anger. "Hold on a moment please. Let me check the computer." She scrolled down through the data until she found Jane's name.
"She is in OR now. You have to wait here until the doctors finish operating on her."
"OR? I can't wait. I want to speak to the chief surgeon NOW. I want to know what happened to my wife, right NOW." Maura scowled at the receptionist.
"Ma'am we can't allow…"
Maura cut her off "It's Dr. Maura Rizzoli Isles, the chief medical examiner of Common Wealth of Massachusetts. The woman in the OR is Homicide Detective Jane Rizzoli Isles. I have every right to talk to the chief of surgeon now unless you don't want to get anymore fund from Isles Foundation. Do you understand?"
The receptionist nodded. She made few phone calls here and there while Maura was trying to regain her self control.
"Ma'am the doctor will be here in a minute." She looked so scared of Maura.
Maura nodded and said, "Thank you. I am so sorry about my outburst. I…" She couldn't continue because she started to sob.
"Ma'am, I can understand that. Don't worry. Your wife will be okay."
Maura smiled through tears. "Thank you so much."
While waiting for the doctor Maura wanted to let Angela know what happened to Jane. She dialed her mother in law's number. After the second ring Ma Rizzoli picked up the call.
"Hello, Maura! How are you doing?" Angela asked her daughter in law in a motherly tone. Once she heard Angela's voice Maura burst into tears again.
"Hey are you crying? What happened? Maura, honey what's wrong? Did Jane do something again?" Angela hated to ask this but she knew her daughter very well. If the doctor was crying that must have something to do with Jane.
"Angela… I'm at the hospital." The 'google mouth' like Jane liked to refer, couldn't form more than five words by this time.
"What? Are you in pain?" Angela panicked when she heard the word 'hospital'. It's still early for Maura to give birth to her grand baby.
"No." She stopped for a while. "It's Jane."
"Jane? What happened to her?" Angela asked desperately.
Maura tried to swallow the lump formed in her throat before she started to speak again. "She was in a car accident. The doctors are operating on her now." Maura's voice was shaking with fear. "What should I do, Angela?" The genius doctor was unable to think anymore.
"Maura, calm down." Angela tried her best to cover her own tears. "She is gonna be okay. Do you hear me? She is going to be okay. Which hospital are you in now?" Angela knew what her daughter and her daughter in law were going through. She had to be strong for both of them, for her family.
"I am at Mass General. Angela, please come faster. I think I am going to go crazy." Maura sobbed. She was so stressed. She did not expect this turning point in her life. She had seen Jane shooting herself. She had seen Hoyt using the scalpel on Jane. That time, she was strong enough to stand by Jane, but this was totally different. They were not alone. They were going to have another tiny human being in their life. Above all that, the cause of the accident was the outburst of Maura in the morning. That's what she thought. She felt guilty. If she had not said any of those words, Jane wouldn't have left home. Maura knew Jane was upset. She knew Jane very well that she could not handle Maura's anger. The blonde knew that even though the brunette looked tough, she could be easily broken. She was so fragile.
"Sshh, Maura! Listen to me. She will be okay. I'll be right there in ten minutes. Promise me, you wouldn't let yourself down." Maura was her daughter too.
"I… I promise." Maura hung up and turned to face the doctor who was standing behind her and waiting patiently without interrupting Maura's conversation.
"I'm sorry. Are you waiting for me?" Maura kept her voice neutral because she promised her mother in law that she would be strong, but everyone could see how hard it was for Maura to act like everything was going to be okay, clearly it wasn't. After all, she was a doctor.