Hi how are you?
I know it has been a long time since I published the last chapter of this fic, but like I said before, in this moment I am student for me final test and for the Poster presentation of my dissertation. In reality, the University's Library is my house now. I am there since 8:15 a.m. until 16 p.m. and when I come back home I am really tired and maybe a write some paragraphs but I am not happy with the result =(. I only write some one-shot just for distract myself of the subject
However, last night, I sat in front of my laptop and started to write this new chapter. I hope that all of you like it and let me some reviews. Besides, I want to say thanks for the reviews that some of you let me in my two one- shot "I need to know that I am not dreaming" and "I am not giving up my dream" I want to respond to your reviews but like I said I don't have so much free time.
This chapter was longer but this morning I decide to break it in two parts, because the final part was not finished and finished will take more days…..
Anyway, thanks for the reviews of the last chapter:
- BolanSpencer: thanks for the favourite and follower I am glad that you like my Fics =)
- jscat2: I hope that you like this new chapter and let me know if you like it how Matt woke up XD
- M. Louise E: yeah, like you said, Matt is talking about what he did. However, it is really hard to speak about that, you felt ashamed because you tried….But don't worry his friends are there to help him ^^ About the trip, it will be maybe in the next chapter, no in the following, what is going to happen in that trip?
- Ms Isabella: Thanks for your review for the fifth chapter ^^
- country-chick-20: He needs both of them there for him, but in this chapter you will understand a little bit why Kelly is angry with him, and also in the next chapter :D
- Ms Isabella: Matt is recovering, but it will take some time for being againg fine and happy =)
- xxwinterbeautyxx: Well, he is still angry with him, you will find in this chapter why, but don't worry, they will be freind again in no time ^^
- Camila: Olá. Thanks for saying that you love my fic. Like I say before, I published two one-shot during this week in case of you were interested… ^^
-Guest: Yeah, he and Gabby had to open their eyes and understand that they are made the one to the other
-goldistic: Thanks for your review and I hope that you like how they wake up ^^ and let me say you that if you like the DAWSEY of the last chapter, wait to see what I have prepared for the next chapter ^^
Chapter 8: Confusing felling.
The first rays of morning sun began to seep through the curtains of the room. Matt opened his eyes feeling, by the first time in the recent days, relaxed and not as sleepy as he was when he woke up before. That was the first night in which he could sleep without the nightmares that he was suffering lurked him while he was sleeping. Gabby was the reason, she had been there for him while he was in the hospital.
He didn't know it but she stayed wakes near to him all the last night making sure that he was fine and didn't suffer any nightmare. However and as a consequent she didn't get so much sleep, but she didn't mind as long as he was fine. Few hours after he fell asleep she decided that it was time that she sleeps a few hours.
He blinked a few times and looked the alarm that was in the nightstand. It was barely half past seven, so he closed his eyes, he didn't need to get up yet. He could stay more time in bed sleeping or just lying in his bed and doesn't do anything. He was going to fall asleep again when he felt someone's hand was moving around his waist and rested on his hip. He opened his eyes again, he looked down and saw how Gabby's right forearm was resting peacefully on his stomach and her hand, which was under his shirt, was resting on his left hip touching his bare skin. She was still sleeping near to him with her head resting on his right shoulder breathing on it. It can be said, that the left side of his body was crushed under her weight.
Matt smiled when he saw that Gabby had her mouth slightly opened. "She is so gorgeous" he thought. Some morning in the firehouse, he used to get up really early just for looking her sleeping, thus, in his way to the kitchen he walked near to her bunk; she looks so peaceful when she is sleeping. In some cases, when he saw that nobody was looking him, he even dares to tuck her and stroked her check.
Her hand moved again distracting him from his thoughts this time her hand rested on his left pectoral and her head in his chest. Her skin was so softly under her touch and all her gave off a pleasant scent of vanilla. Matt swallowed; he could feel how all his blood was concentrating in that moment in only one point of his body. He looked down and saw that his concern was true.
He moaned slightly when her knee grazed the lump that his pants could not hide any longer. He couldn't understand why his body was reacting like that under her touch. He felt so ashamed because of it. Of course it wasn't the first time that he wakes up having an erection; he used to wake up having some of them while he was with Hallie, but it never happened because of other person. It was always Hallie who caused him this kind of reactions and feelings to his body.
"I have to get out of here before she wakes up and find it" his mind said. Carefully, he tried to move Gabby's body but it was impossible, unconsciously she hugged tightly to him. He couldn't move, his body was prisoner under her and her leg was resting dangerously near to his lump.
He tried to focus in other things such as what was the last construction work that he did or whatever that could help him to distract his mind of her body. Although it was impossible, spite of it was awkward for him to wake up like this; part of his mind was saying him that it was ok and normal that she has that effect on him, he always found her really attractive and wake up with her near to him was amazing feeling.
While he was with Hallie, it was rarely the morning that they two woke up like this, with the other's arms wrapped around them. Matt liked to cuddle her while he was sleeping but she didn't like so he stopped to do it.
Gabby move again and rolled on her side, so Matt could have the change of getting out of his bed and not wakes her. He looked down and it was more noticed that before. "I have to do something. I can't let her looked me like this"
Without lose any second he went to the bathroom, took off all his clothes in a record time and entered in the shower. He took a few breaths and turned on the cold. He moaned as soon as the first cold droops touched his body. He had to fight against his desire of closing the cold water but the thought of Gabby founding what happen to him stopped him of doing it. He rested his head and his back under the wall of the shower; he was in that position during a few minutes.
"Matt, are you ok?" Gabby asked opening slightly the bathroom's door
"yeah" He yelled nervous because his body still present some signs of what happen before "I am fine. I am just having a quick shower. In one minute I be outside"
"Ok. I am going to prepare something for breakfast"
"Ok"
/ After finished his shower he began to tremble, he knew that it was a really bad idea to shower with cold water but he had no alternative "You had other alternative" his mind said while he finished of drying his body. "No, I couldn't do that. She is my best friend and if I do it that would have been awkward" he dressed with a jeans and a shirt. "It would not be the first time that I think she could be more than a friend" he said remembering the Christmas party. He wanted to kiss her that night, however, he and Hallie broken few weeks early and he felt like if he was using her, and she was really important to him and he wanted to do it right. However, after that night a lot of things happened between them. He thought that he will never have the change of kiss her again so, he prefer to hide all the feeling that he had for her. And now, months later, those feelings were coming back.
"Good morning" Matt said entering in the kitchen; his short hair was still wet.
"Morning" she said "I hope that you don't mind but I borrowed one of your sweatshirt. I was cold when I get up this morning. How do you sleep?" she was focus in prepared the breakfast that didn't noticed that Matt's lips were a little bit blue and he was still trembling because of the cold shower. She tuned to looked him when he didn't respond to her question.
Matt was hypnotized, he could not even vocalize any word. That was the first time that a women wanted to wear his cloths. She was wearing a small short, which allowed him to see her long, muscular and brown legs, and on the top one of his sweatshirts, that spite of being so big for her she looked great with it. He coming back to the reality and said the first thing that comes to his mind. "Sorry, I don't mind" he said blushing
"Are you ok?" She approached to him and touched his forehead and neck, but as soon as he felt her soft skin against his, he stepped back "you are really cold. Have you showered with cold water?" her voice sound like if she was saying rather than asking
"No" he lied rolling his eyes sitting in the table with the hope that if it happens again to him what happened this morning when he woke up, he could at least dissimulate it.
"Don't lie to me Matthew" she said pointing him with the spatula that she has in her hand.
"Yes, I had a cold shower" he admitted "I needed to wake up after" he said still remembering how he woke up with Gabby cuddling to his body, breathing in his neck. It was awkward but part of him, and he don't understand why, liked it and he wants to repeat the felling of having her body near to his. "Never mind"
"You should not do that. Your defenses are down, you could catch a cold" she give him a cup with hot coffee "Drink this, it will help to get you warm" she continue cooking their breakfasts
"Yes mom" he joked "What are you cooking? It smells great"
"Pancakes" she continue cooking
"I love it" he said smiling
"I know, but after what you have done I am not sure if you deserve some of them" she joked "what do you want to do today? I'll be here until six o'clock. At that time your sister will come and stay here with you until tomorrow"
"I forget that you are on shift tomorrow" he was sad, he wanted to go also to firehouse and see some of the guys, but after what Chief Boden and Severide said to him he doubts if he is going to be welcome there. She put in front of him a dish with three pancakes "thanks" he took the syrup bottle and put some of it in them before he eat a little piece of them "they are great!" she was a really good cooker even better than Mills, he loved when she was the one who cooked in the firehouse.
"Are you still thinking about leaving in one week?" she sat near to him with her own breakfast
"Yeah. I feel I have to do it. I need to clear my mind"
"Matt. If you want I can go with you, I can talk with Chief and ask him for a few days off"
"No. I am going to be fine. I promise" he continues eating his breakfast "Anyway, what do you want to do today?"
"Maybe we can watch a film" she said after thinking what they could do
"Yeah, why not? It has been a long time since we do something together" he said smiling. They continue eating their breakfast in silence.
/
After finished their breakfast, he cleaned the kitchen while Gabby took a quick shower. When she finished, she walked to the living room and found him sitting in his couch surfing through the channels of the television trying to find a film to watch.
"The notebook" she said excited when one of the channel announce that in a few minutes the film will be transmitted "Did you watch it?"
"no"
"I can believe that you didn't watch it" she said surprised "it is a romantic film and in my opinion, it is really good. I watch it at least five times" However, she doubted that after all that had happened to him, he would like to see it.
"Do you want to see it one more time?" he said smiling
"you don't mind?" she asked surprised that he wanted to see a romantic film with her. In wasn't the first time that they watched a romantic film together, but it was always in the firehouse and Shay or other of the guys was there with them while they watched it.
"No come on let's see it" he slapped the spot in the couch near to him "Do you want popcorns or drink something?"
"Yeah, but you stay sitting here, I'll get the popcorn" she walked to the kitchen and come back some minutes later with a big bow of popcorn and sat near to him.
The film started and both of them were watching it concentrated in what was happening in the story. They share the big bowl of popcorn, Matt tried to get popcorn without touching Gabby's hand, but it was difficult to avoid her hand and at least one time their hands were found in the bottom of the bowl; both of them smiled as teenager when that happened.
At some point of the film Gabby started to feel her eyes really heaviest and it was difficult for her to understand what the actors were saying. Finally, she couldn't resist during more time and she closed her eyes. Unconsciously she rested her head in the right shoulder of Matt.
Matt stared her while she was sleeping in his shoulder "she's been so worried because me during the last days that she forget to take care of herself, but why she did that? We are just friend is not like is she was my girlfriend" he thought confused. In the past, when he was ill or injured during one call, Hallie was worried of him, but she never used to spend the night near to him like she did. Having her beside him gave him strength to get out of bed and face what he had done.
He continued looking her studying every detail of her. Her hair is longer than when he met her by the first time. In reality, everything in her has changed since they met six years ago. She wasn't look anymore like the young woman who was scared when there was danger in one of their call. No, she had changed, now she is brave and decided. And he loves it. "The only thing that has not change in her during all this time is the brightness that have has her eyes when she is excited or happy about something"
Suddenly, he felt the desire to embrace her with his arm. Slowly he removed his arm, which was under her body, passed it over her and rested it on her shoulder after kissing her in her brown hair. Embracing to her and with a big smile in his face, he continued watching the movie until he also began to feel tired and fell asleep with his head resting on Gabby's.
At lunchtime Christine arrived to the house; she used the spare key that Matt gave her some month ago so she didn't wake up them in case that they were sleeping. When she entered in the living room she found both of them sleeping in the couch embraced with the television on. Gabby's head was resting in Matt's chest and one of her hands was under his shirt touching his left side. In the case of her brother, his head was resting in the couch and his hands his arms were tightly embracing her.
Christine took her purse, grabbed her cell and quickly took a picture of them thinking that they looked so cute how they were in the arm of the other. After that, Christine went to the kitchen and started to cook something for their lunch.
Gabby was the first one who woke up of their nap, she felt shocked after realized that Matt was holding her in his arms and she had her hands under his shirt touching his skin.
"Oh my God, did I really felt asleep?"she said rubbing her eyes "Well, at least, he is also sleeping" she smiled "He looks so handsome and relax while he is sleeping. He looks like a baby" thinking that they were alone she stroked his check before kissed him there while her one of her finger was stroking his jaw. She had always wondered what she will feel waking like that with his arms around her. And now that does had happen, she felt incredibly well "Why I felt like that?" she thought "He is best friend I can't think about him like that. He needs me and I have to be his friend" she said to herself. "I am going to be always the best friend and nothing more"
/
The rest of the day was fine. The three of them have lunch together and after that Gabby went home to rest because the next morning she was on shift and she was really tired.
Staying at home with his sister was really boring for him. He would have preferred that was Gabby the one who stay with him rather than Christine. It isn't that he doesn't like to spend time with his sister, is just that with Gabby everything is better, he feels so good when she is whit him and he doesn't understand why.
After dinner he went to bed after speak with Gabby by phone. She promised him that she will call him the next morning during her lunch break and visited him in two days.
He couldn't wait until hear again her voice.
/
The next morning, Gabby was walking to the firehouse with a cup of coffee in her hand. Spite of she went to bed really early last night, she was really tired. Matt and she only sleep together in the same bed and couch one time; however, she missed the comfort that his body gives to her while she is sleeping.
"Hey Dawson" Shay called her when her friend entered in the locker room "How is Casey?"
"Hi. He is at home and he is as good as it can be expected" Gabby sat in the bench while she changes her cloth for her EMT uniform "Yesterday, I was with him most of the day and he was fine"
"I am glad to hear it" she said happy that Matt was fine. She sat near to Gabby waiting that she finished of getting dress "when does he come back? That he said something about it?"
"I don't know" Gabby lied. He had told her that maybe he couldn't come back to the firehouse fifty-one anymore. Nevertheless, he wasn't sure about that "In this moment is difficult for him. You know, after what he tried to do some days ago and he knows that all of us know it that he tried to kill himself. It is difficult look someone in the face after that, he doesn't say anything but after he come here to firehouse when he ran away from the hospital, he was ashamed and didn't look at me to my eyes or his mother or sister when he talked with us"
"I know what you mean. Do you know what happen with Kelly some days ago when he went to the hospital to speak with the psychiatrist?" she said concerned about her best friend. She know that something was bothering him but each time that she asked him or pushing him to speak about it he left the room angry and never gave her a answered.
"Don't you know it?" Shay shocked "Severide punched Matt during the session with the psychiatrist. Matt had a black eye during a few days"
"Oh my God. Did Kelly really do that?" Shay said not couldn't believe it. He looked so worried about his friend some days ago "I am going to speak with Kelly" she rose from the blench and walked to his office when Gabby grabbed her hand
"No Shay please"
"Matt is his best friend and I don't understand we he did something like that to him"
"I think that he is jealous. In a few days he will be better"
"Why is he jealous?"
"You say it. Casey and Severide had been always best friend since both of them were candidates in this firehouse fourteen years ago. And Matt called me instead of him when he ran away of the hospital"
"Gabby, maybe you and him have not noticed yet, but I do. You are really important for him and he is really important for you. It is not just friendship what I am referring, between you two there is something more. Thrust me. Why do you think that he always speak with you when he has to make an important decision like with what happened with detective Voight some months ago. He appreciated you more than you think"
"Come on Shay" Gabby said blushing
"Gabby I mean it" she said holding her hand "you didn't see it but his eyes shine every time you smile. And why do you thing that he helped you to found the new door of Molly's, because that was something important for him and you two had had a big fight and he wanted to get you back and he did not know how" She was going to say something when Gabby's cell rang.
"Saved by the bell" she joked "Oh no!" she said worried after see who was calling her
"What's up?"
"Christine is calling me" she took a deep breath and answered her call "Hi Christine, What's up?" Shay was looking her really concern about what could be happening to Matt "ok, Don't worry. I am going to speak with Chief Boden and ask him if Shay and I can go there alright? Put on his head some cold compress it will help to reduce his fever" she hung up the call and rose of the bench.
"what had she told you?"
"Matt is ill" she ran to Chief Boden office, he was speaking whit Severide. She knocked on the door and chief Boden indicated to her that she has to wait. But, she couldn't wait knowing that Matt was ill, so she opened the door. "I am so sorry chief" she said when she saw his angry face.
"What it's so important like to you interrupt our conversation?"
"Christine had just called me saying that Casey is ill. He has woken up throwing up, with vertigo, feeling dizzy and with high fever. Can Shay and I go to his house?" Severide looked her worried and later to his chief.
"Go. But keep your radio on in case we need you" he said after see how worried she was.
"Thanks chief"
Hi again.
Matt and Gabby are thinking about the feeling that they have for the other. How will Matt be? Was Kelly really worried because of his friend?
I hope that you like this chapter. I am going to start writing the next chapter of "Let her go" maybe I will have it for the middle of the next week, but I am not really sure.
Have a good Sunday
Namine Redfield