Jane lying half-awake in his airstream bed when he felt Lisbon reaching over him to get her phone. Shortly after, he felt her warm little fingers unbuttoning his pajamas top.
"While I'm still sleeping? I feel so used." He rasped in his morning voice.
"Morning. Make a sexy face."
"All my faces are sexy." What for?"
"Just do it, please."
He moved the arm covering his eyes. "Lisbon, what?" His eyes flicked into focus adjusting to the dim light entering the place. Another stronger light flashed in his face and he went blind for an instant.
"Lisbon!"
"Oh come on! I have no pictures of you!"
"What do you want a picture for? I'm right here!"
"For when you're not!"
"Please don't." He whined still covering the back of her phone with his hand.
"Just one."
"Uh-uh"
She lowered her phone and clicked the side button, turning off the little spot of light.
"Don't be like that."
"Like what? I just did what you want."
"I didn't want you to look so disappointed."
"I'm not!"
Lisbon held the phone up again, scrolling down old pics stored there.
"It's just a picture."
"Exactly." She answered without taking the eyes off the screen.
Jane smiled shaking his head. "I love when you do that."
"That?"
"You know, the 'I wouldn't get angry over such a silly thing' pout."
"I don't do that!"
"Of course not."
Lisbon heard him getting up the bed. "Teresa?"
She looked up; Jane was shirtless and had his pants down his hips, nearly showing the end of his V line.
"Like this?" He put the tip of his finger in his mouth like a seductively magazine cover girl "Or like this?"
She was laughing unable to hit camera button on her phone.
"Come on, woman!"
The flashed went off and he heard the clicking sound. Jane undid the pose immediately and continued to the bathroom with the face of someone who had just lost all his dignity to make the one he loves happy. Lisbon just couldn't stop rolling on the bed while looking at the picture she snapped.
When he came back Lisbon was still checking her phone, he sighted, laid on his back and closed his eyes. He felt Lisbon resting her head on his abdomen and moved his arm so his fingers could reach into her hair, combing the strands. She was lying horizontally across his bed, somehow fitting into the small space.
He heard the sound of her fingers quickly tapping the screen of her phone. "One of your brothers?"
"No, it's Grace. I sent your photo to her; You gained a fan."
Jane quickly moved the arm covering his eyes and look down at Lisbon smiling at him. She laughed of his panicked expression.
"For a second there I believed you."
"She sent a picture of Maggie; I'm just telling Grace she looks adorable. Look!"
She showed him the little girl's picture on her phone.
"She does." He answered with a smile lighting up his face.
"She looks just like Rigsby."
"You're saying Rigsby looks adorable?"
"Oh hush. You know what I mean."
He held her hand with the phone in front of his eyes for a few more seconds and Lisbon watched his face, mesmerized by his expression, when Jane let go of it she placed the phone by her side without paying much attention to it.
"Jane?"
"Hum?" He looked at her a bit taken away by the change of tone.
"Do you want… I mean you ever think about being a father again?"
"Oh. Uh." He was clearly taken by surprise. "Why? Do you think about-"
"No. I'm not asking for myself, I mean. Oh god." Lisbon looked mortified.
Until the words came out of her mouth, it hadn't hit her how he would take the question now that she was his girlfriend. It seemed unbelievable but she asked as his concerned friend, no second intention.
Realizing though, that she was included in the equation, she needed that answer just as much as she was scared of it.
Jane was confused and amused with her reaction, he smiled unsure of what to make of it.
He sat on the bed and she sat in front of him.
"Seeing you holding that baby the other day, it's just; I just wanted to know how you felt about it. You always look so happy around kids, you seem in peace." "I think if that's what you want you deserve to be a father again, Jane" "You do." "With me or anybody else."
"What do you mean 'with me or anybody else' why would you say that?"
"I just need you to believe I wasn't asking it because we're together. I swear. This is not about me." "I always talked to you about this sort of thing; I know it's different now but…"
"Lisbon, it's way too soon to talk about that-"
She rolled over onto her back and hid her face with her hands.
"A week together and I'm asking if you want kids. Oh my god!"
"Oh come on now, I'm sure Pike did that question after the second date"
"Shut up, you're not helping." She laughed nervously, the soundbeing muffled by her hands.
He lay down by her side and fondled her belly.
"Hey. I know what you meant, okay?" He took her hands to uncover her face and looked her in the eye.
"But now, when you ask about how I feel about my past it concerns you too. And there's absolutely nothing wrong with wanting to know if we're on the same page either, it just that it is too soon and we might create expectations and get hurt if things don't work out like we expect them to."
"You're right. I wasn't thinking about that."
"I never even believed I would have another opportunity to start a new family. I really didn't, I thought my life was over." "But being a father was the best thing that ever happened to me. I'd have a few concerns, I need to figure out some things to be able to be a good father, but I would love our child more than anything in the world. And if that becomes a possibility in the future, I'd be the happiest man alive."
He smiled widely and Lisbon smiled back doing her best to hold back the happy tears.
"You got me by surprise though, you know?"
"Oh, I noticed that!"
"No" He chuckled "I don't mean it like that. But basically you said you want to be a mother."
"I did?" she smiled a little embarrassed.
"Didn't you?"
"Yeah, I guess I did. Was that really surprising to you?"
"I knew you wanted to be a mother, I'm surprised that you acknowledged and voiced that."
"I hadn't thought about it in a while. After you left, I thought it was too late; it used to hurt to think about it. "– She concluded lowering her voice until it was almost inaudible. Jane smiled at her shyness; it was beautiful to watch her gaining enough confidence to open up to him.
He embraced her with one arm spooning her against his chest. "No anymore." he whispered, kissing her shoulder.
He nearly asked what she would do if he had said 'no' to her, but that was a cruel question to which he knew the answer. She would have given up her dream to become a mother for him, he knew it before but the relieved she showed, along with the happiness on hearing his desire to be a father, confirmed that. And he knew right now she was thinking the exactly same thing, and wondering about a lot of "what ifs".
"Lisbon, where's your phone?"
She handled it to him.
"What's the camera button?"
"Here, why?"
He quickly got on top of her, snapping a bunch of photos while blowing raspberries on Lisbon's neck and tickling her sides, she laughed uncontrollable, shivering and kicking the air… or Jane.
"Jane stop!" she finally managed to scream between the chortles.
"Just getting evidence that you're ticklish!"
She pushed his head down, tugging his mouth to hers, it was a weird kiss, Lisbon could stop laugh inside his mouth but wouldn't let go of him. It didn't take much more of that for her to win the fight.
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