"- Green, you idiot! You pure simple minded idiot!" I heard Red yell as I headed down the stairs following Gold, more confused than angry for what had happened.
I approached the aforementioned golden eyed boy who was standing near the staircase, deciding to pretend that kiss never happened, at least for now, the subject was too awkward for me to bring up anyway, and apparently there was a much more urgent issue to handle at the moment.
"-what the hell is happening here?" I asked him, not sure how to react as I watched Red cry his eyes out with clenched fists in front of an uncomfortable Green.
"-Well Red had one too many drinks and is now bitching about Greens' nasty sexual habits…" Gold explained, not even bothering to look my way, tche, first he kisses me and now he doesn't even look at me? I thought, slightly annoyed.
"-You always do this Green, I can't take it anymore! I know were supposed to be best friends but you're just so selfish!" Red kept yelling, his face red from screaming.
"-What the hell Red? Stop being such a bitch! As far as I know you're not my girlfriend, if you have a problem with me you can just leave! Nobody asked you anyway!" Green replied, keeping his usual cool. At this point everyone was gathering around them, and I couldn't help but feel worried at the effect the blunt words may have on the red eyed male.
"-And I thought I was somewhat important to you…" Red answered, wiping away his tears with a hurt expression on his face as he did so, he then proceeded to turn around and head towards the exit, drunkenly stumbling on his way.
"-Way to go Green, that was hella smooth of you…" Gold scolded the older man, he was frowning actually, an expression I had never seen on him.
I ignored both of them and headed out towards the exit, following Red into the cold night, after all, who knew what that drunken broken hearted idiot would do next!
Yet, as soon as I was outside my thoughts raced back to Blue whom I had left in Gold's room, a decision had to be made here.
It was an easy one… what was Red to me anyway?
I sighed in frustration before getting back into the house, I was pretty sure none of this would end well.
Green and Gold we're now fighting, but I couldn't care less as I watched the people at the party leave one by one. Obviously it was over.
I took a look on my phone; 4am I had no choice but to stay here for the night, after all I couldn't possibly let Blue here by herself.
I climbed the stairs lazily, why did I do this to myself? Why did I have to care so much?
I stopped in front of the door to Gold's room, slightly raising the left sleeve of my sweater and contemplating the inside of my forearm. The slightly swollen scars were barely visible in the dark, but the smooth scar tissue shined weakly in the dimmed light. I traced the self inflicted scars with my finger, gently stroking them; it would soon be a year since I had stopped cutting myself.
But I didn't feel any pride because of it, if anything it was even worse, all emptiness, only now I had nothing to make me feel alive, or breathing anymore, the numbness in my heart was far more devastating than any pain could have been. "-I hope I won't relapse…" I sighed, as I pulled the sleeve back down on my arm.
"-What are you doing?" I heard Gold call from behind, and I could only but turn around in slight embarrassment, I hadn't heard him arrive, how long had he been here anyway?
"-Nothing" I answered, mentally slapping myself at my pitiful attempt of an excuse.
"-If you say so, anyway *yawn* I'm beat, we should go to bed for now, my parent's won't be here tomorrow so we'll just do the cleaning then"
"-Wait a second….we?" I raised a brow, not sure I liked where this was going.
"-Well you don't expect me to clean everything by myself do you? And since everyone else left, and that you don't have a car…consider it payment for me letting you spend the night here, I'll drive you and Blue back tomorrow" he said as a matter of fact, what was with him and his payments anyway? I thought as he entered what I guessed must be the guest room.
I was about to enter the room where Blue was sleeping when Gold poked his head out of the guests room.
"-You're not sleeping in the same bed as her now, are you?" he said with a smirk, and I could feel myself blush at the hidden meaning of his words. I couldn't help but notice he had also taken his shirt off in the meantime, probably in the process of getting ready to sleep.
"-Well I'm not going to sleep in your parent's room…" I replied
"-Don't be stupid, come with me" his smile was sincere but I had not forgotten his assault earlier that night
"-I wouldn't sleep with someone who sexually assaulted me!" I frowned, god did I sound girlish.
"-What? You afraid I'll take away your virginity Silvy~?" he had gone out from the room, and was only a few steps from me.
"-You wish. I'll just take the couch" I was about to head downstairs when he answered
"-Oh ok, I sure hope I don't accidently end up with Blue tonight, you know since it's supposed to be my room and all…"His smirk was wicked and I felt myself cringe.
"-I hate you so much…" I stated, yet I headed towards the guest room, my cheeks turning as red as my hair when Gold closed the door behind us, a satisfied smile on his face now that he had obtained what he wanted.
I fell on the bed with a thud and seconds later Gold was on top of me, a scary expression on his usually goofy face.
"-I haven't touched anyone in ages…" he whispered to my ear and I could only feel a shiver run down from my neck to my toes. I tried pushing him away but he would not budge, and I only ended up having my hands pinned down on the mattress just like before.
"-Get off me Gold stop joking around…" my heartbeat was increasing, and to be honest I was a bit scared.
"-I'm not joking Silver, I'm needy and unless you want me to go to Blue…" he stared down at me before releasing my hands and pulling down the zipper from my jacket, he then proceeded to raise my shirt and to touch my chest in a hurried manner.
"-But I'm a boy…" I was frightened, so frightened I didn't even know how to fight back anymore. This was all just a joke right? He was just teasing me right?
"-And does that even matter now a days? You're body is hot and I want it" he said before licking my navel, his hot breath and tongue making me moan softly, what on earth was I doing?
That being said, his face approached my own, and he leaned in for a kiss. His lips were soft and damp, I did not kiss him back but I closed my eyes, bracing myself.
"-Open your mouth" gold demanded as he nibbled my lower lip, and I complied, it was okay, I could do this, and it was for Blue.
As soon as I opened my mouth I felt his lips fall in place with mine, his tongue entering me and caressing my own, the kiss was wet yet somewhat warm.
He started playing with my hair as we kissed, and I unconsciously wrapped my arms around his neck as it grew more and more passionate, my thoughts we're a mess, and so was I, yet I could feel myself relax in his embrace.
He started grinding his clothed erection against my own, and I could only moan in his mouth as he did so, I had lost all will to fight. Gold broke the kiss focusing on unbuttoning my jeans, I didn't fight it, I did nothing, but as my senses suddenly kicked in I realized what was happening, and my heart broke at the thought of it.
"-Why are you doing this…?" I asked him as he was about to pull down my boxers.
"-….You're crying?" Gold looked up at me confused as he suddenly stopped undressing me.
"-You want to do these things to me when you don't even love me, and when I refuse you threaten to do the same thing to Blue, why are you doing this? Do you hate me that much…?" I was crying and I hadn't even noticed, I just felt so dirty, so...used.
"-Of course I don't hate you I…" he looked at me, his eyes wide in realization as I wiped my tears away with my sleeve.
"-Go ahead and take me if that's what you want… I don't even care anymore" I continued, and It was true, no matter how hurt and used I felt in the end it wouldn't change a thing, I'd still be alone, I'd still be hated, why should I care what happenned to my body?
"-I can't do anything when you're crying like that…it's such a turn off…" he passed his hand in his hair, he seemed embarrassed "I'll sleep on the couch, you stay here, and don't worry I won't touch Blue…" that being said he got up from the bed and headed outside, leaving me alone in the dark room.
I could only hug my body as I shivered, I could hear his steps growing further, and soon the tears started again. See? What did I tell you? Alone again.
On the first floor, Gold sat on the couch heavily, holding his face in his hands as he sighed "-What the hell am I doing…?" he asked himself.
A/N: thank you for the reviews guys! they really keep me going, I'm flattered my story interests you :) reviews really motivate me to keep writing, since it's like, someone is actually looking forward to the update ;_; *touched* I don't know how this chapter came out, i kinda just let my arm write it alone. Sex with no feelings isn't something anyone can do...
Gold has unintentionally hurt Silver, and Red is getting fed up waiting for Green.
Will Red be ok? Can Silver forgive Gold after all that he's done in only ONE day?! WILL FRIENDHSIP CONQUER ALL?!
answers to all of these questions and more will be on the next chapter of our bittersweet dark chocolate series!
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such bittersweet
much drama
very yaoi
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