Silver's pov
Saturday night, Gold's place
A shrill scream raised from the dark as the blonde girl rushed to hide behind a car in the dimly lit garage, a big boned ugly looking guy stalked towards her with evil intent as she begged for her life; just let it happen...I thought, no use delaying the inevitable after all.
I glanced towards my side where Gold was stuffing his mouth with nacho cheese dorito's™, his eyes glued to the screen seemingly entirely focused as Paris Hilton got her head skewered by a pole (and not the fun kind).
I sighed as I willed myself to relax if only just a little, just because this was gold didn't mean he was going to assault me...or was he?
I clenched my head in my hands and groaned, not 24 hours ago this...this dog had assaulted me, but he was now so entirely oblivious I felt stupid being the only one tensing up this way.
I tried to go back to focusing on the computer screen sitting between both of us, but I was hardly registering what was going on at all.
"Why did you insist I spend the night?" I finally blurted out.
Unexpectedly, that got a reaction out of him. I stared as he absentmindedly wiped his fingers on the carpet, the screen illuminated the orange crumbles as he reached out to pause the movie.
"I was serious when I said I wanted us to be friends..." he started, his gaze pointedly avoiding mine.
"I just...I don't know how to make it up to you, the more I think about it the more it seems screwed up what I did to you the other night" he glanced towards me and I saw the lingering guilt in his eyes; I honestly didn't expect him to feel so strongly about it.
"...I'm not gonna say It was nothing, because even if it was a joke you did threaten Blue in order to get to me..."I pushed my forhead against my knees, mentally preparing myself for what I was about to admit; nobody would understand me if I didn't make an effort to be understood "I think what scares me the most is that I liked it... and when I realized that, I tried to push the responsibility onto you..."
"But why would you do that?...I mean I'm not trying to excuse my actions, but if you were enjoying it what made you want to stop?" His attention was fully on me now, and I could feel myself getting anxious.
"Why do I do anything Gold? I don't know, I'm scared. Scared of loving you, scared of being abandonned by you, scared of what it might mean about me if I admit that I'm attracted to you..." I just don't want you to hate me, no one deserves to be putting up with someone like me.
"Are you?" he asked "attracted to me I mean" his grin was sly as he inched towards me and it took all I had for me not to punch his ugly handsome face.
"Is that really all you gathered from this conversation? That I find you attractive?" I sighed
"So you do find me attractive!" his hand expectedly found itself on my thigh, inching dangerously close to my crotch, rendering me self conscious.
Unwillingly, I found my anxiety receding, and instead focused on his hand on my thigh, and my own slow building arousal.
"I do find you attractive, and I admit you might not be as much of a douche as I first thought you were (even if you're still a douche) but I love Blue, so there's no way I can be gay, and even if I was, I don't think sleeping with you just to be dumped the next day is something I want to do"
"Do you ever imagine yourself fucking Blue?" he asked, his hand stilling on my lap.
"God no!...I don't think it would be ok if I did..." I looked away from his as I answered, was it wrong for me not to want to taint Blue's image with my own perverse fantasies?
"Well, do you ever imagine yourself being held by me?" and my guilty blush was answer enough to that question.
He leaned in towards me and our lips touched; I closed my eyes and I returned it this time, ignoring the painful throbs of my chest.
Was this how it was gonna be? Was I going to let myself be wooed by Gold and end up another name on his endless list of conquests, all for the sake of a few minutes of pleasure?
"Stop.." I said, and I pushed him away "I can't do this, I can't be just another one of your quick fucks" I looked down as I said so, this seemed like some scene straight out of a bad shojo manga. The kind where you wonder what the heroine sees in that jerk anyway...
"Who said you were just gonna be a quick fuck?" he asked, his eyes searching mine.
"Umm you? Your reputation? It's not exactly a secret, how you pretty much jump on everything that moves!" I scowled, could he really think me so naive?
"I lied" came the unexpected reply, his voice barely above a whisper.
"What?" was he really saying what I thought he was saying?
"I said I lied, It's a front I put... I never actually..." he said, blushing "I've never actually dated anyone, let alone bedded..."
Of all the things I would have expected, this wasn't one of them.
"But... why? and what about that older girlfriend you were supposed to have last year that waited for you after school?" I was more and more confused by the minute.
"Well...you see..." he was getting bashful, and he scratched the back of his head nervously "that was my cousin... she stayed over at our place for a few months because of an internship" his face was as red as my hair.
"Why would you make up such a huge lie and tell it to everyone?" this was surreal, and my previous arousal was entirely forgotten.
"Well fuck Silver I don't know! Before we moved I was this pimply nerd kid with no friends, so when I changed schools of course what I wanted was to be anyone other than myself! I wanted to be cool!" he hung his head in frustration "pathetic isn't it? Red know's everything about it, but he doesn't really talk either way so..."
Suddenly it all made more sense, the way he was so cocky and such an instigator; it was all a mask, a defense mechanism. Just like me when I used to cut, or when I ditched school, or got snarky... okay, maybe not exactly like me, but I was finally feeling that maybe Gold and I weren't so different after all.
"You say you're a nerd?" I asked softly " how so?" I touched his hand not unkindly as he looked back up to me.
"geek would be more appropriate I guess, I just... I really like..." he blushed even further "I really like dating sims, but not the trashy ones!" he clarified in a hurry, even though I never asked "just...stuff like "midnight Cinderella" or "will the student council president ever notice me?"... I just really like romantic stories..." he mumbled
"I know it's girly but they're actually really well made! And I don't know if you watch supernormal, but I think the angel guy and the one who was resurrected like 50 times go well together..." he mumbled on like that for at least a few more hours, and proceeded to show me his game collection along with a disturbingly detailed amount of fanfiction.
"Ah, Gold, stop..." I felt heat pooling into my belly as he nipped my earlobe, his hands sliding under my shirt to caress my chest.
"does this feel good?" he asked, his mouth moving down to my neck and doing things to me, incredible things.
After teaching me how to play a few of his games it had become late enough that we had both decided it would be best to go to sleep, except that as soon as I had agreed on sharing his bed Gold's hands had started taking liberties I wasn't so certain I opposed.
"I said stop, you dimwit!" I smacked him across the head, ignoring my own boner "I will not be a fling! Call it what you will but I want my first time to be special!".
He sat on the other side of the bed, rubbing the sore spot on his head "special? But arent we dating? Isn't that special enough?" he asked, his face set in an uncertain frown.
"dating?" I asked "since when?" did we even share the same evening at all?
"Since I confessed to you how much of a looser I was to you, now you need to be the understanding boyfriend and let me drown myself in your body because I'm putting my reputation on the line to have you" he scowled.
"Is this emotional black mail?" I asked "are you really trying to guilt trip me me so you can try and fuck me again?"
The hurt expression on his face was enough to make me regret my choice of words, what he had said as a joke I had answered with a low hit.
"Don't you want to be my boyfriend?" he asked, his lips in a pout and his gold eyes widening as he loomed over me.
"I do, but how can I be sure this is all not just a plot to get into my pants? I don't want to get hurt..." And there it was, the reason for it all; I was too damned scared to let myself be let down again.
"Listen Silver... I can't promise I won't hurt you, I wish I could, but I can't... people hurt each other, it's what they do, and no matter how much I like you I can't make an empty promise like that..." his shoulders sagged, and he almost looked defeated "but I can promise you that I will do my absolute best to cherish you" and as he said those words, I could feel he was being honest.
"as to being sure this is not a plot..." he reached out towards the night stand on my side and grabbed his phone, tapping the screen in quick succession before he showed me that he was dialing Red's phone number.
He put in on high speaker and after ringing three times a monotone voice thick with sleep finally picked up; "hello? Gold?...what do you want? It's like 4am"
"haha yeah... hello Red, I just wanted to let you know Silver and me are a thing now" he seemed oddly subdued for someone who was trying so hard to get into my pants not five minutes ago.
The rustle of blankets could be heard on the other side of the line, and another, more low pitched voice said; "Red? Who is it? Come back to sleep..." there was some more rustling and murmuring voices, a soft giggle followed by whispered "I love you's"
"So why did you need to call to tell me this Gold?" Red finally replied, his answer punctuated by a yawn.
"because he doesn't believe me when I say I'm not in it just for his ass, and that im not actually the fuckboy I want people to think I am, not really anyway" he laid back against his pillow, smiling shyly at me.
"so you basically told him you were a poser? I still fail to see what this has to do with me...wait... what? He wants me to vouch for him?" Green's voice was muffled on the other side of the line, but it sounded slightly irritated "oh ok then...I suppose I'm on speaker phone then? Green says to tell Silver that even though you're stupid and a hormonal teenager your heart is mostly in the right place"
I blushed slightly at the blinding smile Gold sent my way; no one should look this happy being called an idiot.
"Heard that Silvy? My heart is in the right place!" he ended the call to the sound of Green chastening Red for his choice of words.
"Even if that's true, you're still trying to get between my legs on the first "date", it's hardly romantic" I scowled, looking away from his happy expression.
"But isn't this what youth is all about Silvy?" he said with a sly grin "besides... I'm pretty sure between your legs is where you want me to be".
A/N; *arrives two years late with starbucks* I haven't written in forever and honestly I barely remembered where I was going with this story but ive been getting mails of people commenting and following this and tbh i was like "why don't you let it die?" and then i was like "you know what, i'm gonna update this shit" so yeah. I didn't proofread or beta any of this so I'm sorry if it's bad. Thank you for reading!