Stepping off the plane I could still hear that scream echoing in my head. My heart ached intensely and I felt as though I was going to pass out. I normally only felt like this after I used my PK.

'I haven't felt this bad after a nightmare since...', I shook the thought away. There is no way this could be the same.

As I exited the airport the spinning in my head only got worse. I dug the palms of my hands into my eyes trying to clear the fuzzy images that now clouded my vision.

"Noll look out!"

I heard Gene yell as I snapped my head up. Then, nothing. I was enshrouded in darkness once again.

...

When I opened my eyes I was practically blinded by the fluorescent lights that hung over my head. My whole body ached and I felt as though I hadn't slept in days. I felt a pinching in my wrist and looked down to find an I.V. dug deep within my vein. I flung my head back onto my pillow.

"Since your awake, can you tell me why you didn't let me know in advance you were coming?" Lin's voice was full of agitation and concern.

I closed my eyes. "Because it was unnecessary." I replied calmly. I hated having to explain my intentions to anyone and I didn't feel the need to give a better explanation.

"You were almost hit by a bus Noll." He said coldly. I had no recollection of walking out into traffic. "Do you know how your parents would feel if they lost you the same way they lost Gene!" He was almost yelling at me now.

I knew he was right. Mother couldn't handle losing me as well.

"Does the rest of SPR know?" I asked quickly changing the subject.

"Yes. They are on their way now." Suddenly his face turned sullen and weary. He turned away from me an faced the door as he spoke. "We were all out looking for Mai when I got the call about you."

His words struck hard against my chest. I couldn't find words as I waited for him to continue.

"She didn't show up for work this morning. I thought she might be sick so I went to her apartment to check on her, but she wasn't there. I called her phone and it went straight to voicemail. We've been out searching all day and haven't found anyting that suggest where she might have gone."

Images from my nightmare flashed into my head. I could still feel the strong grasp around my waist as I was drug into the darkness. Surely I wasn't experiencing a kidnapping through Mai. The last time I had an experience like that, I was experiencing Gene's death through him. I'll never forget the crushing sensation I felt as he was struck by that car.

"Sorry it took so long. Are you ok?!" Takigawa burst in followed by a tear-stained Ayako.

"He's fine," Lin assured before I could answer. "Where is Father Brown and Ms. Hara?"

"They're still looking." Tawkigawa said grimly.

Ayako burst into tears and Tawkigawa wrapped his arms around her as she continued to cry on his shoulder. She looked up at me. Her face was a mess with trails of mascara.

"This is all your fault!" She screamed at me so loudly I'm sure the people in the next room could hear. "If you hadn't have left she wouldn't have been so unhappy!" She put her face back into Tawkigawa's shoulder and continued to sob.

"Ayako seems to think Mai..." Lin couldn't finish his sentence.

I knew what he was about to say and the thought of Mai taking her own life was not a welcomed thought for me either.

"Why do you believe Mai would kill herself?" I asked in my usual cold tone.

"I know Lin told you about how depressed she's been since you left! She hasn't been the same since you left! It's like you took the light from her eyes back with you to England!" Now it was Tawkigawa screaming at me.

"Even if she seemed upset that is not reason enough to jump to conclusions." I was getting agitated with all the yelling.

"They found this in her desk a school." Lin said handing me a crumpled piece of paper.

I uncrumpled it and began to read the scribbled mess that was written.

...

Invisible

To you I'm standing in the shadows

But really I'm right here.

I know that you can see me

But can you see my tears?

I reach out for your hand

You only jerk away.

You didn't even hear me

when I asked for you to stay.

Can't you see I'm falling

Without anyone at all.

You just stand there staring

Not moving as I fall.

You're tearing at my heart

Like it's divisible.

Now I'm sure that you can't see me

To you I'm invisible.

...

I would have to be an idiot to not know this was about me. The guilt permeated my entire body. Did I seriously make her feel so insignificant that she would kill herself?