I can't stop writing XD

This is gonna be a long chapter (even longer than the first one) since the last one was short.

So I decided to start writing a new chapter when the previous chapter gets 100+ views, 1 follow, review, and favorite each

(Is that too much?)

Check out my new story too! Its called "The Victims' Memoirs"

Anyways I hope you enjoy this chapter! We... Are now in the fun part... Huehuehue..

"What did you say?" Asked Miki with uncertainty. "Are you sure?"

The doctor nodded.

"Yes. I am very sure of it. But do not worry. It may be a chance for him to make up his life again. You know, chance to restart. And that chance is valuable and rare."

"You sound like a psychologist... "

"Actually, I majored psychology. So trust me. This will be better for him."

"Ok, thank you... Miss..?"

"Shinuki."

"Thank you, Ms. Shinuki." Miki smiled and left the office. She was still doubtful about this, but basing on what happened in his life, this choice might be better for him. She was just worried that she might be making a wrong choice...

An Year Later

'Day 366 - Yesterday... It's been an year since he disappeared. Where are you Yoshiki? Naomi and Satoshi are exhausted now... I told them to take a rest. I told them I could do it on my own. But to be truthful, I don't have any clue where you are. We're out of leads and we're at the dead end. Please come back. I miss you. I love you, but I don't deserve to. '

Ayumi wrote the ending always the same. This diary was the only thing that kept her sane. It's been an year later after she had the fight. She couldn't believe he kept his words. She wished that he didn't. Ayumi was also exhausted. Getting nowhere...

They didn't exactly try to find him every single day after ten days passed. They were busy with school and life. But they never forgot about their friends.

Ayumi needed to get some fresh air. She changed simply and got out. She decided go to downtown, since it has been a while.

"I should buy some things for Naomi and Mochida. I didn't give them an anniversary gift..."

She went to a department store and bought a cute charm for couples. She knew she didn't need to buy them but they were her only people by her side now besides her parents. The other were all... Dead.

She was walking, not paying attention and bumped into someone. The charm fell off her hands.

A tall man she bumped into got the charm off of the ground and gave it to her.

"Cute charm. Is it for your boyfriend?" He asked, handing the charm.

"N..no. It's for my friends. It was their anniversary recently."

She kept her head down in embarrassment.

"Happy anniversary for them." He said. "Sorry for bumping into you, Miss.. I didn't get your name."

"Shinozaki."

"Ah. Sorry for bumping into you Ms. Shinozaki. But I'm kinda in a hurry now. Well if you'll excuse me."

Ayumi slightly looked up. The guy was wearing a suit. He was about 180 cm tall. His voice was very strict yet he had a cool in it. She looked up directly at his face. He was a blonde with grayish blue eyes which were sharp. It was him.

Kishinuma Yoshiki.

"Yoshiki?!" Ayumi exclaimed, tears forming in her eyes.

"How do you know my name?" He narrowed his eyes.

"You don't... Know me..?"

"I've never met you before."

"How could you say that..? Kishinuma-kun, I spent a whole YEAR looking for you!"

Ayumi started crying of joy and pain all mixed together.

"I don't know you. Just please, stop crying. I need to go."

"I won't have any way to contact you..." She sniffled.

Yoshiki swiftly took out a business card.

"If you need to call, call with this number." He said, slightly annoyed. "Now, if you will please excuse me."

He then walked off quickly without even turning back. Ayumi's tears kept on falling down but she wasn't exactly crying. She couldn't lose him now. It's been an whole year.

"Yoshiki!" She shouted, but he didn't turn back.

"YOSHIKI!"

She called Satoshi and Naomi immediately.

"Mochida-kun... Naomi... I found him."

"WHAT?! Are you sure?" Satoshi shouted. It hurt Ayumi's ears a little.

"Yes. But he didn't remember me..."

"Maybe he's pretending..?" Naomi said.

"No way! Why would he be!" Ayumi sounded like she was about to cry again.

"Please don't cry Ayumi... It's bad for you. You've been in tears too much. Your body is weakened also." Naomi said worriedly.

"How did you meet him?" Satoshi asked.

"Well I sorta... Bumped into him. He looked a bit different too. He was taller and was... Wearing a suit."

"Maybe he's working for some kind of a company..."

"Yea. Did you get his number?"

"Yes... But he seemed pretty busy. I don't know when to call."

"Just try to call him now. Somebody else will get it if he doesn't."

"Okay. I'll meet you guys up tomorrow and tell you."

Ayumi hung up the phone and took out the business card. It looked professional. What happened to him during the year? She dialed the number and pressed call.

"Yoshiki seems to be happy with his life..." Miki said to herself. "But what am I going to do when he finds out..."

An year before he had a car accident. Yoshiki seem to have an amnesia caused by the damage on the head. A doctor said it shut itself down and rebooted, locking away the saddest memories. She said it sometimes happens when a brain can't take too much depression and stress. What was it called... D.. Dissociative amnesia? She said it would be better that way... To have him relive his life.

Her father was happy to hear this and started giving him education to take his place on the business. Yoshiki didn't argue and just took the lessons. It was odd because normally he would just be a rebel. Miki was happy to see him learning and be happy with his life, but he grew colder and colder to people around him because of his father's education. He changed a lot in a year. Strictness, full of knowledge, and coldness. She could never get used to them.

"Hey Miki." Yoshiki said, walking inside. "What are you doing in my office?"

"I was waiting for you."

Yoshiki may be colder, but he didn't lose his warm smile.

"My meeting just ended. We're going to release a new product soon so I'm going to be really busy. But I'm free now so you can talk to me."

"Ok. Remember when you had the car accident? You... Got damaged on the brain so you got a amnesia because of it..."

"Hmm. That's probably why I didn't remember that girl." Yoshiki said, reminding what happened earlier that day.

"But the doctor said it would be better for you to just move on rather than trying to find your memories... Since they are your saddest memories..."

"Well then I won't have to try. I'm happy with my life. If I remember the past I would just be living in a nightmare, right?" He smiled. "Let's go home. I'll get the car ready so come down."

He left the office. Miki got her jacket and was about to leave when a telephone rang. She got the call as usual.

"Kishinuma's office. What can I do for you?"

"Hi, this is Shinozaki Ayumi. I'm looking for Kishinuma Yoshiki. Is he here?"

'Shinozaki? I recognize that name... Yoshiki told me before when he used to attend school...' Miki thought.

"He's not here right now. I'm his younger sister. You can tell me what you wanted to tell him."

"I... Need to know what happened about a year ago! I've been searching for him since then..."

'Maybe she knows something... I should meet her.'

"I will tell you but I need to go right now. How about we meet up tomorrow near a karaoke in downtown? About at 8 if thats fine for you."

"Okay... Thank you for helping..."

The Shinozaki girl sounded really tired... Tired with everything. Miki got to the car and drove home with Yoshiki. Miki was very mature for a 15 year old, so she could handle customer's calls well.

"Yoshiki, who is this Shinozaki girl?"

"I don't know... I bumped into her today. She said she was searching for me. She even cried."

"She's not a stalker?"

"No. She's a normal high schooler. But she does seem familiar... I do- UGH..!"

"You okay?"

"Yea.. My head suddenly hurt."

"Uhh.. Try not to think about it." Miki was a bit alarmed, but this happened occasionally. 'Maybe his brain is rejecting to remember... Pushing away...'

'Day 367 - This may be the last diary. I'm almost out of pages anyway. I finally found you. I'm shocked and happy. But every time I get reminded of your confused face, I feel like I'm gonna cry. I'm just happy that you are safe and alive. I will know what happened later today. If you are better without me, I will leave you alone. I'll do what's best for you. I've loved you for an year... Or maybe more. I love you. I still don't deserve to love you, or even be forgiven.'

Ayumi sighed and put her diary away. When will she get to meet him? Will he remember her again? She had no clue what happened to him.

'It's almost time...'

She changed to neat and clean clothes. Nice outfit for meeting new people. Few minutes later she was in the convenience store to buy a bottle of water. She was kind of nervous to meet his sister.

'What if she gets mad at me for... Some reasons..? Why do I have a bad feeling about this?'

Then she realized this was the convenience store where she printed the Sachiko Ever After doll.

"I should have never printed that thing... Then they wouldn't have died..."

She had a flashback of the moment she printed the doll. Yoshiki was there. He had asked to go to the karaoke with him, but she said 'no' curtly.

'Because I fell in love with you on first sight.' He had said.

"Yoshiki... How long have you... How did you wait for so long..."

She wasn't going to cry. It would be embarrassing if the person she was going to meet knew that she had been crying.

"Hi! Are you Shinozaki Ayumi?" A girl about three years younger than her asked.

'She's about the same age as Yuka... I wonder how she's holding up.'

Ayumi nodded.

"What's your name?" She asked.

"I'm Kishinuma Miki. Yoshiki's younger sister. Let's go to that cafe over there."

They ordered two cups of tea. Miki was surprisingly mature for a 15 year old. Or maybe 14-year-old Yuka was too childish and spoiled in Heavenly Host and Ayumi got too used to her that made her think that behavior was normal for them.

"So.. Where do we start. Ah, right. You can ask what you want to know."

"What happened to Kishinuma about an year ago? He just disappeared..."

"Onii-chan got into a car accident... And hit his head. He was unconscious for days. When he woke up... He didn't seem to remember anything that happened."

"So... He got an amnesia?"

"Yes, but there were other causes too. Some kind of traumatic experience caused him amnesia. It's called dissociative amnesia. He can't remember the traumatic memories now."

"Then... Why does he not remember his friends? His times werent't always depressing."

"I don't know... Maybe because they are all connected to each other. He doesn't even remember his parents disowning him."

"What happened after he woke up..?"

"Well instead of going back to high school, my dad took him to get educated for his business. He's currently working for my father's business. He's quite good at it too. But his personality changed a bit because of it... I don't know how."

Ayumi couldn't believe the victim of the car accident was really him. He got the amnesia because of her. She felt pain in her heart. She had to make it up to him somehow. But how was she going to do that when Yoshiki didn't remember anything?

"Don't worry... Yoshiki is happy with his life. But I'm worried about what will happen after he remembers..."

"Can I... Meet him?"

"I'll ask."

Then Ayumi's phone rang. It was Naomi. She was supposed to meet her and Satoshi in 10 minutes.

"Oh... I think I need to go." Ayumi said, looking at the phone.

"Well here's my phone number so call me when you need to." Miki said smiling. "I need to go to. I already paid for the tea so don't worry about that."

"Hope to see you later!" Said Miki, leaving the cafe. Ayumi stood up, got her bag and left the cafe too.

They met in a park near a school. Naomi and Satoshi greeted her.

"Hey guys! Uhh... Happy late anniversary!" Said Ayumi, giving them the charm.

"Thank you Ayumi! That's so sweet." Naomi said, examining the charm.

"I met him while I was buying this..." She added.

"So did you figure out what happened to him?" Asked Satoshi.

"Yea. He got into a car accident and he's having an amnesia..."

"So he doesn't remember anything?"

"He doesn't remember any traumatic experiences he had... And every memory thats connected to it..."

They were in silence, thinking about Yoshiki. Naomi was the one to break the silence.

"Are you... Going to meet him somehow?"

"I might be. Miki said she'll ask. She seemed busy so I'll text her."

"Who's Miki?" Naomi asked.

"She's Yoshiki's younger sis." Satoshi answered before Ayumi could speak.

"Anyways, it's getting late and we have school tomorrow. We should head home."

Naomi and Satoshi nodded and they all separated their ways.

Yoshiki laid on his bed. He was just staring at the ceiling, listening to a song called "In The Water". He didn't know why he liked it, but it was a good song. It was late, but he didn't sleep. He hated sleeping. He had the same nightmare every night.

It always started as him in a school. There was blood and corpses everywhere. Screams were heard and he was running. Then the view suddenly changed to a murky pool. He would dive down there, getting a blurry vision, and reached for this object that looked like a human... A girl, perhaps. Then it ends.

He saw a guitar on the corner of his room. His father gave him that guitar last year, for his birthday present. When he first played it, he was shocked that he knew how to play it.

"I guess that's part of the amnesia too... Maybe I learned it somewhere before..."

The next song was a electronic song called "Precipitate". It wasn't one of his favorites, but it reminded him of something he couldn't remember.

"What was her name... Shinozaki..? Wonder what I did to her... She cried when I met her."

Then he heard a knock.

"Onii-chan, you in there?"

"Yea, come in."

"I met the girl you bumped into yesterday. Sadly I couldn't figure out what kind of relation you had with her. Maybe you could meet her yourself."

"Maybe. I do have free time this Saturday. I need to know who she is."

"Shinozaki texted me her number and her address. I'll tell her that you told me to meet her on Saturday."

Yoshiki simply nodded.

"Uhh... And try not to recall your memory. It may bring confusion."

"Ok."

'Day 370 - I'm nervous. I don't know what to do. I never expected you to have an amnesia. Well it may be better than just suffering the whole year... This is probably gonna be my last entry. If stuff doesn't go too well, I'll keep writing it. I -'

Ayumi got a phone call when she was about to write the ending.

"Hello?"

"Is this Shinozaki Ayumi?"

It was Yoshiki's voice. She was shocked and felt a little awkward when he called her with her full name.

"I'm in front of your house, so come down and we'll talk."

"Ok. I'll come down in a second."

Ayumi changed her clothes and headed downstairs.

"Hey, Ayumi. Who is that handsome guy out there?" Her mom asked.

"Mom... Do you not remember him? He's my classmate from second grade."

"That's him? Wow I didn't realize... Well go get him, tiger!"

Ayumi rolled her eyes and laughed a little. She went outside to see Yoshiki. He was wearing a bit big sweater and jeans.

'Cute...' Ayumi thought.

"I'm just here to figure out what kind of relations I had with you... Then I'll leave you alone."

She didn't want that, but he probably didn't know. It was basically meeting a person for the first time... Again.

"Follow me." Ayumi said.

They were walking down the streets in silence. Yoshiki thought the streets and the silence between them were familiar. But he didn't want the familiarity again. He hated the headache.

"Uhh... So why did you cry when you first saw me?"

"Well it's not exactly the first time... And I get emotional a lot..."

"Did I do something wrong to you?"

"Huh? No... No. It's... The other way around..."

"Nng." Yoshiki grunted in confusion. His head started to throb a little. He scratched the back of his neck. He didn't realize that was his usual habit. Few minutes later, they reached a small apartment. They went in the only empty house.

"Did somebody move out? The house is clean."

"Actually... This is your house."

"What? But I lived in my father's house with my family."

"... Let's get to the point. You disappeared an year ago. Me and my friends tried to find you, but we couldn't."

"Why would I disappear? I'm not one of those guys to hide and never come out."

"That's because... You left on your own. You didn't hide... You just left. And it's all because of me..."

Ayumi was trying her best to hold it in.

"We were classmates on the second year of high school. We had a group of friends... 7, to be exact. Then we all got... 'Separated'. So there was me, Mochida, Naomi, and you left. We got into a fight... After my sister passed away. And then you left..."

"So I left just because we got into a fight?"

"There's more to it... But what I really wanted to say was.."

She couldn't hold it. She let tears fall while she weeped.

"I'm so sorry... I never meant any of that. I w-wish I could've done better for you. I treated you like you were n-nothing. I'm so sorry... Even if you don't remember, I just wanted you to know. I'll never forgive myself for what I have done. You don't need to forgive me. I just wanted to tell you how I felt..."

She coughed and sniffled a lot. She closed her eyes and more tears formed.

"Don't forgive me..."

Then she felt something warm on her cheek. It wiped her tears. She opened her eyes in confusion. She saw a hand cupping her cheek,wiping tears. She blushed.

"Please don't cry, Ayumi..."

She saw him getting closer to her. His face was getting closer and closer. Their faces were centimeters away, both closing their eyes. Their lips were about to touch.

Yoshiki opened his eyes suddenly. He realized what he was doing. He quickly backed away, widening his eyes, shocked.

"Wh-what am I doing? I'm so sorry. I don't- I need to go."

'What am I doing to a person I just met? Or... At least whom I don't even remember?!'

He quickly ran out of the apartment.

"Yoshiki..." Ayumi said quietly, still blushing. "His head might not remember me... But his physical being still does.."