A/N: I am so happy I got two typed I decided to post them both on the same day. So enjoy.
On Wednesday morning Amy was awake first. She was excited to see everyone that evening. She couldn't believe she would be getting married in two days. She began to think back on her relationship with Sheldon. They had had many ups and downs in the four years they had been together. There were many in this year alone. So many good things and bad, like when he thought he had discovered the super element only to be proven wrong by Leonard. That was rough on him and her. She got much closer to him then. He began to appreciate her. Then when he went away to help his sister with the birth of his nephew, the gang talked about what life would be like without him and she realized just how much he was an influence in her life. That might have been the moment she 100% realized just how much she loved him. She knew she loved him but that was the moment she knew she couldn't live without him. When Leonard showed her that screensaver she was even surer. She didn't know his feelings but knew he at least cared.
She then thought about the last 4 months and how much had happened since then. She had tricked him into romance for Valentine's Day. She knew she shouldn't have done it but he seemed to be moving at a snail's pace in the relationship and they had become so close. He initiated a kiss on that train and even though at first it was to spite her, she knew he had enjoyed it, because he took two steps forward, a very important two steps, and put his hand on her hip. She would never let him slip back those two steps, just like she never backed down after he initiated the first hand hold. He fought it and fought it but he never won the arguments. It became a habit for him even if he claimed he didn't enjoy it. There were times she didn't even have to remind him.
He attempted to break up with her over a stupid table. She knew how to manipulate him not to go through with it but still signed the termination clause. This was where she got the most out the relationship. She only ever manipulated things twice in the relationship, the Valentine's trip, even if that only ended well and then this time. She was now going to make sure the new agreement was going to have that working on it clause inside its pages. Kissing was going to be a regular part of their relationship whether he liked it or not. Surprisingly when they began to renegotiate the agreement, he was the one who put it in to the agreement. He wanted it to be private though and she was okay with that although she would have appreciated a kiss every now and then when she left his apartment, but she had seen him grow. He increased date nights to weekly instead of monthly and that wasn't even in the agreement. She knew he wanted to kiss her and that was his excuse. No matter what people might say, he was changing for the better. He was not some asexual being, he was a man and she knew it. She just had to bring him out of his shell, just like he had brought her out of hers. She had been just like him in the beginning of their relationship.
When he decided to change careers their relationship hit some more bumps. There was so much misery going on between him and Penny with her damn movie that she needed a break. She had to lie to him just to get away from his obsession with his career. She couldn't believe he had bought it when she said she was sick and that he didn't want to rush over and take care of her like it said in the agreement. She had kept that part even though she had taken advantage of it before. He had offered but she told him it was just a minor illness and she wouldn't need his comfort. She also said she didn't want to get him sick. But then the lies caught up to her when the trio had decided to do anything can happen Thursday. She was sure she was safe because they always had pizza.
When he finally made a decision about his career, the university said no. He was a String Theorist and that was what he had to stay. His grant money paid for him to study string theory and he had no other choice. It was an outrage to him. Then on top of it all, Leonard decides to tell him he doesn't want to live with him anymore because he wants to give Penny the life she deserves. Amy understood that, she had even told him that. But then she made a mistake with him, yet again. This time she suggested they would make good roommates. Not her best timing. When he ran out the door she had no idea where he was going. She got worried when he wouldn't answer his phone. Then he called. He said he was running away and needed to talk. When she found out her friends had seen him and not informed her she was angry but she gets over things. Then he apologized for his behavior and asked her to journey with him. He wanted to work on their relationship without any outside influences. She was so relieved. As much as she loved Penny and Leonard, he was influenced by them, just like she was. She never had girlfriends so when she met Penny, she began to act like a teenager. She wanted it all and she seemed to have it all, girlfriends and an awesome boyfriend. He was so much like her when they met and then she changed and she wanted him to as well. Maybe she was pushing him too hard sometimes, but he never seemed to run too far. Well except this time, but he asked her to come with him so he didn't run from her. And she knew he loved her, he had said so. His changes had been gradual but hers had been quick. They were now in the same place at the same time. And they were getting married in two days.
The realization of this finally hit her. Two days from now she would be Dr. Amy Fowler-Cooper and she hadn't planned any of it. She trusted Sheldon and her friends. She didn't have a choice, did she? He had given her a week, she could get her own dress, but she loved what Penny picked. If it didn't look right she would only have a day to shop. What if she didn't like the color when she saw the girls' dresses in person, what would she do? She could just not take pictures with them in the gowns. She was being silly. She knew it but she was beginning to sweat. She never had a panic attack in her life. She had seen Sheldon go through a few and knew how to handle him, but her she was not so sure. She was hyperventilating now and her heart was beating fast. She loved Sheldon she knew that so what was wrong with her. She was on the verge of tears when Sheldon woke up.
"Amy, what's wrong?"
"Nothing." She lied as she quickly wiped her tears away and acted as if everything was fine.
"You're lying. Clearly you are upset about something. What is it?"
"I've been thinking about us."
"You're not breaking up with me are you?" Now Sheldon was the one panicking.
"No, Sheldon, calm down. I was thinking about everything we have been through this year.
"We have been through a lot haven't we?"
"Yes and you have to admit it hasn't all been good."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that we have had our share of issues including what happened right before we came on this trip."
"You are breaking up with me! I knew it. How could you accept my proposal and then days later break up with me?"
"Sheldon!" She yelled at him. "Again I am not breaking up with you. That would be the dumbest thing in the world for me to do. I love you."
"Then what is this about?"
"Well if you would stop interrupting me I could tell you."
"Sorry."
"It's okay. I understand why you would think that. I haven't gotten to my point. While I was thinking about everything we have been through, the good and the bad, it hit me that we will be married in two days. I guess I panicked a bit."
"Do you still want to get married? We don't have to if you don't want. We can just call this trip with our friends and family a gigantic engagement party. I just want you to be happy."
"I am happy and I absolutely want to get married. It's just I guess I had a moment of cold feet. It happens. Remember what happened before Howard and Bernadette got married?"
"I remember the aftermath of the bachelor party."
"Yes well you saw it from his side, I saw her side. She was devastated. I think it was cold feet and she used that as an excuse. She may not have known everything there was to know about Howard and she had every right to be angry but deep down she loved him and would have been devastated if they had not been married. I didn't know him before but Penny had warned me never to get in a car alone with him."
"He was so much different. I am glad you heeded Penny's advice. Although you did get in a car with him for the scavenger hunt."
"Yes but he is different now that he is married. We had so much fun that day. He is a good friend. I just wish you would see that. Why do you think I invited them instead of Penny and Leonard with us for Valentine's Day?"
"I did wonder that but then I thought it might have to do with all the wine we would be consuming."
"Fair point, which Leonard pointed out when we invited them along. But no, I like Howard and Bernadette is easier to have a conversation with sometimes. I just think if you got to know Howard better, you could be friends."
"We are much better friends since we went to Houston together. He gave me some excellent advice regarding my mother. I will have to give him another chance."
"Thank you. So you see, I just panicked a bit. I love you Sheldon. I want to be your wife. I can't wait until Friday. Please forgive my nerves."
"I love you too. Please don't think you can't talk to me about these things. I am nervous too. But I have been planning this and I have had my friends to talk to about the nerves. Maybe when Penny and Bernadette get here you can talk to them. You can have one of your girls nights."
"Oh I have a feeling the girls have some big plans for tomorrow night and the boys have something special planned for you as well."
"Oh I am not sure I want to know about that."
"Just don't get to wild and nothing better be posted on YouTube."
"I will keep that in mind as long as you do the same."
"You mean no strippers?"
"Ha ha very funny Dr. Fowler."
"Same goes for you."
"Understood. I love you."
"I love you too."
So a bit of nerves and cold feet are coming out. Trust me they are getting married, I promise but not for a few more chapters. Sorry. Next up, the dinner party. I think a few more nerves may come out of this. Sheldon must meet his future in laws in person and Amy gets to meet meemaw. How will that all play out? Stay tuned...