Finally Accepting How Things Are

"Oh my, sweetie, why are you out here in the cemetery in the middle of the rain?" grayish silver eyes that glowed in the shadows stared at the three tombstones "to say goodbye."

"Miroku, I'm starting to worry" Shippo whispered in Miroku's ear, Miroku looked down at him "why's that?" "Because Kagome hasn't come to see us yet and the new moon already passed" Shippo whimpered a bit, his eyes started to look glassy from the tears that built up in his eyes. Miroku patted his shoulder "don't worry, she must have been caught up on something, she'll come by again" he tried to reassure the young kit, Shippo just rubbed his eye and nodded then continued on walking.

In a room that was dimly lit, Kouga was pacing back and forth growling once in a while, in a comfy looking chair, Shiori was reading one of the poetry scrolls that the kingdom receive from Beijing. Kouga growled in making Shiori look up from the scroll "Kouga calm down, this pacing back and forth will not make time go quicker" 'or freeze you' she thought to herself as she lifted the scroll and began silently reading again. The room was once again filled with silence, minus Kouga's growling and shuffling feet.

Hours passed since the incident in the temple, the workers went back to what they were suppose to do and they would stop by to see how Kagome was fairing. Just when Shiori was about to trap Kouga in a soundproof barrier a tiger demon came walking into the room.

The male tiger demon was tall, about 6'2", wore a kimono that was similar to Jinenji's except it was black with silver edges on the edges. He had short black hair with a bit of orange tints here and there and golden like eyes that turned bluish green when any kind of light touched it, just like a cat watching its prey. He had a lean built slim body and on his right hip was a normal looking sword.

Shiori placed down the scroll on the table in front of her then stood up, Kouga stopped his pacing and narrowed his eyes at the tiger demon "how is she?" he asked in a demanding tone, the demon looked at him with a straight face. "She lost a lot of blood, but is perfectly fine, right now she is asleep" "did you find anything that caused Kagome's…" the tiger demon shook his head, stopping Shiori from asking her question. "No, we didn't find anything that would have caused her to be in such critical condition, though we did find something odd" the demon brows furrowed, as though in deep thought.

"What is it?" the demon jumped a bit then blinked, he looked up at Shiori "well" he cleared his throat "we found some strange scars on Lady Kagome's right ribcage and it appeared to be fading then coming back. As though it were covered by some spell of some kind" he said thoughtfully and unsurely, Kouga frowned 'scars, how could she have scars, sure she ran into some dangers while traveling with Inuyasha and the others, but never enough to leave scars.'

Seeing Kouga deep in though, Shiori thank the tiger demon, the demon gave her a curt nod "it was our pleasure, especially mines, to assist our lady, you may go in to see her though I would highly recommend you don't make any sudden movements. It would seem Lady Kagome's powers are somehow released and flowing around the room" giving the retreating demon a confused look, she grabbed Kouga's arm and pulled him out of the waiting room.

The emergency healing room, or the H.E.R, was an average size room, kind of the size of a dojo. On the left side of the room were pots filled with many different types of liquids, above it were shelves that had unmixed powder and medical potions, something that Kagome taught the healers to make on their own. On the opposite wall was another shelf that had small knife like implements, beside that was low bed covered in royal blue sheets. In the middle of the room was a pool, the size of a waterfall pool, and in it was a few tadpoles and lotus flowers in all different kinds of colors, but the things that was in the middle of the pool was a sleeping Kagome.

Walking into the room, Shiori and Kouga looked over to Kagome's sleeping form floating above the silver like blue waters. They slowly walked up to the pool, trying not to make their movements looks sudden or quick in any sort of way, there were a few healers within the room that wore the same kinds of kimonos that the tiger demon did. They looked up from what they were doing, but when they saw that it was only them they went back to what they were doing, some of them were in the water inspecting Kagome's unconscious form then writing it down on some sort of board. As they made their way closer, they saw the waters slightly wavering and not from the healers within the waters either. Once or twice a drop of waters would shoot up then drop back down into the pool, the both stopped at the edge of the pool where they started to feel shock waves go through their whole system. Kouga's blue eyes started to mist over, turning into a grayish blue color, as he looked upon Kagome's unmoving and floating form.

Kagome only wore a white yukata that was see through due to the waters that touched her once in a while, his eyes widened when he saw her appearance shimmer, only giving Kouga a brief second to see Kagome look more older and distant. When her appearance changed back into looking like the same old Kagome he knew and fell in love with, he closed his eyes and shook his head. Shiori looked at him with concern showing into her eyes "hey are you going to be alright?" she asked, Kouga rubbed the bridge of his nose "yeah, just seeing things is all" he said, sounding like he was saying it more to himself then to her.

"Ehh, ehm" the memories had stopped showing though Kagome could still see it and hear it within her mind as though it never really did stop. She was currently on her knees holding her head bowed down, whimpering ever so softly her eldest form was standing before her watching her younger form carefully. "Were you ready to accept all that or were you ready to accept the unknown when combining yourself to your past once again?" she said calmly. Kagome held her head a bit tighter "how-gasp-was I able I live after all-gasp-that?"

Her eldest form let out a long breath through her nose then closed her eyes "that, even I have no answers to, I would have to think that since living through death and battles for so long you don't really care if you live or not, you just keep moving on knowing that one way or another it will never end." Kagome looked up at her older self to see her looking up at the shining sun up in the clear blue sky, she inspected her to see that she was wearing something different.

Instead of wearing black baggy pants with a black tang top, she now wore a black leather corset with a low rider black leather pants that had a belt with a sliver dragon in the middle around it, with black combat boots. The sword that had the gun connected to the sheath was in the belt and there was a hidden dagger on the side of the combat boots, she also noticed that her older self had neat comb back hair making it looking thin and silky.

Noticing her younger self was looking her up and down she raised one brow "is there something you want to say or are you becoming a homosexual" her younger self blushed a pretty pink "oh, no, sorry, I was just noticing you don't look the same as your usually do for some reason." Her elder form lowered her raised brow "hm, it was becoming a nuisance wearing the same bloody clothes" "if you don't mind me asking, aren't those the clothes you wore when you were the Japanese mafia leader?" Kagome asked. Her elder self looked at her from the side of her eye then up ahead, not giving a response as to tell her a yes or a no.

She lowered her hands to her lap and sighed then looked to the left to a couple of wild deer looking for some food and the little ones just walking around the big deer, she smiled at the irony of it all. Of how the world could be changed, of how things may probably change she felt something cold go on her shoulder making her looked up to see the blank expression of her elder self. "Do you think you could accept how the world really is and the people within it?" she heard her elder self ask, she thought about it, memories of fire, screaming, blood, water, people in white, gurgled pleas, turning her face into a determined expression, Kagome nodded "I accept the world and people for what it is" "no trust within the boundaries within your lands" "within the boundaries within my lands" "no loyalty to only your soldiers" "no loyalty to only my soldiers" "no traitors will leave without feeling your wrath" "no traitors will leave without feeling my wrath."

Her eldest form looked down at her "no one shall live to see the night of day once again if you were to feel pain once again" Kagome looked stared at her eldest form, a bit hesitant to say the last lines of past acceptance. Furrowing her brows together and letting out a huff of breath through her nose she said in a calm and unwavering voice "no one shall live to see the night of day once again if I were to feel pain once again" in one great blast of bright light everything disappeared into complete nothingness.

Questions

1. Is Kagome like traumatized, or having a seizure?

2. Why was Kagome acting like that and what happened to her?

3. What just happend here? Is she having a flashback or something?

4. Isn't Kouga still wanting to mate with Kagome? Is Kagome now some kind of experiment now?

Answer

1. No Kagome is not traumatized, she is kind of having a seizure.

2. Okay, now this question is kind of confusing, what do you mean how she is acting, you mean at the end? At the end she is acting like that because is going to hellish memory lane.

3. Already answer that, and didn't I already answer that the last two chapters, yes she is having a flashback, in the part where she is talkign to her older self is when she is in some kind of dream sequence.

4. Lets see, no for the first one, and yes for the second one.

Thank you ladies and gentlemen for your reviews and questions, I really appreciate it, also I'm glad some of you are happy about how much detail I put in my story, one person didn't seem to like the story because of the little Inuyasha and Sango relationship and decided not to continue reading it, but that's okay, I'm just glad of the people who are happy to read my story. Well I have to go, keeping asking questions and reviewing, also enjoy reading the story.