I was asked a couple questions in the reviews by a guest so I'm going to answer them here:
Q: Is there a set date for a chapter to come out (ex. The 28th day of the month), or is it a sorta get what you read deal?
A: I do not have a set date for a chapter to come out. This is because I believe setting a certain date for a chapter may rush my writing, I wouldn't want that. I update when I have time. I wouldn't want to disappoint anybody if I couldn't update on the set date for some reason which is why I prefer to update whenever I can :)
Q: How did Bella naturally realize she is a shield?
A: In a previous chapter Izzy had thought of the times before her music career started where she had done lots of research. That's how she found out about the werewolves on the reservation. During that time, though I hadn't addressed it in the story, there were many opportunities to have found out her special ability. As a human Bella knew something was different about herself since Edward couldn't read her thoughts. So that's where her research could have started.
Q: How was Jacob able to recognize Bella so easily?
A: Izzy (or Bella) came out of Charlie's house in Forks. That was the first hint to Jacob this wasn't some random vampire. Izzy addressed Jacob by his name, another hint for Jacob that he may have known her. Lastly, Edward was so clouded by his grief and love his lost mate that he didn't make connections to Bella as where Jacob did. The Cullens didn't seem to recognize Bella either which could be for a couple reasons, such as also being clouded by emotions like Edward or simply because they didn't make the connection to Bella after Edward hadn't either.
To all the guests who reviewed, THANK YOU SO MUCH! Please feel free to leave questions below and I will answer them!
So here is the chapter everyone has waited for. The big reveal! xD Please R&R! Enjoy:)
Chapter Fifteen: Sincerely Isabella Marie Swan
Previously on Unrecognizable~
My final stop was Sephora. My plan required a tad bit of makeup which I could purchase here. Browsing through the makeup, I decided on a natural pink Nars blush, a nude lip gloss by Stila and lastly a Urban Decay foundation slightly darker than my skin tone.
I checked out and headed into the forest to write a new song. My plan was going to work out perfectly!
Now on Unrecognizable~
Izzy's POV
A mere couple weeks is nothing to a vampire, it's like a couple minutes for a human. But the last two weeks have been the longest of my life. The anticipation for Christmas Eve to come was awful. It would definitely be worth it in the end anyway. Now that I think about it, I wasn't sure what I was going to do after my plan was completed though. That never actually crossed my mind when I was planning everything out.
But eventually the excruciatingly long wait came to an end. Tonight was Christmas Eve. My plan was still a go, everything ready for tonight. The entire day was dedicated to the preparation.
I smiled at the thought of what was coming tonight. Edward's face is going to be priceless!
Chuckling quietly, I got up from the guest bed, putting my phone on the nightstand beside me. The morning sun was spilling through the silk curtains, illuminating the room. Shadows danced on the beige painted walls peacefully, almost appearing graceful and rhythmic.
Deciding to get dressed, I searched through my clothes. I chose something a little simpler today. A pair of black leather leggings which tightly molded to my curves, a blood red crop top that cut deeply in the front showing off my cleavage with a pair of high black spiked wedge boots. Happy with my outfit, I jumped into doing my makeup feeling more cheerful than usual I must say. Of course that was all because of my excitement for tonight.
My eye makeup was a dark cut crease look with a hint of shimmering blue shadow, finished with a dramatic cat eye with black liquid liner. I contoured my cheekbones, making them appear sharp enough to slice through smooth glass. Lastly, I applied my signature red lips to complete my look. I figured since I kept my outfit simple I should go all out with the makeup.
At vampire speed I curled my red hair into loose beach waves. I had to be somewhere soon, I had my entire day organized into a schedule with precise times.
I finished up with a tattoo choker and long chains dangling from my neck. I grabbed my Gucci purse, placing the photo I needed along with my wallet inside and I headed to the garage where I found Rosalie working underneath her red convertible.
"Hey Rose." I greeted, my keys jingling in my hand.
She rolled out from under the car, tools in her hands. Rosalie's long wavy hair was pulled into a messy bun and her clothes were smeared with grease. Though that didn't seem to bother her. Heck, she even had a patch of grease on her cheek.
"Hey Izzy. Where are you headed?"
"Just going to run an errand. I'll be back soon." I said nonchalantly, smiling.
"Have fun." Then Rosalie disappeared under the car once again.
I hopped into my midnight blue Audi and drove to the nearest office supply store. I pulled into the parking lot near the front entrance and proceeded to walk inside. I walked to the back of the store to the photocopying machine. I took the photo out from my purse and punched in on the keypad the amount I wanted which was two hundred copies. Then, I slid my credit card into the machine paying for my copies and patiently waited for it to finish.
After the short wait, I retrieved my copies and placed them into a thick envelope, sealing it tightly then placing it into my designer purse very carefully to not crumple or bend the photocopied pictures. Before I left I also picked up a roll of clear scotch tape.
When I arrived back to the Cullen's, I immediately went up to my room to hide my photos. Everything was going seamlessly so far. My next step was talking to Alice which I assumed would go well.
I skipped over to Alice's room and the door swung open before I even had the chance to knock.
A small perky pixie with spiky jet black appeared, excitement buzzing within her, "Hi Izzy!"
"Hey Alice, I was wondering if you would like to join me on a quick hunt?"
Her eyes lit up like a lit bulb on a Christmas tree, "Absolutely!' Alice squealed.
Together the two of us ran into the forest, our prey awaiting.
When we ran further into the thick forest and out of hearing range that's when I began to talk.
"So Alice, I was wondering if you could do me a favor?" I asked hopeful.
Alice's face broke out into a grin, "Of course silly! You should have just seen your face, it was hilarious!" Then she burst into a fit of laughter.
I joined in, our cries of laughter echoing in the silent forest.
When we both regained our composure, Alice spoke, "So what's this favor hmm?" She raised a brow, her gold eyes twinkling.
"Well Christmas Eve is tonight as you already know. And I have planned a sort of Christmas surprise for Edward tonight…" I paused, "And I was hoping you could make an excuse and get him out of the house at around eight-thirty for about half an hour."
"A Christmas surprise huh?" She smirked, "Yeah I'm sure I can do that." Her eyes glazed over briefly, meaning she was envisioning something.
"Yep, I can definitely do it. You are set for tonight!" Alice confirmed.
I breathed a sigh of relief. Perfect. My plan hadn't failed me yet. Actually, never mind the yet, my plan will work out no matter what.
After working that out we resumed our hunt. I took down a mountain lion, and two elks while Alice drained two mountain lions and a deer. We got back home hours later, around five o'clock, perfect timing of course.
For the second time today, I rushed out to my Audi. My car roared as I turned the key to the emission and I was off to the salon for my hair appointment.
When I arrived there, my hairdresser was ready with an empty chair for me. I smiled, greeting her politely and sat down.
"So you want a full dye job?" She asked, lifting up a piece of my bright red hair.
"Yes." I replied, peering into the mirror with a devious glint in my eyes.
"What color?"
I grinned, "Chocolate brown."
And that's when the fun began. The hairdresser disappeared in the back briefly and brought out the prepared dye. I spent the next hour and a half getting dye slathered into my hair, then blow dried and shampooed. Then another blow dry.
But in the end, I got what I wanted. I peered into the mirror in front of me, holding up pieces of my brown colored hair. It felt surreal to be a brunette again after so many years. Just the change of hair color changed me.
"So, do you like it?" The hairdresser asked, looking down at the thick strands of dark hair in my hand.
"I love it."
I paid at the front desk, excitement bubbling inside of me, I could barely contain it. Honestly, I felt like Alice.
When I arrived back at the house, I ran up the stairs to my room at vampire speed so hopefully nobody would see my brown hair. If anybody were too, they would immediately make that connection to Bella and I couldn't have that happening. Not yet at least.
As soon as I shut the door behind me, I promptly began my work. First I started with my makeup. With a fresh makeup remover wipe, I erased the dramatic makeup, exposing my natural bare face.
I bit my lip, feeling so vulnerable. My skin void of my usual heavy makeup I caked on my face each and every day. My golden eyes free of the black eyeliner and dark eye shadows that usually rimmed my eyes. My light pink lips bare and deprived of their usual rich luscious red color.
I cringed just looking at myself. I already looked so much like Bella, my old identity. The one Edward rejected, dumping my pathetic ass in the forest.
From there I felt the old familiar depression creeping in. Refusing to fall into its trap, I shook my head to rid myself of those harmful thoughts and got to the task at hand.
I started with my foundation, blending it into my face with a stippling brush. The foundation covered my pale skin giving me a new slightly darker color that matched my human skin tone. I powdered my face with a fluffy brush to reduce the shininess. Next was my natural pink toned blush with a brushed over my cheekbones giving me an illusion of my blush as a human. The one Edward loved so much. My sharp pang of heartbreak.
Not having time to let my depression suffocate me once more I moved on. I never wore eye makeup as a human, so I skipped over that onto my lips. I swiped my lips with my nude lip gloss. Lastly, I put in my chocolate brown contacts hiding my topaz irises.
I almost cried at the sight in front of me. I looked just like my old self. Isabella Marie Swan. A frown tugged at the edges of my lips, I gnawed at my lip, something I hadn't done since I was human, trying to keep myself together.
In an attempt to force the pain away, I turned away from the mirror searching for my curling iron. Plugging it in, I waited for it to heat up. In the meantime, I took out my envelope of copied photos and set them on my desk, ready for later. While I had looked for my photocopied photos, I had come across lyrics to the first song I had written. Since this could also come in handy, I put the lyrics with the copied photos.
When the curling was blistering hot, I sectioned of my newly colored locks and began curling my hair piece by piece. I did this at human speed, allowing myself to think.
After my entire head was curled in tight ringlets, I ran my fingers through my hair, applying hair oil and hair spraying the curls into place. Next, I took a section of hair from the side of my head, delicately twisted it back and pinning it. I did that on both sides, just like Alice did for the night of my junior prom. Again, I hair sprayed and shook my head to loosen the tight curls.
Pleased with my finished result, I riffled through my belongings until my hand grabbed the sealed bag. Inside the airtight bag was my prom dress, smooth with no wrinkles or imperfections. The same exact dress I wore to the night of my prom, the same prom Edward accompanied me to. It was midnight blue; Edward's favorite color on me, it was halter cotton dress with a V neck, the bottom of the dress was ruffled ending below my knees. I had kept it after all these years. The bag had kept my human freesia strong and preserved. I laid the dress on the bed, not unsealing the bag yet since I wasn't completely ready yet, I couldn't have the Cullen's smelling my human scent now. It would ruin everything.
I had a few minutes left until Alice led Edward away from the house so I waited, seated on my bed, careful not to sit on the dress of course.
As I suspected, a few minutes later Alice had Edward swept out of the door and away from hearing range, distracting him with a new car she wanted. Deviously I smiled, greatly excited for what I was about to do.
I tip toed to Edward's room, noiselessly. Shutting the door behind me, I got to work. I taped the photocopied pictures to every surface possible. The walls, ceiling, bookshelf, and even his stereo.
I flipped a photo to its blank white backside. Taking out a pen, I sat on the couch, wondering how to word this. Finally, I decided to just let my heart do the work.
Edward,
I hope you enjoyed my little surprise. Do you like my picture choice? I thought it was pretty good myself. Well I suppose you may wonder how I have this picture, I did tell you I was friends with your pretty little Bella. But I lied.
I wasn't friends with her you see. But I do know lot's about her. Like, how you dumped her pathetic ass in the forest, promising her it was like you never existed, than planting a farewell kiss to her forehead.
I know you used her, she was just a mere distraction of course. But she should have known. I should have known. I take you still wonder how I fit into this situation… Well that's for you to figure out love.
It shouldn't be hard. After all, shouldn't you already know with all the damn hints I'm dropping. I'm just surprised you haven't found out already.
After all you've done Edward... you deserved revenge. But yet so much more than that, something out of my capability. So I done my best, silently torturing you with her freesia scent and playing parts of the lullaby you composed for her. What a fucking joke that song was. You were probably laughing while you composed it.
But I'm not quite done yet, I have left you a song I've written, actually the first song I've ever written. I hope you learn something from it. Also, I hope it inflicts some sort of twisted pain on you. But I cannot inflict the amount of pain you have forced upon myself, pain I will continue to live through for an eternity.
I suggest after you read through the lyrics you come downstairs for another surprise. One I have planned for quite some time now. Come down to the piano, I will be waiting for you there. There is only so much affliction I can subject on you, I just hope it is enough for you to finally realize you are truly a monster Edward. I know you always claimed you were, though I didn't believe it till now.
I hope you burn in deepest pits of hell Edward Anthony Masen Cullen.
Sincerely,
Izzy Elizabeth
Or as you may know me,
Isabella Marie Swan.
If you don't believe me then you will find out the truth soon.
No words could describe the amount of pain I've gone through in the last twenty years. Edward will never know the anguish he has put me through. Anguish so powerful, it would bring Jasper to his knees.
I laid the letter and the lyrics on Edward's nightstand, knowing Edward would see it there. I proceeded back to my room waiting for Alice to return with Edward. I knew it wouldn't be long before they returned. My dress was ready on the bed, but I couldn't put it on till Edward was in his room.
Minutes later the door opened and I heard the voices of Alice and Edward. Just on time of course. Alice joined Jasper in the living room while Edward retreated to his room. As soon as the door shut silently behind him there was a barely audible gasp followed by piercing silence.
At vampire speed, I stripped out of my clothes and into my midnight blue prom dress. I slipped on the black converse, exact replicas of the ones I owned as a human. I checked the mirror one last time, appearing to look identical to the night of my junior prom so many years ago. In a flash, I zipped out of the guest bedroom to Edward's piano room. I sat on the bench, nervousness beginning to get to me. Though I couldn't back out now, it was too late for that.
I wasn't waiting long before Edward came rushing in. I heard a gulp. Slowly I turned around. His eyes were wide with panic, and shock. But also another emotion I couldn't place.
I smirked, "So it appears you have found my note?"
Edward gulped again, "Impossible." His voice shaky and quiet. He didn't seem to believe that I was the one and only Bella. It didn't surprise me.
"Hmm, what a pity." I stood up, showing off my outfit.
I stalked over to Edward, purring in his ear, "You must remember this outfit?"
His wide panicked eyes shot over to mine, still he remained silent.
"However I suppose I don't look identical. I was wearing a cast that night. You know after the whole accident with James?"
Edward cringed.
"You know what Edward?" I narrowed my eyes at him, "I know why you didn't change me that night." Pausing, I circled him, my hand skimming over his muscular shoulder. Sparks shot up my fingers.
"You didn't want to be stuck with me for an eternity…" I trailed off, forcing myself to withdraw my hand from Edward's granite shoulder. "Instead you lied, blaming it on not wanting to take my soul away. I always knew that was bullshit..."
Silence followed once again. He had cut off his breathing.
I figured this was my cue. "I have something for you." I announced, turning my back on Edward to return to the piano bench.
I heard a sharp intake of breath but nothing else.
My fingers grazed over the keys as I readied myself. I closed my eyes, my fingers pressing on the ivory keys.
"No, I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most."
Memories flashed inside my head, I opened my mind up to Edward, breaking my shield.
I laid on the forest floor, broken and barely conscious.
"Edward." I whispered into the darkness, tears soaked my cheeks. I choked on a sob.
"Edward." My voice cracked.
"I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time"
I was in someone's arms, being carried through the forest. My mind was clouded, hazy, I could barely think. My chest was heavy with indescribable amounts of pain.
I tried to scream, but all that came out was, "He's gone."
"He's gone." I whispered again broken, it had become my mantra.
Finally we broke through the trees and I discovered I was in the arms of Sam Uley. An entire search party had been trying to find me. How long I had been in the forest, I didn't know. Time no longer mattered now that my love was gone.
"He's gone." I said softly, broken. I couldn't even cry as I was passed into Charlie's arms.
"And who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?"
"EDWARD!" Screaming, I jolted awake shaking. Tears oozed from my eyes as I wrapped my arms around myself trying to lessen the pain, the lingering images of my nightmare fading. My frame shook with sobs I desperately tried to muffle but it was already too late.
Charlie had come into my room, half asleep. "Bells…"
"I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I've learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time"
Depression consumed me. I sat on my bed looking into nothingness, as I had been doing for the last four months. Unable to function without Ed-him. My pale cheeks sunken in, my cracked lips a pasty white color, and deep purple circles etched beneath my blank eyes.
I had turned into a zombie.
"And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?"
Charlie, he had dragged me to to the doctors. He said my behavior isn't normal. I know I'm hurting him but I can't bring myself out of it.
The doctor looked up from his clipboard. His frowned, "It seems Isabella is catatonic."
Charlie appeared shocked and concerned but my expression didn't change. I only wanted my Edward. My chest tore open at the mere thought of his name.
"Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises"
"Victoria." I choked.
"Bella." She smiled a sick smile. Her lips bright red and her fangs dripping in venom.
"What do you want?" I tried to act brave but my voice broke at the end. The words burned in my dry throat. I was absolutely terrified.
"You of course." Victoria smirked as she stalked toward me. As she got closer I slowly backed up against wall.
"And now you're back
You don't get to get me back" I sang.
"Please don't hurt my dad." I pleaded.
Victoria cackled, "Too late, he was quite tasty..."
My knees buckled and I limply fell to the floor.
"W-why a-a-re you doing this?" I choked out, my throat thick from the sob threatening to escape.
"I thought you would have figured it out by now." She taunted, "But if I must explain."
"I am avenging my mate. I'm going to make Edward pay. He took my only reason of living away, I shall take his." The mention of his name brought on an uncomfortable ache to my shattered heart.
"And who do you think you are?
Running round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all"
In a flash Victoria lunged for my pale neck. A searing pain shot up my neck as her razor sharp teeth cut through my flesh then the unbearable burning began. The fire inched further away from the bite, the pain increasing with every second. Feeling as if my entire body was engulfed in ferocious flames. I could hear loud shrieks knowing they were my own, my body shook in pain and agony. My hands shot up to my neck and pressed down on the bite. Blood pooled out from the infected wound. My fuzzy eyesight could make out the scarlet blood left on my hands. The burning intensified, slowly blackness surrounded me.
"Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?" I finished, breathless.
By the end of the song the throbbing in my heart had turned to anguish but I didn't let Edward see it. I'm strong.
My eyes fluttered open, I retracted my fingers from the sleek eyes and braced myself for what was coming. Slowly, I turned around staring at the seven vampires in front of me. Edward has collapsed on his knees to the floor, Carlisle was shocked holding Esme tightly in his arms. Esme's golden eyes were glazed with venom tears, tears that would never fall. I could tell she was holding back a sob. Emmett was also holding Rosalie, Emmett's eyes held shock yet sadness while Rosalie's held anger. No surprise there. Jasper had a look a shock as well as guilt, Alice's eyes were also filled with tears, and I could tell she felt surprised as well asbetrayed.
But they betrayed me first.
A strangled sound came from Edward's throat, his eyes were a bottomless pit of agony.
"Bella…" He choked out.
That was it! I'm soo proud of how this turned out! I honestly felt like crying at the end, I've been listening to sad music while reading actually. It helps me provoke emotion. This chapter is much longer than I expected, it's just over 4700 words! My longest chapter ever, but I had a lot of stuff to fit into it. Also, thank you for helping me reach over 100 reviews! I love you all! I seriously hope you guys like this chapter, the long awaited one of course. I am so excited to continue writing this story, there is so much more drama ahead!
I have another story I am working on along with this one, feel free to check it out if you want. It's called Impending Dreams, here is the summary:
Bella has had future telling dreams for a while now, but she has told no one. What if she had a dream of Edward leaving her before it actually happened? Could she stop Edward from leaving? Set in New Moon.
Also feel free to check out my amazing beta 'Mystically Forbidden'! She's great and she is a big help to me. Go check out her story Stalker Vibe :)
So that's it for this update, please review and tell me how you liked the reveal! I'm very excited to see what you guys have to say about this chapter :D
~ Alexandra xx
Song in the chapter: "Jar of Hearts" By Christina Perri
