(Sorry this took so long! This is probably the longest chapter I've ever written. It would have been longer, but I didn't wanna keep all of my wonderful readers waiting any longer, so I decided to put the rest of what I was gonna write in the next chapter. Anyways, I hope you enjoy!)
Chapter 14
Elphaba laid on her bed, her blank gaze on the ceiling. She had been awake for hours. You see, today was Elphaba's birthday. Most people would think that was wonderful, but Elphaba knew better. Her birthday had never been something to celebrate. When she lived back in Munchkinland, Frex would take it as a chance to punish her more then normal just for the fact that Elphaba was born at all. Elphaba winced at the dreadful memories.
It hadn't been much better here at Shiz, but she still never once had a happy memory from her birthday. Morrible would usually let her skip a day of class, which Elphaba was grateful for. She was never in the mood for classes on her birthday.
Elphaba was still awake when Nessa woke up. "Fabala? How long have you been awake?" She asked, confused to see Elphaba up so early. "How would I know? I can't see the stupid clock." Elphaba muttered, not looking away from the ceiling. "What's wrong?" Nessa asked, getting up and sitting next to Elphaba on her bed.
"It doesn't matter." Elphaba sighed, sitting up and pulling her knees to her chest. Nessa's gaze suddenly fell on Elphaba's calander. The square on that day's date read 'My birthday'. "Fabala, is today your birthday?" She asked, making Elphaba cringe at the very words. "Yes..." The green girl whispered, looking down. "Oh, Fabala! That's wonderful! Happy birthday!" Nessa pulled Elphaba into a warm hug. Elphaba tensed, having a flashback on her past.
"Daddy! It's my birthday!" A four year old Elphaba shrieked, running down the stairs. "Why are you so cheerful? That was a dreadful day, the day you were born. Everyone's life would be better if you never existed!" Frex scowled at her. "W-what do you mean?" Elphaba took a step back, scared of the way Frex was talking to her.
"You're nothing more then a mistake! A hideous, sinful, green mistake! If you were never born, your sister wouldn't be crippled! If you were never born, your mother would still be alive! You cause nothing but misery in everyone's lives!" Frex yelled, throwing Elphaba to the ground. "I-i don't understand..." Elphaba was fighting back tears. "What do you not understand!? All you need to remember that you are nothing but a horrible mistake! Those stupid stories you always read speak of everyone finding love at some point in their lives. Well, in your case, that is a lie! Nobody could ever love you! Nobody ever has, and nobody ever will! Never forget that! You are nothing but a mistake!"
"I'm nothing but a mistake...nobody could ever love me..." Elphaba whispered, rocking back and forth with her knees still pulled to her chest. "Fabala, what in Oz are you talking about?" Nessa asked, worried about Elphaba now. What was going on. "Everyone would be better off if I never existed..." Elphaba continued murmuring memories from her past. "What! B-but that's not true! Fabala, can you hear me? Fabala!?" Nessa was shaking Elphaba, but the green girl didn't seem to hear her and she wasn't responding to anything.
"Fabala, wake up!" Nessa was horrified. She jumped up from her bed and ran out of the room. She had to find help. Something was going on with Elphaba, and she had no idea what to do. The first person that came to Nessa's mind that might be able to help was Fiyero. Fiyero would help her. She just knew it.
Elphaba was still acting the same way when Nessa and Fiyero came rushing back into the room. "Elphaba? Fae, wake up!" Fiyero had sat down on the bed and pulled Elphaba into his arms. Fae was a nickname he had recently started calling Elphaba. "Nobody could ever love me..." Elphaba whispered, not waking up from the memory yet. "Wait, what!? Fae, that's not true! I love you!" Fiyero was completely horrified at the terrible things Elphaba was muttering about herself.
Suddenly, it got a whole lot worse. Elphaba let out a scream. "No, don't hurt me! Please don't hurt me!" Elphaba screamed, flailing her arms. "Fae, it's just me! It's me, Fiyero! I'm not gonna hurt you! Please wake up!" Fiyero pleaded, holding her tight. A second later, Elphaba seemed to snap back into reality. She was breathing hard, completely out of breath as if something horrible had just happened to her. Of course, that wouldn't surprise Nessa or Fiyero after what they had just witnessed.
"Fae, are you okay?" Fiyero asked, worried about her. Tears were streaming down Elphaba's cheeks. "I-i don't wanna talk about it." Elphaba whispered, not even trying to hold back her tears. "Shh, it's okay, Fae. I'm right here. Nothing is going to happen to you." Fiyero stroked her raven hair, whispering comforting things to her. Elphaba was shaking a little, but she seemed to be fine at the moment. He held her in his arms until Elphaba finally closed her eyes and fell asleep.
"Nessa, what in Oz happened? Why was Elphaba acting like that?" Fiyero asked Nessa after he was sure Elphaba was completely asleep. He didn't put Elphaba down, scared that if he let her go, she might wake up and have one of those weird 'scenes' again. "I-i'm not sure. Fabala's calendar said it was her birthday, so I asked if it was true, and she didn't seem all to comfortable when she was it was true. So I told her I thought that was wonderful, and she froze up for a minute before she started muttering those horrendible things about herself! It was almost as if she wasn't even here. It was more like she was in some kind of trance. I-i don't know what's wrong! I hope it wasn't because of something I said!" There were tears in Nessa's eyes.
She was just so worried about her sister. "I'm sure it wasn't your fault, Nessa. You go to class, okay? I'll stay here with Fae." Fiyero wasn't about to abandon Elphaba for an entire day. There was obviously something going on with her, and he was gonna find out what. "Okay. I'll see you later. Please make sure nothing happens to Fabala again." Nessa grabbed her books before leaving the room.
After Nessa had left, Fiyero laid Elphaba back down on her bed, covering the green girl with a blanket. A minute later, Elphaba's eyes fluttered open again. "F-fiyero? Is that you?" She asked, feeling that someone was holding her hand. "It's me, Fae. You don't have to worry. Nothing is going to happen to you." Fiyero assured her. "Where's Nessa?" Elphaba asked, not hearing anyone else in the room. "I told her to go to class. I'm gonna stay with you all day, okay?" He told her. He wasn't gonna leave her side the whole day.
"B-but why?" Elphaba asked, confused that he would stay with her. "Because I love you." He smiled at her. Elphaba froze when he said that. "Fae? Fae, are you okay?" Fiyero asked, noticing that Elphaba had frozen up. Exactly the way Nessa had described what happened right before Elphaba had her little 'scene' earlier. As if on cue, Elphaba started muttering terrible things about herself again. "Nobody could ever love me...nobody could ever love me..." Elphaba whispered over and over again.
"Fae, don't say that! That's not true! Why would you ever say something like that?" Fiyero was scared. What was happening to Elphaba? This went on for five minutes before Fiyero finally got an idea. "Don't worry, Fae. I'll be right back." He whispered to Elphaba before leaving the room. Though Elphaba had been having a lot of troubles lately, she had still managed to keep her promise to teach Daphne sorcery. Maybe magic could help Elphaba. Daphne was probably Fiyero's only hope of helping Elphaba.
Daphne was sitting outside, reading a book, when Fiyero came running over to her. He looked frantic. "What's wrong, Fiyero?" Daphne asked, closing her book. "I don't have time to explain. Just run back to your room, grab all the spell books you can find, and come back to Elphaba's room." Fiyero instructed before running off again. "Wait, what!?" Daphne called after him, but Fiyero was already gone.
Daphne got up, deciding that she just needed to trust that this was important. So she headed to her room and grabbed every spell book on her shelf. There were about ten books piled in her arms by the time she left the room. She walked to Elphaba's room and knocked on the door. A second later, Fiyero opened the door. "Thank goodness you're here!" Fiyero grabbed her arm and pulled her into the room, closing the door behind them.
"Fiyero, what in Oz is going on!?" Daphne demanded. Suddenly, she heard whispers coming from Elphaba's bed. "Nobody could ever love me...nobody could ever love me..." The voice whispered over and over again. "Please Daphne, something is wrong with Elphaba! I've tried everything, but she's been like this all day and she doesn't seem to respond to anything! I was thinking maybe you could find some way to help her with your magic." Fiyero explained, leading her to Elphaba's bed.
Daphne gasped when she saw Elphaba. The green girl was shaking, muttering terrible things over and over again. "I-i'll try my best." Daphne told Fiyero before sitting on the bed next to Elphaba and putting her spell books down on the bedside table. She only had to look into Elphaba's eyes for a second to know what was going on. "I think she's having visions. Most likely of her past.
"Can you help her?" Fiyero asked. "I think so." Daphne replied, pulling one of her many books out of the pile on the table. She flipped threw the pages before stopping at a chapter labeled 'Visions'. She read the first paragraph out loud.
"Visions are very common to people with magic abilities. They can be a good thing, showing you things that have happened, and that will happen. Unfortunately, visions are uncontrollable and cannot be summoned whenever you want. Visions aren't always good either. Sometimes, visions of your past like to come back and haunt you. Visions like these are never a good thing. Your mind likes to remember bad things that have happened in the past and make you relive those memories over and over again through visions. Some people like to say that these kind of visions make you stronger, but that is a lie. These memories like to tear you apart from the inside, making you relive the darkest parts of your past till there is nothing left of you.
Unless stopped, there will be nothing left of you. The person you once were will be lost forever. There is no spell to stop these certain visions. Stopping them is something you must do yourself. You can't let the memories hurt you. They can't haunt you unless you allow them to." Daphne read.
"And you think this is what's going on with Elphaba?" Fiyero asked, even more worried now. "There's no doubt about it. We have to stop this or there won't be anything left of her." Daphne nodded, flipping threw another spell book now. "What are we gonna do? I don't know what I would do if anything happened to her!" Fiyero was holding Elphaba's hand a little too tight. "Shut up and be quiet! We can't panic, okay? I'm going to try to help Elphaba, but I have to find a spell so I can figure out what is causing these visions. But I can't do that if you keep panicking like this!" Daphne yelled, annoyed at Fiyero. She was just as worried as he was, but at least she could stay calm.
Fiyero stayed quiet, deciding that he just had to trust that Daphne knew what she was doing. A few minutes later, Daphne found what she was looking for. "I'm going to try to see into Elphaba's memories, okay? If I freeze up and stop responding to anything, don't panic. That just means that the spell worked. The book also says I might fall unconscious, so don't panic if that happens either. Stay here and take care of Elphaba. I'll be back soon." Daphne explained. Before Fiyero to respond, Daphne was already chanting in a strange language.
When Daphne stopped chanting, she froze up, not moving anymore. "Daphne?" Fiyero asked. Daphne didn't respond. Suddenly, Daphne's eyes closed and she fell of the bed, onto the floor. Instead of panicking, Fiyero just picked Daphne up and laid her down on Nessa's empty bed. "Please hurry." He said, even though he knew Daphne couldn't hear him. Fiyero went back to Elphaba's bed and sat down next to her. She seemed to have calmed down a little, but she was still whispering things repeatedly. "Shh, it's okay, Fae. We're gonna help you." He told her, holding her hand.
About five minutes later, both Elphaba and Daphne woke up at the same time. "It worked!" Daphne sat bolt upright, grinning broadly. Fiyero smiled back at her before looking down at Elphaba. "How are you feeling?" He asked the green girl. "I-i don't know. What happened?" Elphaba asked, not even trying to get up from her bed. She was exhausted. "You were having visions. Can you tell me what they were about?" Fiyero was gentle with her, trying to get her to tell him what was going on. "I-i can't." Elphaba really didn't wanna tell him about her past.
"You don't really have a choice. If you don't tell him, I will. I used my magic to get into your memories, and I saw everything." Daphne smirked, walking over and sat next to Elphaba's bed, opposite the side that Fiyero was on. "Y-you saw my memories!?" Elphaba was absolutely horrified. Nobody could know about her past. Nobody could know what she went through.
"I had no choice. These visions are destroying you. I couldn't figure out a way to stop them without knowing what was causing them. Just read this spell book!" Daphne held the spell book where she found the information of the visions to Elphaba. "I'm blind, remember?" Elphaba sighed. "Oh ya...sorry. Anyways, as I said before, if you don't tell him your visions, I will!" Daphne threatened a second time, fully ready to tell Fiyero everything if she had to.
"Please don't! Nobody can know!" Elphaba pleaded, tears in her eyes. She already had plenty of sympathy, she didn't need any more. "Elphaba, please! We're trying to help you! I know you've been hurt, but hiding your past won't solve anything. Now, I'm going to ask you one more time. Can you please tell Fiyero about your visions?" Daphne asked, trying her best to stay calm. She didn't wanna be too forceful, but it was extremely important for Fiyero to know what was going on so he could help.
"Please don't make me..." Elphaba whispered, tears in her eyes. Fiyero just wrapped her in his arms. "I really care about you, Fae. We care about you. We don't wanna see you hurt. We really wanna help you, but we can't if you don't let us." Fiyero told her, holding her tight. "Y-you promise not to get upset?" Elphaba asked, knowing she would have to tell him sooner or later. "I promise." Fiyero told her. "My father hates me..." Elphaba whispered, then she started crying again.
(Don't kill me! Runs and hides)