A/N : Hey my adorable readers! I didn't think I would uploud a second chapter for this one. But things have been happening in the RP on Twitter and I got inspirated again.

Once more my thanks to my sis Magicanimegirl ! I love you sis!

I hope you like it!

Dear Diary,

Here I am again… My life changed… completely. Like mentioned earlier, yup I am pregnant. But I feel so down the last few days. I don't know why. Is that because of my hormones? *sighs* I don't know.

All I can think about is the last conversation I had with Blondie. It started so well, but ended badly… Only because I am so stupid… I got upset and started yelling… I feel so bad for yelling and lying. He left after that happened. I'm sure he hates me, that he will leave me. I'm so scared right now… I cried after he left.

I was so happy. I went for a check up for my baby and I found out the gender. So I rushed back to school and started to look for Blondie, telling him what I found out from the check, when I found him. I told him that everything was fine and what the gender is. That was the first lie… It's not fine at all.

I don't know how I got it… but my healer said I'm slowly getting depressed. She said that I looked tired. I admitted that didn't sleep so well anymore, a bitt stressed. I also told her that everything gets on my nerves really fast, and that it feels like that I can't protect my friends…

She asked me one question that scares me to death… She asked if I had thoughts about ending my life… the first thing I did was yelling at her that she was crazy, she just looked at me strangely and told me that I should take it easy and relax more.

But I don't understand why… I am happy that I am pregnant, to get married and that I have Blondie by my side… Is it my friends? That I won't see them as much? Is it from the situation from what happened with Rod and Bella? That sounds more logical…

After some thinking about it… I think it has to do with those two… They are so close to Blondie, and I think I'm scared to lose Blondie because they will try things again… I can't loose him, it would kill me…

What should I do? Tell him? I can't… He will worry to much… I have to pretend…

Will that work? I hope so…

Until next time

XoXo- Prongs

A/N : Hey readers, this was chapter two! I hope you liked it! I know it was shorter, I'm sorry. I hope the next one will be longer!

XX-Rose