A/N: This is a reply to the guest that made a comment after the last chapter, because I cant´t answer the reviews from guests. But I think I need to answer this:
You commented on my quotation marks, that the these «arrows» should not be used. I know that they are not used in the english language but my computer settings is for my language and here we use the arrows. And I can´t find a way to use the right quotation for the english language. But I hope you will continue to read this story! (And I have read plenty of books actually ;) ) Thank you so much for the comment!
A new chapter comes here for you all. Enjoy! -J
The rest of the day is a mess. A boy thinks he, Kurt, is beautiful. Kurt admitted to someone that he is gay and he like someone. And he revealed other secrets as well.
But it is not the revelation that is making it all a mess, it is the thought of maybe having a friend and that friend thinks his beautiful and he want to talk to Kurt.
The mess is confusing. This is good stuff. Things that should make him happy. He is happy. This is what he wanted. But he is scared. Maybe it is not for real. Why is he feeling this way? Like it is to overwhelming. His brain is making him worn out.
«Why cant´t I just be normal!» Kurt is almost angry at himself. This is just stupid.
The next morning Kurt wakes up relaxed and calm. He feels like he has gotten his thoughts sorted out, and he can think much clearer now. Kurt almost laughs at the minor break down he had last night. It doesn´t feel so overwhelming anymore. But he still don´t know how to approach the boy.
Kurt´s father stands in the kitchen when he gets down for breakfast.
«Good morning, kiddo!» Burt says as he sees his son. They have been much more comfortable around each other lately.
«Good morning, dad!» Kurt smiles at his dad, and opens the refrigerator. «Eh…dad? Can I ask you something?» Kurt closes the door to the fridge without taking anything out.
«Of course, Kurt. Always»
«How do I get to now somebody? I mean, I don´t know how to talk to this person…I just…I don´t know…scared I guess…» Kurt fumbles with the string on his pajama pants.
«Oh, is there somebody special?» Burt teases. Kurt blushes. Burt got his answer.
«No..I don´t know…M-maybe..»
«I´m just teasing you, Kurt. Relax and tell me what you need to know.»
«Ok…I might like this person, but I don´t know him. I don´t even know if he is…y-you know, g-gay. And I saw something yesterday that made me think he needs help in some way. And I don´t know how to approach him or even be near him. But I feel like I have to do something, and I never felt like that before.» Kurt looks at his hands and he doesn´t see the knowing smile on his fathers face.
«You know Kurt, some people would just go straight up to the person and talk about anything. Easy as that. But I know you, Kurt, and that is not for you. You need a more softer approach. You need to know, before you act. Maybe you should find out more about him first, find out what he likes to do, see if you have something in common. Then it is much easier to talk if you have some common ground.»
Kurt smiles at his father and says. «Thanks, dad. And…thanks for knowing me.»
Kurt eats breakfast and get ready for school. School doesn´t seem so terrible today. Today, Kurt is on a mission. Kurt decides that this will be the day when things change. He just need to be in control of things, and then things will be better.