Blaine Anderson is losing the control he has been working so hard to keep. It feels like the world is tumbling down on him again. The anniversary, memories of bullying, the relationship with his parents. And Kurt, sweet, wonderful Kurt, who doesn't get the connection. Blaine was sure he would, but he didn't. And Blaine has been kind of lying to him. That is bad. You don't start a new friendship based on lies. He just wanted to help Kurt, and he thinks he did, but Kurt wasn't supposed to find him broken and lost in the bathroom. He was the one who was going to help Kurt, not the other way around.
Blaine is walking towards the front door of his home. He wonders if his parents noticed he was gone all night. Probably not. They are living in their own bubble, and hardly notice anything what Blaine does. In the Anderson's house you never talk about uncomfortable things like feelings or that you have a gay son, or that your son was bullied so much he had to change school to cope.
You just put on a smile for the outside world to see. Blaine is actually pretty good at that, but lately he has been failing at that too.
He doesn't doubt that his parents love him. They are just distant and appearances is very important to them. Blaine knows deep down that they do care in their own weird way.
In times like this he really misses Cooper. His older brother moved out five years ago when he started collage. But them he dropped out and got a job in a bar in LA. So naturally, Cooper is no subject in his home either. Blaine calls him sometimes, but it is not the same as if his brother was here.
Blaine enters his house, and as he expects, no one is rushing towards him with questions or worried expressions. The house is very quiet actually. Maybe his parents is out. Most of the time they never tell Blaine what they are up to and when they get home. But despite his parents lack of interest in his life, he always have everything he need. Food, clothes and money are never a problem. Blaine sighs and walk upstairs to his room. He feels incredibly lonely in his own house sometimes.
When he has closed the door to his room, he tosses himself on the bed. Blaine is staring at the ceiling for a long time. «Kurt…» he thinks. «I probably messed up every chance I ever got to be friends with him» There is something vibrating somewhere in the room, his phone probably. Just a short sound so it is a text from someone. He is trying to remember where he left it.
«Glee» he thinks, «I had it in my hands when I walked into the choir room reading a text from Kurt. Then I put it in my bag, not my pocket like I usually do.» Blaine slowly rises from the bed and pick up his bag from the chair in the corner. He finds his phone and looks at it.
Two new messages from Kurt and one missed call, also from Kurt. Blaine gasps and trying to decide what to do. Maybe Kurt found out, and is furious with him. Maybe he called to tell him to keep away from him. Maybe…
Blaine has to know, so he opens up the missed call and look at the time. «3.32 pm» That was strange. He opens up the first message and notices that it was sent two minutes before the call.
From Kurt:
«I kind of need your help with something!»
«That was probably when I was in the bathroom» Blaine's brain is working hard to catch up with something. He doesn't quite get it. Blaine opens the other message, that was the on that came minutes ago.
From Kurt:
«You are probably busy today, but I don't know who else to turn to. I think I kind of messed up something. I don't know actually. I took your advice about how to get to know the boy I was talking about, and it went well. At least I thought so. But I must have freaked him out or something because he ran of when I asked to exchange numbers. I probably went to far and now he hates me…I don't know what to do.»
Blaine gasps and his eyes widens. His brain is finally catching up. Kurt is not the only one who hasn't got the connection.
«Oh my god! Kurt likes me and has been trying to get to know me, while I have given him the advice to do so. This is really messed up…» Blaine falls back on the bed and groans. How is he going to fix this mess? Kurt will never forgive him for this. He wish he told Kurt that he is B, but he didn't know how to do it.
He needs to fix this. Blaine decides that tomorrow he is going to tell Kurt the truth. He has to. Kurt doesn't deserve to be lied to. He just has to hope that Kurt will forgive him for being scared and stupid. Still Blaine types on more messages as B., because Kurt need that now.
From B:
«No one could ever hate you! Please remember that, Kurt! XO»