Blaine doesn't sleep much that night. He tosses and turns in his bed, and when he finally falls asleep he wakes up an hour later from a bad dream where Kurt is drowning and he can't do anything but watch him go under. He is sweaty and his head hurts.
After a shower Blaine feels a little bit better, but not much. He eats breakfast but it doesn't taste good, and he takes the bus to school, wishing he had his car, so he wouldn't have to sit in this yellow box with all the cheerful and happy kids. The bus trip feels like an eternity, but still it goes to fast.
Blaine feels nauseous when he enters the school building. He walks towards where he know Kurt has his locker, and hopes to find him there. Kurt isn't there yet so Blaine waits. He knows he has to do this, but it still feels like he is going to faint anytime.
«Hi, Blaine» Blaine is so occupied with his own thoughts, so he didn't notice Kurt is approaching. Kurt voice is reluctant and careful.
«H-hi, Kurt» Blaine can feel his hands getting sweaty and his heart is beating hard and fast. «I'm sorry for…for running out yesterday. I….there…I» he is struggling to form a sentence. «I need to…»
«Hey, B!» Both Kurt and Blaine's head snaps up and turns towards the sound. «Do you want to work on the glee assignment today after school?» Sam looks expectant at Blaine. «Dude, you look kind of pale today, are you sick?» Blaine swallows, shakes his head and turn to Kurt. He can see that he's got it know, the connection. His eyes are wide and Blaine can see many emotions in there. Surprise, revelation, betrayal, hurt. And tears. Blaine can see tears forming in those beautiful eyes. But before Kurt's tears are falling down, he turns away and run.
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Kurt runs. He doesn't know where he is going, he just needs to get away from Blaine, from B, from everything. Kurt runs until he is out of breath and his feet won't carry him any longer. Them he slides down with his back against a tree. He is in a park, and there is no one around at this time of day. And he let the tears flow freely. For a long time. Until there are no tears left in him. He closes his eyes and let his head fall against the trunk.
Kurt can't believe he was so stupid. He trusted someone he didn't know, and told him things about himself. And all this time Blaine has been playing games with him. Kurt feels betrayed and hurt and used. Why would Blaine do that, after all he has been through himself? Was Blaine telling the truth last night? Was it all a game? Is he that good of an actor?
The questions are floating around his head, the biggest of them all is «Why?»
Kurt knows that he has gotten several texts. His phone won't stop vibrating in his pocket. He is sure he can guess who it is from. But Kurt is not sure if he is ready to take a look, to be made fun of, for Blaine to laugh at him, because he was so stupid to just fall right into one of his games.
Suddenly the phone is ringing, and Kurt takes it out to reject it. «B» is flashing over the screen. The ringing stops when he presses the button, and Kurt decides to take a look at the messages anyway. He was right, they are all from B, or Blaine, because that his real name. He knows that now. And he wishes he didn't.
From B:
«I'm so sorry, Kurt! I never meant to hurt you. I was going to tell you.»
«I'm sorry, please forgive me!»
«I never lied to you, besides not telling you who I was. Everything else is the truth.»
«Please, Kurt! Talk to me»
«I'll be here, anytime….»
«I'm sorry…»
Kurt doesn't answer. He is angry now. At Blaine, at himself, at everything in his stupid and miserable life. Kurt just want to go home and bury himself in his bed, alone, away from the cruel world that keeps playing him. Kurt is defeated and knocked down once again.
Kurt gets up and walks back to get his car from the car park. For the second time in his life Kurt is skipping school.