Blaine is easy to be with. Kurt feels that he doesn't have to talk if he doesn't want to. Blaine is there and lets Kurt decide if he wants to talk. Kurt doesn't really know Blaine, and normally people he doesn't know terrifies him. But it is different with Blaine. But mostly they stay silent and Kurt has got a lot on his mind, so he needs that.
But after the pizza has been eaten, Blaine breaks the silence.
«I'm really sorry, Kurt…»
«Oh…It's…» Blaine interrupts Kurt before he can say anything more.
«Can I please tell you everything, before you say something? Then you can decide if you believe me or not.» Blaine looks at Kurt with pleading eyes and Kurt can see that Blaine is sincere and really wants to explain.
«Ok…» Kurt says and turns towards Blaine, curls up on the couch both boys are sitting in. But there is a comfortable distance between them.
«For several weeks ago I noticed this boy,» Blaine starts after a deep breath. «I thought he was the most beautiful boy I have ever seen. He always looked so sad and lonely and his eyes was never looking up. Always down on the floor. I didn't know who he was, because I had just started attending this school. But I could see that the other students didn't notice him, or they made comments behind his back. Some even walked right into him on purpose.» Kurt swallows and feel his eyes getting wetter.
«That made me so angry, and so sad, because I it was like I could feel what this boy was going through. At one point in my life I did know how it felt, I knew too well. I had to do something. I decided that I had to talk to someone who might know this boy, and I found out that my new friend at least knew a little bit. She told me his name, and she told me that he didn't use to be so sad and strange. She had given up on him, she told me, after trying to be his friend. He just secluded himself from the world around him. «But I will not give up, I thought. I need to do something.» One day, my friends and I had a performance at the school, and I sang a song. And while I was singing this song I found the most stunning blue eyes I have ever seen. But I had to look away, or I would never have been able to finish the song. Later that day I sent him a text message. I had gotten his number from my friend. He didn't answer me at first, and then I sent a new message. But I think I scared him, especially after the third one, when he found out I had been watching him. I'll admit that I would have been a little freaked out about that myself. But he did answer, and I think we got a connection and he opened up to me more and more. I signed one of the messages with the first letter of my name. Maybe I internally hoped he would know who I was. But he didn't. But after a while I wanted him to get it, so much. And when he started to talk about this guy he liked, I was so jealous.» Kurt gasps, but Blaine continues.
«But I couldn't let him know that, because I was supposed to help him, and maybe this guy would be good for him. And at this point I was a mess myself because of the anniversary of my best friends death. The boy found me when I was having a break down, and he was so kind and so helpful and so wonderful, but he still didn't get it. But I found out that the boy in his world, was actually me, and I didn't know how to tell him, but I decided that I had to, the next day. That was the day when he got it. He got the connection. But I didn't tell him.» Blaine bites his lips and looks at Kurt. Kurt can see that Blaine is nervous and he can see that he is telling the truth. Kurt dries the tears that is still falling down, and he is sure he once again look like a mess in front of Blaine. But he doesn't care, it is different with Blaine.
«I should have told you, but I was scared, and I am so sorry! I will not give up on you, Kurt, and I hope that you can forgive me…»
A/N: So what do you think? Should Kurt forgive him? -J