«I should have told you, but I was scared, and I am so sorry! I will not give up on you, Kurt, and I hope that you can forgive me…»
«Of course I forgive you, but I'm sorry too. I'm sorry that I didn't let you explain. I know there is a reason for the things we say or do, but when I get scared or uncomfortable I tend to run away.» Kurt lowers his look and Blaine puts one finger under his chin and lift his head up again. Their eyes meet.
«Please, don't do that anymore.» Blaine whispers. «Don't hide, not from me» Kurt nods gently and Blaine says with a smile: «Look up once in a while. I want to see your eyes!» And Kurt smiles, for real, and for the first time in a very long time. And then he starts to laugh. And he can't stop. It is like all of the tension and every little locked up feeling is flowing through his body and released by his laughter. It feels good and it feels like a huge relief and he can hear Blaine starts to laugh with him. They laugh until their stomach hurts and they are both drying their tears. When they can't laugh anymore they just sit besides each other, hands touching, small smiles are playing on their lips, eyes are staring and they try to even their breaths.
«Wow,» Kurt is the one breaking the silence this time, he let go of Blaine's hand and looks away blushing. His heart is beating very fast and hard in his chest, but if feel so good. He can't remember when he felt this good.
«I think I needed that.»
«Yeah, I think you needed that too. And I was right.» Blaine smiles
«Right about what?»
«That you are even more beautiful when you smile.»
«Oh…T-thank you.» This isn't helping the blushing. Kurt doesn't know what to say, but he can feel that Blaine is ok with that. He can feel that he understands him in some way. It is a good feeling to know that you don't have to say anything.
«You don't have to say anything» Blaine says and Kurt can't help but put on a smile again. «I know that it is hard for you. Just be yourself.»
«Thank you» Kurt says agains. And this time he looks right at Blaine. «There are many things I would like to say, but I don't know how.» He blurts out before he can stop himself.
«That is ok. You'll tell when you are ready. We'll just talk about other things or nothing at all. Your choice»
«Well, actually it is late and I'm exhausted…» Kurt stands up and gather the leftovers and their glasses.
«Oh..do you want me to go?»
«No…I don't want that, but your parents must worry about you…» Kurt stops and look at Blaine. There is an emotion he can't quite catch in Blaine's eyes, but just for a second and then it is gone.
«Eh..no..I sent them a message after I ordered the pizza, so they know where I am and they are ok with it.» The truth is that Blaine did send the message, but he never heard back from his mother, because she is probably busy with far more interesting things than her son.
«Ok, then…lets clear this table and go up stairs. I will show you around.»
«Oh!» Blaine jumps up from the couch. «I haven't…I mean I didn't bring anything. Clothes and toothbrush and….But I could go home and get the stuff I need, if that is ok with you. I swear I'll come back this time,» He says when he can see the panic rise in Kurt's eyes. «Or you can come with me? If you want to. It is just a five minute walk, but I have my car so it will be quick. Or I'll have to wake up very early to go home before school.»
«Or, I could just lend you some pajamas and I have a new toothbrush you can have. But if you want to go get your own, thats ok.» Kurt says.
«Ok, then I will just drive home and change before school tomorrow.»Blaine smiles, and they enters the kitchen and put the dishes in the sink.
«So, I'm ready for the tour of your house now, Mr. Hummel!» Blaine bows down and does a silly hand waving. Kurt can't help but chuckle.
«Very well, follow me then, Mr…» Kurt just realizes that he doesn't know Blaine's last name.
«Anderson»
«Mr. Anderson, this way to the bedroom.» They smile and laugh at their own silly behavior and walks up stairs.
When they are up and Kurt is standing outside his room, it hits him. He hasn't thought this through, this sleeping arrangement. He never had anybody sleeping over. They have got a spare room that was supposed to be a guest room, but it is just used for storage since they never needed an extra bedroom.
Kurt has a large bed, but he doesn't know if Blaine would be comfortable with sharing with him. He doesn't know if he is comfortable with it himself either. They don't know each other that well. Blaine notices that Kurt is hesitant.
«Are you ok, Kurt?»