Blaine can see the way Kurt's body stops at the door, and he hesitates.
«Are you ok, Kurt?» Blaine asked gently. «Have you changed your mind? It is ok if you want me to go»
«No…I-It's just that I-I haven't done this before…I haven't slept with anyone before…» Blaine's eyes widens and his mind stopped functioning for a second.
«Oh my god!» Kurt blurts out. «I didn't mean…I haven't…I…sleep…not…» Kurt's face is red like a tomato and his sentences seem to have vanished. Blaine can't help but laugh when his brain is starting up again.
«I mean…not shared a bed…not s-sex…but I haven't slept with any…oh my God. I'll stop now» Kurt turns his head toward the floor and his eyes is tightly shut. His squeezes his arms around his body and his knuckles are turning white.
«Kurt..» Blaine smiles and tilt Kurt's head up with his hand. «I thought we agreed that you shouldn't hide from me again. Look at me» Kurt lifts his head and looks into Blaine's eyes. «I know what you meant, Kurt. And we are just going to sleep. I'll sleep were ever you want me to. The couch down stairs, the floor or your bed. Your choice.» He can see that Kurt relaxes at his words «But, you should now…»Blaine starts «…that you are very adorable when you blush and stutter.»
Kurt's cheeks heath up again.
«Oh..» Was all he was capable of saying at the moment.
They enter Kurt's bedroom, and Blaine smiles reassuringly toward Kurt.
«Your room is very nice, and cozy.» Blaine says. «And it is very you»
«Thank you» Kurt is looking in his dresser for an extra pair of pajamas for Blaine, and Blaine can still see he is trying to act normal, but he is clearly still feeling embarrassed.
«Here», Kurt turns around handing Blaine the pajamas and point towards his bathroom. «The bathroom is over there and there is a spare toothbrush in the cabinet over the sink.
«Thank you.» Blaine enters the bathroom and stops infront of the mirror. He lets his breath out and leans over the sink.
He can't believe all that has happened today. He is here in Kurt's home, and he is going to sleep next to this wonderful and gorgeous boy. Blaine has been holding it together all day, for Kurt, but now he is freaking out. He feels so many things at once and he doesn't know how to keep himself from doing the things he want to do with Kurt. But he has to, at least until he is certain that Kurt wants the same things. He knows that Kurt likes him, but he doesn't know if he likes him enough or if Kurt is ready for something more than friendship. Because Kurt is his friend now, right? Blaine sighs and tries to control his body and his urges, and finds the toothbrush in the cabinet.
When Blaine comes out of the bathroom he can see Kurt sitting on his bed looking at something. It seems like a picture frame and Blaine walks over towards the other boy. Kurt shows him a picture of a woman. She is very beautiful, and she has kind blue eyes, just like Kurt.
«It is my mom» Kurt starts and Blaine sits down besides him. «She died when I was eight, and every night I talk to her picture, imagining she can hear me. I know it is stupid, but it is comforting in some way.»
«It is not stupid, I talk to my friend all the time. He's name was Kevin. I don't think I told you that. It is good to know that somebody out there listens to you.»
«Yes…» Kurt puts the picture frame down on his nightstand and stands up. «I'll just go to the bathroom and get ready» He picks up his pajama and closes the door behind him.
Blaine is once again alone. He doesn't know what to do. He can't lay down in bed, because he doesn't know witch side Kurt sleeps on, and he doesn't want to scare Kurt. So he waits for Kurt to take the lead. He just looks aimlessly around the room and waits.